Broken Dreams

Bella was pregnant in Breaking Dawn with Nessie. But what if she had a miscarriage? Can she save herself from depression? Or will she sink so low, she can't be saved? Happens when she gets home from the honeymoon. Please be kind with reviews! Enjoy!

I was pregnant. That's all I could think of while I was on the plane home. This was perfect. My life would be perfect. Gorgeous husband, beautiful son (I had a feeling it was a boy) and I would be a vampire soon. We could live happily ever after forever. Edward was silent, eyes shut and hands clenched together. I wondered if he was praying for my baby to die. He didn't like our son. And then I wondered if Edward even believes in God. He hated my beautiful baby boy, with green eyes and bronze hair. He thought that he would kill me. Edward said that my baby was part vampire, therefore stronger than other babies. I knew that my baby would never hurt me. He loved his mummy.

When we hit the turbulence I felt sick, so I had to throw up in the first class toilets. Thank god that we were in first class, because the toilet looked cleaner and the bathroom was bigger. I sat on the ground thinking about my gorgeous boy. He would make everything perfect.

"Bella?" Edward called. "Are you okay in there?"

He sounded nervous and anxious as always when I was sick. I wasn't sick though. I was blessed.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Our little boy is a fighter that's all" I said, a stupid grin on my face.

Edward walked back to our seats while I washed my face with some complimentary face towels. The cold water was nice on my skin and I continued to wash my face. It was calming and soothing.

A female voice spoke through the intercom about landing in 10 minutes and to return to our seats. I sighed and got up, patted my baby bump once and unlocked the door. I walked back to my seat and stared at Edward's face. He was tense and looked scared. Weird, a vampire scared. We started to descend and I felt my stomach drop. When we landed, Edward pushed me gently out of the plane and into the airport. We picked up our bags and walked to the parking lot. Carlisle was there in his black Mercedes with the tinted windows to hide his shining skin in the sunlight. When we got in he muttered a hello and started to speed down the highway.

"Carlisle? Is something wrong?" I asked, absolutely terrified at this point.

He looked grave, like someone had just died.

"Nothing is wrong Bella. I just need to find out about that baby" he said, keeping his eyes on the road.

Edward was sitting next to me in the backseat. He tensed and took a deep breathe. We kept driving and driving, until finally we reached the Cullen's beautiful huge house. Edward took all the bags inside with Carlisle's help. I took a deep breathe and walked into the house. All of a sudden, I saw a flash of black hair and was practically tackled by Alice.

"Oh my god, this is so awesome!! We're gonna have a little Cullen join us. I have to get shopping, we need clothes. This baby is going to have the best wardrobe in this world!!" She squealed, while jumping up and down.

I couldn't help but laugh. Alice's mood was infectious. I looked round at my family. Esme had a huge grin plastered on her face. Emmett was smiling too and I knew he was hoping it was another guy to play video games with. Jasper stood in the corner, totally silent and still like a statue. Rosalie was the happiest of them all. She rushed over and gave me the biggest hug she could give me without crushing me. I knew she had a big yearning for a baby, but since she couldn't have one, this was the second best thing, so she was still over the moon.

"Where is Edward and Carlisle?" I asked Rosalie. I needed Edward's comfort.

"Well, they are upstairs, discussing…. Um…. What to do about this baby." She said, still smiling.

"Oh, that's cool. Do you mind if I have a shower? I feel kinda gross after the plane ride." I asked her, feeling tired and in need of some hot water.

She smiled and offered me hers and Emmett's bathroom. I thanked her and rushed up the stairs as fast as I could without tripping. When I turned into their bedroom, I gasped. (pics on my profile) It was beautiful. Red and white with a big, comfy bed. There was a cute little white chair with a red cushion on it, and there were nets around the bed. The walk in wardrobe was amazing. White, with heaps of clothes and shoes. There was even a small mannequin with the pick of the day outfit on it. I decided to actually go in the bathroom. It was white and red as well, with a big bath and toilet. The sink was the first thing in the door with a big mirror with it. The shower was around the corner and it was pure white and big, which sounded just great to me.

I turned the water and hot water instantly poured out. It felt so nice on my sweaty skin. My stomach was starting to hurt though. I thought that it was just my little boy moving, but the pain was getting worse. I sat down and rolled into a ball. I needed to get out of this shower so I didn't drown. The pain was fierce and burning. Crawling out of the shower was a mission. The pain wouldn't let me move. I didn't want Edward to see me like this, naked and in pain, so I called the one person I knew would understand.

"Rosalie?" I called, knowing that she would hear me.

I heard her run up the stairs at vampire speed and come into the bathroom and walk around the corner.

"Yeah Bella?" She asked and then her face turned to horror.

She quickly turned off the shower and knelt next to me. The pain was dulling down, but it didn't feel right. I felt empty somehow. I looked down. There was blood everywhere. It was all over me.

"Carlisle!" Rosalie screamed, pure panic in her voice.

Carlisle raced up into the bathroom, Edward hot on his heels. Rosalie quickly covered my blood soaked body with a big fluffy towel. Edward turned even paler than his normal bone white complexion. Everything was starting to blur and the room was spinning. The last word I heard before I slipped into darkness shattered me.

Miscarriage.