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My first Twilight ff, idk how it'll turn out. But…I'm gunna try. Also keep in mind, I haven't read Breaking Dawn since June… and I just started rereading New Moon so I'm not sure if everything I write will be accurate…sorry.
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What have I got to complain about? I had the perfect fairy tail childhood. Both of my parents are beautiful, sparkling vampires, I've always known who I would marry. Perfect. Worry free. My mother and father love me dearly; they always took me on adventures, unreal, only dreamed about by human kind; my dearest Jacob always by my side, watching over me, loving me unconditionally and purely. So why don't I feel as happy as I once did? I suppose it's because things have changed.
I finally married Jacob three years ago, six years after I was brought into this world. At six years I was the equivalent of an eighteen-year-old human, mom hated that. I didn't think that things would change once my dear Jacob and I were one flesh, I was wrong. A year after we were wed I gave birth to our first child, a girl, Raine Grace Black. She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen, so perfect, soft and delicate. Inheriting her father's dark color, and luckily, his human state. The pregnancy only lasted seven months though, turns out, my children develop quicker than humans, just like I did, only somewhat slower. It will take them fifteen years to reach adulthood, as apposed to six.
Things really changed for me a year after that, Raine was one, but she looked one and a half; we brought into the world another child, this time, a son. Connor Ethan Black. He was much like his sister when she was that age, but different all the same. I loved him dearly from the moment I knew I was pregnant. But when the midwife told me that he was a boy, all I could do was cry. I can't begin to explain to you how disloyal I felt at that moment. When I had Raine it was easy, she was a girl, there's no guarantee that she will be a werewolf like her father. A son, on the other hand, most likely will. I had just birthed something that would grow up to kill and hate my kind. In that instant everything changed.
Now I'm still on bed rest, I delivered Connor forty-eight hours ago, Jacob just told me that my parents and the rest of my family are coming to visit, including Grandpa Charlie. I'm practicing the technique I mastered as a young child to keep my mind-reading father out of my private thoughts. I wasn't ready for anyone to know the turmoil inside of me; I didn't want to hurt my dearest Jacob with these awful thoughts.
"Nessie, they're pulling up." Jacob said sticking his head into our room, smiling at me, his pearly white teeth standing out against his dark skin. I could feel my heart squeezing in my chest, as it did every time I saw him. I'd walk to the ends of the earth for Jacob; we had two beautiful children together, why must I let petty thoughts get in the way of my happiness? The vampire/werewolf wars no longer raged here in Forks Washington and La Push, which was all my doing. I was the treaty. The pack and my vampire family both loved me enough to come to respect one another.
"Thanks Jake." I said smiling at him, petty thoughts indeed. I sat up slowly and tucked away my iPod, which was my best friend, and a romance novel I'd been reading. I ran my fingers through my long wavy hair. As a child I had short, bouncy curls, something lost with age. Now they flowed effortlessly half way down my back, which I liked better in the humid weather.
"Nessie!" Alice cheered, scurrying to my bedside and bringing me gently into her cold embrace. 'Aunt' Alice was one of my favorite people on the planet, but I honestly couldn't choose a favorite person (I tend to generalize werewolves and vampires as 'people', it saves so much time). As a child, Alice had loved to dress me up, and mom never protested, she loved to see me in dresses and such. The whole family crowded into the room, each taking turns hugging me. Jacob stood in the corner, a pained look on his face, everyone had that look really. I giggled, I knew that look all too well, none of them would ever become accustomed to the smell of the other.
"Hey baby girl." Mom said, kissing me gently on the forehead, dad stood behind her, smiling at me. Though I could see some confusion in his eyes, apparently my technique still worked, he couldn't see what I was thinking. I knew what they were thinking though, they said it often enough. To them I was their Angel, their Little Nudger, there were few in the world like me. Whenever I had a child, it took them back to when I was younger. I could feel the pride bubbling in them, it burned fiercely in their bronze eyes.
"Want me to get him?" Jacob asked from where he stood awkwardly, I could see Alice bubbling with excitement out of the corner of my eye.
"Yeah you better, before Alice explodes." I said shooting her a warning glare, she understood it well. I'd started using it after I had Raine, it basically meant 'baby in area, remember, you're a vampire, be gentle'.
"Here he is." Jacob said handing him off to me carefully. Connor's long dark eyelashes flickered as he dreamed, I wondered what he was dreaming of, I made a point to ask dad later.
"Thanks Jake." I said kissing him tenderly, his burning lips against mine. Though I was not ice cold like my parents, I was below average temperature of a human, and Jake was above, we balanced each other out perfectly.
"He's beautiful." Dad said, his voice barely audible, though everyone but Grandpa heard him. No one could argue with dad, Connor was truly beautiful. His skin was not as dark as his fathers, but it was tan. He had rosy cheeks and perfect facial features. That's what happens when a werewolf and a descendent of vampires mate, you get angels.
"Wanna hold him?" I asked, smiling at my angelic like father. He smiled back and picked up my son, his bronze eyes burning with love. I watched peacefully as Connor was passed from family member to family member. Each one appreciating his beauty in their own way. My petty thoughts pushed far into the back of my mind, I no longer needed to use my mind trick to keep dad out anymore.
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If I don't stop now this chapter now it'll go on forever, review!!!
