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PROLOUGE

She was tall, dark, and gorgeous. She crept around me in a crouch slowly walking towards me and running a finger along my jaw.

"You should've stayed in Ohio Stevie and never went to Forks; it's a shame you have to realize that now."

I watched her arm as it went back and lurched forward with lighting speed sending me into a deafening darkness.

CHAPTER ONE

Silence was my only companion, and I love it more than anything. I barely spoke and when I did it was to Taylor and she understood everything that I was going through. It felt at times that she really was the only one who understood my pain.

In my moments alone I let myself think of the lame note I left Edward and I would repeat it over and over in my head praying he understood the underlying message.

'Edward,
You are my heart, you are my desire. I will love you forever whether I am near or far. Forgive me for the hurt that I am causing you, but one day it will all be clear. Keep my ring safe, I plan on returning for it and you one day.
I love you
S.'

I scrambled out the noted then went back and darkened some letters leaving a message I hope he could figure out (A/N: 'do you kno L' is what the message is). It was simple and a little stupid but it was all I could come up with. But it had been four months so either he did not care, or he never bothered to look.

I looked at the note that L had left me, and got up to read it and reread it, thinking of the moment we had finally met.

~FLASHBACK

I was working at the music shop when I heard the bell chime letting me know someone had walked in. I didn't bother picking up my head but I gave out a welcome to the store and kept reading my magazine. I had my feet propped up on the store counter lounging in the high chairs, when I saw a perfect pair of manicured red nails start taping on the wood.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you Stevie, I'm L."

I froze and looked up.

"I like that you can follow rules, it actually gives you brownie points."

"What do you want with me now; you've already ruined my life as is" I spit out at her.

"Now be nice, you think I've ruined your life because I took your precious Edward away." She leaned in close to me, "You think this is bad, I can do worse now stop your complaining. I have a small tizzy with the Cullen's and I want them to suffer and I took notice of how you 'complete' their 'family' and then the light shown upon me. You want to hurt a family, take out the heart; that would be where you come in. If only you could see them now, all torn apart, it's truly beautiful."

She turned to me, "You do know that you are never returning right?"

I just stared straight through her perfectly arched eyebrows, and her plump lips. She grabbed my wrist and I stared into her surprisingly topaz eyes.

"You will stay away from them or I will give you something so painful that you beg for death. Now promise me out loud like a good girl" she purred like a cat.

"I promise" I said lying through my teeth praying Alice saw this.

"It was nice meeting you, hope to see you soon Stevie."

~FLASHBACK END

I stared at the note in my hands and knew what I had to do. I quickly ran down the stairs to mail it to the Cullen's running outside to catch the mailman before he drove off. As I handed him the note I felt a sigh of relief pass through my lungs.

'What if they don't read it, it has been over four months with no contact' I thought but quickly let it pass by without a second thought.

I walked slowly back to the house dragging my feet behind me. I heard a car coming down the road and turned to see my father coming home early from work. It was shocking especially since he is hardly ever here. He's a big time lawyer and the world was just so demanding of him he hardly had time for his own family.

"Hey dad" I called out to him but of course he was on his phone telling me to shush.

My mother was also no help; she was the epitome of a black Stepford Wife. It was downright frightening at moments. We were the poster family who sent out the most perfect Christmas cards, but behind closed doors we were distant. Having a broken heart and an almost broken family was not a good combination.

I entered my room and climbed into bed turning on some music and let myself dive into my thoughts of Edward. I felt a faint smile grace my face as I thought of the way his touch would send a pulse through my body, or how his smell seemed to send me into a daze. With those thoughts I fell into a deep sleep that was filled with the nightmares that haunted my daily life.

I was walking in the forest behind Suz's house when a pair of cold arms wrapped around me. I giggled knowing it was Edward and I turned around in his arms but was startled to see his eyes a glowing red. His hands reached around my neck and pulled me close to him, my fighting was doing nothing compared to his strength. He let out an animalistic laugh and took one of his hands from around my neck to break my jaw. My eyes were starting to droop but before they closed I saw his mouth lower down to my neck and I felt the pain as he bit down.

I shot up in my bed with a fresh layer of sweat coating my body.

"Did you have a nice dream?"

I looked over to see L sitting on the other side of my bed lounging like we were lifelong friends.

"It's just one of my many talents; would you like to know what my talent is exactly?" She paused as if waiting for my reply even though she knew I wouldn't answer her. "I have the power to ruin, quite interesting isn't it? I always start with separation, and then I bring the nightmares. But my favorite part is when the person finally works up the courage to go back to their lover. You see even though I always tell them to not go back they always do, but that's when they realize they should've listened to me. The closer you get to him, or he gets to you, the faster your strength will leave, the more pain you will feel, and the sooner you will die."

"What did they ever do to you to make you hate so much?" I asked with tears streaming down my face.

"They ruined me" and then she was gone.

I sat up the rest of the night afraid to go asleep. I was afraid that she would find out about the letter she wrote me that I sent to the Cullen's, I was afraid that Edward would come after me and I in turn would have to run again. I was most afraid of the fact that I knew she was absolutely right and at this point I was holding onto the sheets to keep me from running back home to Edward's arms.

I laid down wishing he could hear me. 'I love you Edward, I love you so much. I wish you could hear me right now...'

I turned my body and gazed out the window as the morning sun rose and brought me to another lonely day.