Different kind (rewrite)

I don't own anything with hetalia
'Thinking'

Chapter 1 - 'That fucking bastard'

Romano

'It's fucking disgusting how they're all fouled by Feli~ he and his damn acts.. Crazy. Ohh Italy~, Feli~ you're adorable, Veneciano honhonhon~ not that I was jealous… fuck it. Yeah I was.. Sibling Rivalry's a bitch. Like life It' just a bitch waiting to be fucked up. I'm so poetic why doesn't anybody notice? Oh yeah cause my damn brother's probably writing it, I don't know 1000000000000000 times better?!'

'Italia you're soo cute" "italy~ve" "oh italy" italy this, italy that.

'Were in a fucking world meeting, shouldn't England be the one to be all fucking serious? That fucking tea drinking bastard'

"Igggggyyy! Come onnn, why won't you go out with meeee?!" England was fluffing Italy's hair and completely ignoring America.

"You should put more la amour in it, dear Amérique" France said interrupting them while twirling his hair between his fingers. "Don't give him ideas, frog!" England snapped pointing a finger France and they started screaming at each other. America trying stop them from killing each other, then the tomato bastard starts hugging my fucking brother, my mind starts thinking ways of killing Antonio 'decapitation?... Burning him? Oh how about!-' I'm Interrupted by multiple accents I hear a few seats away from me. It was the Baltics, they were talking something about italy and how cuter he was than me 'why couldn't he be just one-' 'better~~ angry cursing italy' 'Yeah ~~why not'.

Ouch... Yeah all of them hate me… Even grandpa rome did…

I forced myself to not let my tears fall something I've mastered for years, fisting my hand 'I'm not going to be like my weak brother' "Wa-ahh?" I suddenly feel strong slightly muscled arms circle around my waist, "Lovi~~ what's wrong? Are you crying Mi' tomate?" Antonio says behind me placing his chin on my shoulder, looking right, staring at me with does fucking gorgeous green eyes, he had a huge fucking annoying grin on his face (which was actually very cute… tell that fuckin' tomato bastard I said that I will fuckin' kill you!) probably enjoying seeing me like this, fucking bastard.

"Nothing's wrong you fucking bastard, why won't you just go to Feliciano? You seem to like him more..." Fuck I was blushing.

"Feli~? Romano, he is cuter than you-bu-"

"Then why won't you just fucking marry him!?" I finally snapped. Cutting of Antonio with what he was saying, everybody was starting at me. With my eyes slightly puffy and wet I Stood up and ran out of the door.

"Ve~Fratello!, where are you going?"

I was running to the parking lot, good thing the meeting was held in my country, jumping in my Ferrari I head for the country side. Going Really fast, I'm an excellent driver thank you very much going through all the turns with ease.

'They always liked him better, everybody fucking loved him. I was always just a fucking failed copy. Ever since we were kids Spain always wanted to trade me for Italy with Austria. Grampa Rome always wanted to be with italy not me draw with him, cause I was crap at drawing, cook with him, sing with Italy, not that I was bad he just thought he was better... Italy was always the better twin. I still remember when Grandpa Rome was fading...'

Rome was laying down on the twin bed with Italy sitting on a chair beside him crying on his bed. I was just standing my eyes were red and puffy, sniffling. Grandpa smiles at Italy, his dark chocolate hair in his face "My little Italia, I love you" Italy looks at him in the eyes his hair a mess as well "Ve~ ti amo, grandpa Rome" and continued to cry an ocean. It's my turn... He looks at me still smiling "Roma~" I kneel down and finally let tears fall from my eyes "take care of him... He needs you." He ran a hand through my hair and started to fade away. I stared at the empty bed with Feliciano's soft whimpering I hear behind me.

'Take care of him... Not even a I love you...' My tears going through my face the wind flying through my hair I see a huge tree on the cliff. I hit the damn breaks and parked by the side.

The moon was beautiful the stars were glittering in the sky I slowly went down on the grass around the tree and stared at the never ending site.

I remember the things they were all saying in the meeting ' "Shouldn't even be alive?" "Better?"
"Romano, he is cuter than you..." Antonio's face smiles at me like he actually cares before I cut him off '."Fucking tomato bastard... Can't believe I actually liked him... Thought he would be the one who would like me better than my fucking dear fratello... Guess not." A single tear fall down on my cheek I wiped it as quickly as possible.

'My life is so fucking pointless nobody likes me, well there's my perfect brother… but he doesn't count, since well he's fucking family he has no choice. All my life I've been doing everything just to make sure he's happy... For once I want something… someone… for me, to be there, hold me while the world crashes behind us, to feel infinite when you're not. To love…'

A shooting star falls down I close my slowly eyes and wish for something most people wishes for "I wish, I could have a different life" and open them.
The star twinkles at me 'weird' and it was nowhere in sight.
*ring*ring*ring* my phone, probably brother dearest, I walk to my car seeing my iPhone on the seat with 'Feliciano Vargas' on it. I quickly answer "on my way." And pressed end.

On the way home I see a bright white light. At the end of the road, there's no houses around me no grass, trees or anything living actually, behind me I see nothing just a white plain. My car stops then suddenly My Gorgeous red Ferrari starts to fade. Fading completely I stood in the middle of the road, stared at the light.
Muttering an "Oh fuck." As I slowly walk into it.

AN: well see I didn't change much things in the first chapter, I've corrected some grammar mistakes… man I've must have been really sleepy that time and some spelling mistakes. I Hope it's more understandable now. :D I changed some pairing as well like from usuk, I did fruk and rusame. To be honest I just added UsUk to this fanfic cause I thought.. I'll have more readers if I did… but it doesn't feel right for me, I have to stay true to myself. I'm sorry if you dislike that pairing but please at least try to cope with it and read through.

I'm very sorry for not updating sooner than planned. I've been busy with my grama's death, school stuff, went to different countries… left my laptop, yeah…. DON'T EXPECT THE NEXT CHAPTER FOR BIG CHANGES (to those who read my old version)

So… I'll be posting the rewrite of the second chapter in about 2-3 weeks, my lovelies. And I'll be deleting the old one. :D

With love,

-M.