I swear I lived

Hellooo... Here's a new story! I just hit a hard writers block and now I'm pretty happy that it is over! After I saw the trailer for the new the 100 season I nearly died, so read again a ton of Clexa fics and guess what, I've got a nice idea for a Clexa fic. It's my first step in this territory so please be nice. Still, I hope you enjoy this one! Oh and don't forget to review so I know how you like this story :)


How it began…

Clarke sat back down on the makeshift couch, the smirk still evident on her face, pizza box in her lap. "So you told them that you are gay, so what?"

Octavia looked over to her and even after 30 minutes her shocked and feared expression remained on her face. "So what? Are you kidding me?"

"Okay guys, stop bickering. What happened? And please try to tell me everything without crying, I can't understand you that way. I'm not as well as Clarke understanding that," Lexa told her friend, trying to comfort her. Octavia had entered the apartment without a word and just asked if they wanted to see the movie, but somewhere in the middle, she started crying hysterically and told them why she was actually there. Lexa just didn't understand a word.

The brunette took a deep breath and wiped a few tears away. "Well, I told you that my grandma is visiting, right?" Lexa smiled at her and nodded, showing the brunette that she could continue. "She talked about gays again, like she usually does and that they're all going to hell and stuff. During that I was on my phone, I guess I texted Clarke… I'm not sure. Anyway, she suddenly asked me why I was constantly on my phone and I just said 'Guess I'm reserving me a room in hell', as soon as the words left my mouth I regretted it. Then I grabbed my backpack and ran out. And now, I'm here."

Again Clarke broke out in laughter and could barely hold back the tears. Lexa shot her a glare so she would finally shut up. "What? This is the greatest coming out story I ever heard of! Normally I would post that on my blog, but-"

"Don't you dare Clarke!" Lexa warned her and nearly hit the other girl.

"But, I would never do such a thing because I respect the firecracker over there," Clarke finished her sentence, shooting the oldest of the trinity a pointed look.

"Thanks, Clarke," Octavia rolled her eyes. "But seriously, what am I supposed to do now?"

The room fell silent for a minute, both of the other girls thought for a minute until Clarke opened and closed her but didn't say a word. "What Clarke?" Lexa asked, annoyed, silently hoping that nothing too stupid came out of the girl's mouth.

"How about we take a vacation?"

The oldest girl was just about to slam the idea down before Octavia held her hand up, silencing her friend. "Actually, this sounds great. Let's do it."

"Why in hell should we do that?" Lexa asked, her eyes wide, not understanding how Octavia could like this idea. "And you two are too young anyway."

Octavia shook her head. "Clarke can take pictures for her blog and can earn a bit money, I can get away from my family and clear my head so I can think of how my life will go on after we come back and you need to let go someday."

"Yeah, someday, not today, not tomorrow, not in a decade, I have school. Still, you are too young."

"You are free for the next few months, so shut up and you are 21, so you are old enough. Please come with us," Clarke asked and smiled sweetly at the brunette.

No one knew it, not even Octavia, but Clarke and Lexa had a thing over the summer. They both admitted that they liked each other, but people would talk too much about them and probably wouldn't take their relationship seriously enough. Lexa didn't like Clarke's past anyway and that was one of the main reasons why she didn't want a relationship with the younger girl. Still, she had feelings for her and whenever the girl was being so sweet, her heart melted. Sometimes she wondered if Clarke knew what effect she had on her.

"Okay, but only because you asked so nicely," she answered eventually and Octavia immediately hugged her tightly. Lexa sported Clarke a soft smile which the girl returned, but never reached her eyes, which hurt the brunette deeply, knowing she was somehow the cause of it.

"Well then, let's go packing and meet tomorrow at the airport?" Octavia asked, not noticing the secret glances between her two friends.

Clarke leaned back, her usual smirk returning. "Sure, but I'm not leaving until I finished the pizza. But don't get your hopes up."

The three of them laughed and finished the movie they once wanted to see.


This is how they ended up at the local airport watching the signs, looking for a place where they could stay for a while.

"I heard that Asia is great, let's look for something in that area," Octavia suggested.

Lexa shook her head. "No, it's far too expensive for us."

"Cambodia is actually pretty cheap. It's great there and there's a old temple, you would like it, Lex," Clarke said, not looking at the brunette next to her.

"Okay, then let's go to Cambodia," Lexa sighed, not sure what she agreed to and if she would regret it.