AN- this is my first story so please any helpful suggestions would be welcomed.

disclaimer- i own nothing;)

Chapter 1

At the thought of what had happened to make my life come crumbling down, the phrase of nothing lasts forever sprung to mind. But oh how I had wanted it to be forever, willing to give everything up just for the sake of love. At the thought of love everything starts to collapse, and I fall again into that hateful memory of the day my one true love, wasn't so true to me.

3 years earlier

'Today is the day,' I think as walk up to my one and only's house, ' I can't wait to finally show him what I have learned. Imagine me, Bella Swan, being able to play piano. Well, maybe not play; butcher is a better choice of words. But then again anyone sounds bad next to him.'

As I walk up the rest of the way of the family's driveway I hear a repeated thudding coming from the house. 'That's odd, normally someone comes sprinting out of the house as soon they hear me, maybe Alice and Edward can't hear over the sound of Emmett and Jasper's fighting.'

Opening the marvelously craved front door, and I see my love of eternity, Edward, passionately embracing my best friend, Alice. At first they didn't notice me standing there mouth open and sheet music slowly slipping through my fingers, like my reality and sanity was. As the last sheet of my home-composed music made for Edward slipped to the floor, their heads turned in my direction.

" Bella, why are you here?" I hear him say, but it takes a second to make its way through my heart-broken mind.

" I...I.I." I stopped for a moment to gather my thoughts and while I did that my sadness quickly turned outwards in a fit of out of controllable rage, " What do you mean what am I doing here?! I wanted to show you exactly how much I love you, that why I'm here! But instead I find my love wrapped around my best friend!"

As my anger fled so did any feelings besides sadness, "Oh, Edward, how could you do this to me? I knew being with a god like being was to good to be true, that it would end badly with me broken and left by myself. But I truly wanted to be with you forever. But that is obviously not what you want. Be truthful, it's because I'm human and can't live up to your vampric, godly ways, right?" Edward remained silent; I knew from that silence that what I had said was right.

As what I had seen, slowly sunk into my mind, I couldn't take it anymore, and ran out the house. While I was running out of the house I tripped, like my usual clumsy self, over the last stair. I fell into rock hard arms, reflexively I jerked away from them, thinking of Edward and Alice's arms.

" Wow, Bella, what's the hurry? Don't you want to stay and hang with the family awhile?" asked a deep familiar voice. Emmett I realized, that's who it is. NO! I can't be here anymore, and I ran from a group of friends that I had come to think of as family. I ran of into the forest and the black hole in my chest opened up, eating all thoughts of happy times, places, feelings, and everything that made me, me. The last coherent thought was, why?

2 years 364 days later

That day in the woods was the last anyone in the small town, my father and I lived in ever saw of me. For the next 2 years and 364 days I have lived the I the woods, surviving only with what was available to me, becoming feral, more beast then person. I go to town every once in while to watch from a distance the relations that were going on and the connections people made with each other.

In the forest I came to adapt to the change in my life becoming faster and stronger then any human should be able to. I walked as loudly as a phantom would, gliding through the thick trees with ease. It was a peaceful time for me, being more beast then woman I mostly learned to live by ignoring the gaping hole that appeared in my chest from time to time.

All was peaceful until the dawning of my third year in the woods. I had on some level always knew my past would come back and bite me in the butt, I just didn't think it would be so literally. On the third year of my self-banishment a man was walking through my woods, curious I went to investigate. It turned out upon closer inspection that it was not a man at all, but a vampire. I could see his ruby, red eyes taking everything in, including me.

I was unafraid at first until he started to move coming towards me, I ran but it did not do any good. He caught me with in a second, his glistening teeth coming closer. And closer. And closer, until I felt them break the surface of my neck. I screamed like a wounded animal, for at that moment that is what I was. While he was drinking my blood memories leapt to the forefront of my mind. They brought with them horrible agony, suffering, and pain, but they made me Bella again.

With a surge of strength, which I had gathered from three years of living on my own, I pulled the vampire off my neck and threw him to the ground. I voice unused being used sounded like an angry wolf growling, " Leave and never come back here again or you shall regret it!" He scrambled up the slope and out of sight into the forest.

As soon as he was out of sight, I fell to my pains trying my best not to notice the pain of the venom coursing through my veins. In the end I lost and that is all I remember for what seems like forever, besides pain. It was only physical pain though nothing compared to what had happened to my heart. As far as I knew my heart was already dead so how would the pain of it physically dieing hurt anymore?