I never really knew you

When you were here.

Two short years I knew you –

While you were here.

I didn't see you much

I was there, you were here

But there were many calls and letters in between.

I always looked forward

To our next visit.

To see you

Speak with you

Be with you

While you were here.

You gave me comfort,

I gave you joy.

You told me stories,

I told you mine.

And I still get the feeling,

You never understood me,

And I never knew you.

What's your favourite colour –

Do you know mine?

What's you favourite subject?

You never told, but then

I never asked.

I know your friends, and you know mine,

And we've seen each others houses,

But still, I don't think you ever knew me,

And I never knew you.

You were like a parent,

But was I a child or a friend?

Did you love me, or

Was I a duty?

So you see, I never really knew you

While you were here.

Do you know how I feel now?

Now that you've left me

Alone.

Just that – I feel so very

Alone.

I hate you for that, you know!

But then I remember you,

And I can't hate you.

Too much love, you see –

It gets in the way of hate.

So there you are,

While you were here,

I didn't know you,

But I loved you.

Now that you've gone,

I know you more,

But I hate you.

Are you watching me now?

I hope you're proud.

It matters more what you think than anyone else.

I didn't know them at all –

But I thought I knew you …

Now I know I didn't.

Did you have a pet?

I was never allowed.

And what did you do in school?

I never did get any details,

But you got a play-by-play of mine.

With commentary.

Were you on the house team?

You were so proud of me because I am.

So.

I said I hate you.

But I'm not really sure anymore.

You were the family that loved me;

Now you're gone.

You've left me too.

Was it me? Everyone says

It wasn't. I'm not so sure.

I think it was my fault.

I did it.

I made you go

I didn't mean to.

I tried to get you back.

I couldn't bring you back.

You were gone.

You left me.

And I did it.

It wasn't because I hated you!

I loved you.

You were the only one left!

I've got no one else now.

I trusted you, you know.

While you were here.

I told you what I told no one else.

Now who should I ask?

Wherever you are,

I hope you're happy.

Maybe you can learn more

About me.

I've learn more about you

Since you left.

What about you?

I wont ever forget you,

Or forgive you for

Leaving me.

But maybe I should.

It was probably my fault.

Was it?

I wish you could tell me.

I would have to follow you

To find out. But

I'm too scared.

I never really knew you

When you were here.

Two short years I knew you –

While you were here.

I didn't see you much

I was there, you were here

And now you're there,

And I'm here.