I Don't Know

"What do you mean 'you don't know'?!"

"Exactly that. I don't know."

"How can you not know? You're…you!"

"Technically speaking, I'm you."

"You know what I mean."

"Of course. I always know what you mean."

"So why don't you know?"

"Because this isn't about knowing."

"…what?"

"I only know what you know. Certainties, facts, absolutes. And in this case, your question cannot be answered with certainty. Therefore, I don't know."

"So what should I do? And don't say 'I don't know'."

"I don't know."

"What did I just—"

"Anger will not change the fact that I don't know. So perhaps you should calm down."

"…"

"Why do you need to know?"

"I don't know."

"…very funny. But I know that you know why."

"Then why did you ask?"

"Because I want to hear you say it."

"…"

"Did you forget what the question was? Why do you—"

"Because I'm afraid! Afraid of…not knowing."

"…I know. And that's okay."

"How can that possibly be okay?! What if something goes wrong? What if it doesn't turn out the way I want it to? I need to—"

"No. You don't. Not everything needs to be known beforehand. Part of life is making mistakes, choosing the wrong path, and learning from it. So you know what to do next time."

"No! Don't you get it? There won't be a next time! If I don't make the right choice now, that's it! It's over! I—I can't live with that! I need…I need to know…please…"

"…"

"…"

"…what does your heart tell you?"

"…what?"

"What does your heart say you should do?"

"...the heart is an organ. It can't speak."

"You know what I mean."

"…my heart tells me…that I should try anyways."

"Then that is what you should do."

"But I don't know if that's the right thing to do!"

"Yes, that's true. You don't know. In fact, you can't know; not until afterwards. So don't think; instead, follow your heart."

"…thank you. I—I hope I'm right."

"…I have a feeling you will be."