Simply Beautiful
By
LK
This was the semester that broke me into a million pieces. sincerely the wretched world has abandoned what I have believed and relished in its beauty of madness. Something that I abhor yet made me laugh like a madman.
Look at me with eyes wide open and see that I have abandoned all faith buy one. I cried to every god out there. A sin which I paid dearly with the loss of my heart, my beautiful innocent heart.
Staring at the stars. I sat beside the wall. thinking. smoking fire from my mouth. glaring at all that is alive and well. it didn't make me happy that I failed two of my subjects. the pain stung in me as I held my books, finding the way out of the impossible.
Four I whispered to the angels. and yet you say that you'll save me from hell everlasting.
Hahaha, laugh all you want, yes, I want to be a perfectionist, yet the pragmatist in me held me back into the dark demented boy who wants to be a man.
The light was turning black as the candle I held withdrew from the wind that keeps on whispering. who are you to judge the fate of mankind. and yet you laugh like a god.
Yes. laughter. the common thing between saints, killers and all the angels and gods in this world.
I just wish I had passed. two weeks from now. I'll have to take the exam again. two of the hardest subjects I've ever faced. only if I didn't do what I wanted. only if I did my best before this happened.
I twisted in despair as I read each letter of the book. hundreds of pages to go and repetitions again and again I shall partake.
Ha.. I laugh. I laughed. and shouted to the sky.
All was well.
I was dead.
The burning flame engulfed my hand as I took one more sniff into oblivion. I didn't care. it all meant nothing. I just wanted to destroy. destroy all that was near to me and that. It didn't matter. A selfish thought.
Hahaha the devil must have laughed at my misery.
But somehow. I don't believe that all the lies in this world came into this.
I do believe in one God and his name matters not. All powerful, almighty the great spirit. Yahweh as the ancients have called him.
I sighed. I've been aloof again. I slowly blew the light from the candle and took my things, folded each parchment and laid them as gently as I could into my bag. And smiled.
Sometimes. in the midst of madness. I find the foreboding embroidery of order. and the tranquility of peace and the loneliness of a fallen, to walk the earth alone.
I took one more sniff and threw the butt into the ground. fantasy I said aloud. leave me be and return me to the real world.
I smiled. as I took each step with pried.
I was determined to study for what lies ahead is but. a broken promise.
I did all that I can and shouted. I am broken. I give up. you've proven yourself. and indeed I do need you, your help. and that I asked for forgiveness. and asked for love.
My God Yahweh. don't forsake me. make me strong. to be someone that you adore and cherish.
Stop whatever that is you are doing and lend me a hand.
Your servant. shall serve you to the end of time.
By
LK
This was the semester that broke me into a million pieces. sincerely the wretched world has abandoned what I have believed and relished in its beauty of madness. Something that I abhor yet made me laugh like a madman.
Look at me with eyes wide open and see that I have abandoned all faith buy one. I cried to every god out there. A sin which I paid dearly with the loss of my heart, my beautiful innocent heart.
Staring at the stars. I sat beside the wall. thinking. smoking fire from my mouth. glaring at all that is alive and well. it didn't make me happy that I failed two of my subjects. the pain stung in me as I held my books, finding the way out of the impossible.
Four I whispered to the angels. and yet you say that you'll save me from hell everlasting.
Hahaha, laugh all you want, yes, I want to be a perfectionist, yet the pragmatist in me held me back into the dark demented boy who wants to be a man.
The light was turning black as the candle I held withdrew from the wind that keeps on whispering. who are you to judge the fate of mankind. and yet you laugh like a god.
Yes. laughter. the common thing between saints, killers and all the angels and gods in this world.
I just wish I had passed. two weeks from now. I'll have to take the exam again. two of the hardest subjects I've ever faced. only if I didn't do what I wanted. only if I did my best before this happened.
I twisted in despair as I read each letter of the book. hundreds of pages to go and repetitions again and again I shall partake.
Ha.. I laugh. I laughed. and shouted to the sky.
All was well.
I was dead.
The burning flame engulfed my hand as I took one more sniff into oblivion. I didn't care. it all meant nothing. I just wanted to destroy. destroy all that was near to me and that. It didn't matter. A selfish thought.
Hahaha the devil must have laughed at my misery.
But somehow. I don't believe that all the lies in this world came into this.
I do believe in one God and his name matters not. All powerful, almighty the great spirit. Yahweh as the ancients have called him.
I sighed. I've been aloof again. I slowly blew the light from the candle and took my things, folded each parchment and laid them as gently as I could into my bag. And smiled.
Sometimes. in the midst of madness. I find the foreboding embroidery of order. and the tranquility of peace and the loneliness of a fallen, to walk the earth alone.
I took one more sniff and threw the butt into the ground. fantasy I said aloud. leave me be and return me to the real world.
I smiled. as I took each step with pried.
I was determined to study for what lies ahead is but. a broken promise.
I did all that I can and shouted. I am broken. I give up. you've proven yourself. and indeed I do need you, your help. and that I asked for forgiveness. and asked for love.
My God Yahweh. don't forsake me. make me strong. to be someone that you adore and cherish.
Stop whatever that is you are doing and lend me a hand.
Your servant. shall serve you to the end of time.
