(A/N Well, this will be up in chapters and uhm, yeah. I don't own these Death Note guys, or Death Note for that matter. I only own Blair and the plot...their are probably lots of mistakes and errors, but I tried my best. And you'll probably see a lot of 'you's in here somewhere, sorry about that. Well, enjoy. Future lemon, for sure. Reviews are nice to have.)
"BLAAAIRRRR!" I heard from beside my half asleep head, along with banging and giggling. I woke with a fright, sitting straight up. I scoffed and giggled. "WHAAAAT!" I mimicked, banging on the walls back at them. I heard laughing and muffled talking. "COME ON bang bang bang WERE GOING!" I giggled, they obviously heard from their giggling. "Geezzz I'll be there in a few, lemme get some clothes on." I said calmly at the wall, I could almost feel them nod to each other. "OKAY!" they said in unison.
Geez, Mello, Matt…what will I do with you two?
I chuckled to myself at them. I put on black skinny jeans and a black tang top with a white undershirt, black skinny jeans and some black Converse and I put my hair up in a ponytail.
BANG BANG BANG
I jumped really high, as Mello barged in, Matt close behind. Mello gave me a playful glare and a grin, Matt looked up from his game and nodded, I nodded back. "God Mels! Matt you too!" they looked at each other and laughed. "What?" Matt said through laughter. "What if I was naked?" I said serious, but laughing inside.
They looked at each other a little surprised I'd say that. They just shrugged and walked out, closing the door behind them. I felt a little bad, but they knew that if they did it would be really awkward for them and me.
Matt, Mello and I were best friends, we all were inseparable. If I went right, they did to. Mello went left, me and Matt followed, if Matt stopped, Mello did the same along with I. I loved them so much; they were always there for me, and me, them.
I walked out of my invaded room to see Mello and Matt in the hall. Mello leaning against the wall eating chocolate, Matt sitting down staring at his game screen. I walked by and snatched Mello's bar of chocolate, and ran off.
"HEY!" he said running after me arm stretched out. "HAHAHA!" I laughed running though out the whole Wammy's House, finally reaching out side. Matt following close behind Mello, running as well, making sure he doesn't trip.
I reached a tree and stopped, I were about to turn when Mello tackled me. He giggled, as did I, the chocolate bar went flying out of my grasp.
"No!" I whispered fiercely to myself, he snickered and crawled towards the bar of chocolate goodness. "It's mine!" he said almost grabbing it. "NO!" I lunged for it and grabbed hold of it in a death grip.
Matt was watching looking away from his game, he was just smiling weirdly.
I wiggled from under Mello and went off sprinting. "AHAH!" I laughed; Mello was getting up and ran after me. I stopped mid run, Mello stopped behind me, watching what I'll do next.
I unwrapped the poorly wrapped chocolate bar, and hung it between my for finger and thumb. Mello was confused, showed it all over his face. I turned the bar and my head sideways. I stuck my tongue out and licked the thin side of it. His hand reached out as a reflex in horrifying sight before him.
I put a piece of the chocolate into my mouth and tapped on it with my teeth. His eyes showed playful anger and sadness. I snapped off a big piece and taunted Mello with it.
"Uh oh…" Matt said on the side lines.
I held the large piece of chocolate in between my teeth.
Mello balled up his fists and tackled me to the ground, I let out a gasp from the extra weight of him. Matt went wide eyed at the look of things.
I still had the chocolate in my teeth and Mello glared at me. He leaned in and grabbed the chocolate from my teeth and yanked, with his teeth. The chocolate came out of me mouth and I went wide eyed like Matt.
He turned away from you and got up, taking the chocolate from my paralyzed hand. "Thanks." He said turning on his heel and walking away from me and Matt.
I looked at Matt and we both exchanged shrugs. Matt helped me up and I leaned on him…
"What just happened?" I asked Matt, dazed.
"I-I-I'm not sure." He stuttered. Not usual for Matt but I brushed it off.
Matt and I both just walked back to the house. Matt saw Mello sitting on the steps and eating HIS chocolate bar. Mello spotted Matt and smiled; Mello spotted me and turned away.
"Oh…he probably hates me now. I should go." Matt turned to me and said "Stay…he doesn't."
I just shrugged.
Matt sat next to Mello and I sat feet away from them. Matt tilted his head wanting me to sit closer but I just shook mine looking down at the suddenly interesting dirt on the ground.
What if Mello is mad at me? Does he hate me? Should I say sorry...?
I got up and walked right in front of Mello, blocking his view.
"Sorry." I said simply, he just stared at me, those icy blue eyes like daggers in mine. I looked away and walked off.
I heard Matt nudge Mello and hiss at him, Matt was always like a brother to me…but he was weird sometimes, along with Mello.
~*Matt's POV*~
"DUDE!" I said pushing him. He glared at me.
"What?" he said snapping off another piece of the bar.
"You know what; you just walked off, NOW she thinks you hate her. Go. Say. Sorry." I said firmly, anger in my eyes most likely.
"Okay geez…it's her fault."
"Do not even start with me." He scoffed and went off to find Blair…
Even though I kind of like her a bit more than a friend, Mello should have her. I am being a good friend to both of them…I can tell Blair likes Mels…actually, I don't like her that way. I love her like the sister I never got to have. I just have to fix this problem, try, anyway.
~*Blair's POV*~
I wanted to go to my room and just sit, thinking. That's exactly what I did.
I looked out the window on the way to my chair and I saw Matt, only Matt.
Shit.
Matt looked up at my window and saw me looking, he waved, PSP in his other hand, smiling. I waved and smiled back…
Knock
Knock
Knock
"Who is it?" I heard a scoff and a snap.
"Who do you think it may be?" I rolled my eyes.
"Come on, Blair…" he sounded so…sad…he was pleading. I have never heard him like this before. I opened the door to see the blond boy, staring at you, a bit of sadness in his eyes.
"Okay…" I left the door open and went to sit on my bed.
He came in and set the chocolate bar on a little table I had, then sat next to me.
"I am sorry, I should not have over reacted." I turned away.
"It's okay, I guess…" I mumbled.
He tapped my shoulder, and I turned. He gave me a hug. He has never showed me this kind of stuff before…yet I hugged back, hesitantly.
I broke the hug, and kissed him on the cheek. He was wide eyed and I skipped out of the room. I wanted to tell Matt what happened and that everything's okay.
I spotted Matt outside, creeping up behind him and covered his eyes from behind.
"Ehh, I was playing, Blair." He said smiling.
"Hahaha, how'd you know It was me?" he turned a light shade of pink.
"Your scent" I was kind of taken a back, but it was cute.
I pushed him playfully, "Awe, that's cute" I smiled.
"Yeah…" he said looking down at his game and pressing buttons.
"So, wanna know what happened?" he nodded and looking at me through his goggles.
"He said sorry that he over reacted and he hugged me…and…" his eyes squinted.
"And?" I turned away from his light green eyes.
"Nothing."
He poked my shoulder and said "Tell me." I shook my head.
"It was stupid." He poked my cheek after that half ass answer.
"Tell me." I rolled my eyes, if it wasn't him, I wouldn't have told.
"I kissed Mels on the cheek then walked out…" Matt's eyes widened.
"Oh. Well, is that good or bad?" I shrugged, looking away…his eyes being still too much to deal with right now.
"I don't really know…but I don't want it to be weird." He nodded, turning back to his game.
"I see…" he opened his mouth to say something else but then closed it.
"Hm? What were you going to say, Matty?" he cursed under his breath.
"Oh, haha, nothing." I glared.
"Matt."
"What?" he said innocently.
"You have to tell me." I scooted closer to him.
"Mels told me something…" I scooted right next to him.
"Yeaahhh?" I leaned in to see his face.
"…he told me…"
"Matt, the anticipation is killing me." He giggled.
"He told me he likes you." My eyes went wide, my mouth hung open.
"…Uh…no he doesn't. Don't play with me like that" I nervously laughed while nudging him.
"Blair, I'm not."
"WHAT? When did he tell you? Why did you tell me? Doesn't he want it a secret?" he frowned.
"Yeah, he didn't want me to tell you. And I told you because you're like a sister to me and I think you needed to know sooner or later. He told me…a few months ago…" I let your head hang…
I sighed…"Well, what do you want me to do about it?" he smirked.
"I know you like him." I turned away fast, I blushed.
"N-no." he smiled.
"Yes, you do. I can tell…" he said playing his game.
"What if you're wrong?" I said.
He smirked darkly.
"You really do not know how obvious you are, do you?" I blushed and smiled.
"Shut up. So what do we do?" he smiled.
"You have to tell him this week…" I had a puzzled face on, deep in thought.
"Wh-why?" he looked down and let his head hang.
"Mello is leaving next week." My eyes went wide and filled a bit with tears.
"WHY!" I put my hands on his shoulders shaking him, tears in my eyes, running down my already red cheeks.
"He wants to go on his own…I'm going with him." I let out a sob and tears coming down harder. I let go of him and ran away to the other side of the grounds.
I cried knowing my two best friends, only friends, my brothers, my family were going to leave…forever. I cried in my hands, my cheeks wet with new tears and my breaths hitched.
I was filled with anger and sadness.
Why the fuck didn't they tell me earlier?
I was blinded by the tears in my eyes, I couldn't cry anymore. I bit your arm, hard. It drew blood but I didn't stop, blood coming down my chin and on to the grass and my clothes.
"Blair!" Matt said running over to me. He lifted my head and I let go of my arm.
"WHAT!" I spat fiercely, spitting blood and spit.
"Why are you doing this?" he said lifting up my gory arm, flesh hanging a bit, blood being drained.
"I don't care anymore. Let me go with you both." He shook his head.
"No…its' too dangerous…" I shook my head rapidly
"NO! YOU BOTH ARE GOING TO LEAVE ME HERE!" I sobbed and cried more and lifted my other arm.
I was stopped by Matt, he held on to my arm keeping me from biting it.
"Stop...please..." he said getting teary and croaked.
"Why are you guys doing this to me?" I looked up at him, he was sorry…I could see it in his eyes…they always told the story.
"Mello needs me, an-" I cut him off.
"OH, SO MELLO DOESN'T NEED ME? YOU JUST SAID HE LIKES ME. WHAT THE FUCK MATT!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I got up and ran away from him. My arm still being drained of my blood, I didn't care…not anymore.
"BLAIR! WAIT!" I heard him yell running after me.
"GET THE FUCK AWAY MATT! I HATE YOU!" he stopped. I kept running…I hated them…they were going to leave me, their best friend at this place...alone…they were my brothers, I loved them both.
"Blair…" I heard a whisper. That made me stop. I hit a tree, the bark shredding my knuckles, I screamed out of misery and rage.
"MATT, HOW COULD YOU?" he walked over to me, trying to comfort me. I backed away, not wanting to see him.
"Matt…go away…I thought you were my brother…brothers do not leave their sisters." I walked away from him.
How could they do this to ME.
I ran into my room and laid on the bed face down in the pillow. I sobbed and cried, hair sticking to my wet face. I was loud, almost screaming. My breathing wasn't good, I was light headed and dizzy but I managed to hear muffled talking in the room next to mine.
I couldn't make it out, but it was defiantly Mello's. He was talking loudly; I heard banging on the walls from things being thrown. I couldn't help but continue to cry, all those memories, the years we were all together…the things they helped me through…I loved them, they were family.
I cried into my, now damp, pillow, it almost suffocating me, but I still didn't care.
Knock
Knock
Knock
"Can we come in?" Matt's voice was low.
"I don't care." I said lifting my face from the pillow and sat up on the side of my bed, breathing deeply. They came in and stood in front of me. I looked down at the ground, I didn't want to see them…they could have told me earlier.
"Blair…" Mello said lifting up my chin. I turned away, not even taking a glimpse at them.
"We're sorry." Mello said as Matt sat on my left and Mello on my right. I shook my head and got up, then sat in the corner of my room furthest from them. I saw out the corner of my eye them look at each other and look at the ground.
"Why Mello?" I said, croaking, holding back tears, being barley able to hear.
He looked at me pleading with his eye as if saying 'Please, I don't want to see you like this…'
"Near…He's always beating me, ever since he came I'm not number one…I can't take it. You know how I am…I just need to leave…and Matt will be coming with me."
I turned away wiping a tear from under my eye.
"Can I go also?" I said looking at Mello straight in the eyes, I could tell he was resisting looking away.
"No. It's too dangerous…" I glared.
"THEN WHY IS MATT GOING?" I yelled at Mello, he flinched.
"Because…"
"Yeah?" I said leaning a bit.
"Uh…I don't know. I-I don't want to drag you into this." Mello said looking sad.
"Mello, I have known you for years. I would go anywhere with both of you." I said firmly.
"I know, but still, I decided it's better for you here…and I know we all had a great friendship but this is for the better." He even didn't like the words coming out of his own mouth.
"When are you leaving?" I said looking at Matt then back to Mello, Matt smiled a bit, trying to comfort me I guess.
"Next week, Monday…after classes." I got sad and upset again.
"Mello! That's only 4 days!" he nodded grimly.
"I'm sorry, Blair. I really am…I don't want to but it's for the better." With that Mello got up and left my room. Leaving me with Matt.
"I am so sorry, Blair." He walked over to me and crouched down next to me.
"Whatever." I said.
He hugged me, I didn't hug back…but, I smelled something.
"Matt?"
"Yeah?" he said against my hair.
"You smell like…" I inhaled his scent from his neck "Smoke."
He let go of me quickly, like I has an extremely contagious virus and backed away.
"Hah, no I don't silly." He rubbed the back of his neck and laughed nervously.
"Matt." I looked straight at him, not even blinking.
He looked away though. I grabbed his chin and moved it towards me.
"Matt." You repeated. He frowned and sighed.
"I smoke…every once and a while…"
"Matt!" I pushed him hard.
"S-sorry…but I get stressed." I rubbed the bridge of my nose.
"Where do you get them?" I asked curious, no one is allowed off grounds.
"I had a few packs when I arrived at Wammy's…my dad gave it to me…before he left." Matt said looking into my eyes, obviously telling the truth.
"You should stop…" he nodded. I leaned and hugged him tightly.
"Ehhh…your…killing…meee…" he pleaded.
"Because I looove youuu." I sang and laughed while letting go of his squashed body.
I smiled at him "Stop, for me, okay?"
"Yeah, okay…just 'cause it's you." He said with a bright smile I smiled back, then frowned at a thought I had.
"What's wrong?" I sighed through my nose.
"How am I going to tell him?" he sighed at the thought.
"I don't kn-" I cut him off.
"I know…" he tilted his head and smiled.
"Well, you get on with your plan… I'm going to go."
"Byyyeee~!" I sang.
"Bye." Matt said.
He walked out into the hall way and I saw a glimpse of blond hair as he closed the door behind him. I stayed in my room, legs curled up against my chest…
My best friends are going to leave…soon…I won't have anyone anymore. I thought, choking up just thinking about it.
Knock
Knock
Knock
I looked up from the ground and saw Mello walk in nervously.
"Hi…" he said sitting next to me. He was a few inches taller then me, and he was sitting up straight…makes him look heroic…and hot… My thoughts drifted as he looked at my profile.
"Hey." I said flatly back. I turned to face him, getting lost in his eyes…Ohh, his eyes… I daydreamed at them…I even tilted my head and smiled at them.
"Ahem…" he cleared his throat and I blushed deeply cursing and mentally myself inside.
"So?" I said getting myself together staring at anything but him and those eyes. He smiled at me, it was a different smile, one I had never seen from him before…it was…gentle and...Soft.
"Matt told me I should tell you…before we leave." My face became pale at what would come next.
"Oh, okay." I looked away, back at the floor.
"Well, I've known you for years now…and I know everything about you, and you know everything about me, Matt as well."
"Yeah." I said nonchalantly.
"Well…I have developed some feelings for you over these years. And I know I should have told you before…but I didn't have the courage to tell you…" I smiled, burying my face in my knees.
"Oh…you could have told me…I mean, your Mello for fucks sakes." He chuckled.
"Well…I was nervous." I giggled at him.
"Heh, well I felt the same way…I like you too." I smiled looking at his eyes. I got lost in the blue…so perfect his eyes are…damn…I gotta stop doing this…
His eyes were soft and gentle, like his smile…I loved his smile, on the rare occasions he smiled genuinely.
He put an arm around my waist and pulled me closer, a lot stronger than I would have expected.
"I will miss you, more than anything." He said in to the hair on the top of my head. I snickered, so not like him to say something like that. I thought to myself.
"Same…Matt as well." Mello nodded. He seemed in deep thought, from his facial expression…this was most likely the most difficult decision he's ever had to make.
"You know, this is extremely difficult to leave you here, but it's going to be dangerous…and I couldn't live with myself if something happened to you…" I smiled at his sweetness.
"I know…but still." I nodded slowly trying not to choked up once again.
"Will you still be in contact with me?" I said turning quickly to see his face.
"No…sorry." He said solemnly.
"Oh." I let slip out, it sounded sad and miserable.
"You know that I do care about you right?" he said making his eye brows move closer together.
"Yeah, but you doing this and taking Matt…it's going to ruin me… I'll get really depressed and all that…" he looked away, not able to face me, his shoulder length hair sliding over his shoulder and neck. He closed his eyes tightly, as if not wanting to hear anything.
"I-I know, Blair…but…I have to." I shook my head now closing my eyes tightly. He leaned and hugged me. I shook my head rapidly and buried my face in my hands. I couldn't take the pain, it was unbearable. I left his warm hug and left my room.
I still had my hands on my face but I saw a small glimpse on a boy with reddish brown hair, with black and red stripes.
Matt. Probably going to get mad at Mello for me running away like this.
"Blair!..." I heard a rough, low voice call me.
Mello, I can't fucking take it!
I yelled inside my head still running. I went down stairs, passing Rodger, the head of the house. I opened the door violently and ran outside. It was still light and few kids were still out.
I ran to the end of the property where a wired fence was placed, I stopped at it and sat down right next to it, yelled at it, hitting it with my still badly scratched hand from earlier punching the tree. The physical pain was in no comparison to the mental pain my two best friends gave me.
I spotted a small piece of wire that was broken from the wired fence and picked it up. I held it with my right hand, between my thumb, forefinger, and middle finger. I laughed bitterly and darkly to myself, jabbing the sharpest part of the wired into my skin. I watched the blood rush out of my arm, dripping down.
I sat cross legged as the blood mixed with tears dropped one by one on my right leg…
"Blair…" a gentle voice said putting a hand on my shoulder. I turned around very fast to see who it was. It happened to be Matt and Mello was walking up behind him.
Matt was breathing heavily, most likely due to the smoking he does every once and a while, and running after me. Mello had a worried face on, and it changed drastically when he saw my arm.
"Blair!" Mello yelled kneeling down to my eye level, grabbing my arm gently, looking at it intently. I sniffled and got up and ran once again.
Why can't they just leave now? They can't undo what is already done….I…hate them.
"Come on!" I heard Mello fiercely whisper to Matt.
"No." I heard Matt say firmly.
"Wh-" Mello didn't finish, Matt was probably telling him in Mello's ear. Meanwhile I ran to the other side of campus not stopping, and the gash on my arm bled even more from my pulse being raised.
