I'm back :] This is a new story, which kind of just came to me today. I'm not sure where it's going, or if it will go anywhere, but we'll see.

Take Off Your Colours

I think there comes a time in every life where you just have to pack up, and move on. The things you once knew are gone. Everything but you is moving, and world is spinning, and you realize that you aren't moving with it.

Those eyes you bought have gone to my head

You over think everything now. Down to the next meal you're going to eat, or the words you'll say to the next person you meet. Everything just goes into your head, and makes you crazy.

But they won't take you to my bed
you talk a good game
But girl you've been played
Look at this face you choose to play

It becomes routine, you head to a club, you pick up a girl, and you get laid. You always choose the ones with the sarcastic mouth, but have a sweet side. It's funny though, because they all know who you are and what you do, but they keep coming. You never see the same girl twice, and by then they all know they've been played. They can all brag now that they've too slept with Ashley Davies.

The towns talk keeps me up to date
We will never be the same

Everyone knows my name by now, probably because I've slept with all their sisters, daughters and friends. It's funny to listen to the things they say about me, and rumors they start. Too bad they don't know that I compare every girl to the one I lost. Too bad they're too shallow to realize that I'm broken, and nothing can fix me anymore.

This is a war

This whole life is just a battle. One that has been designed to kill us off, to make us suffer until we take that last shot that just strips us of everything we are. I must be one of the unlucky ones, because somehow I'm still alive. Somehow, I'm living without a heart.

This is a heart

Physically, I still have a heart yes, but mentally, it's long gone. All these girls, all the talk, it just keeps me going. The girls make me feel like if only for a second I'm cared about. The talk keeps me wanting more, makes me want to keep them guessing.

These are the strings you'll pull
These are the stakes
They have been raised

I can get myself into any club, get anyone I want, and feel no shame. I know everyone, and by default, they know me. It should be nice, I should be happy, but I'm not. I wake up every day remembering when she left, and I go to sleep every night dreaming of a day when she'll come back. This brings me back to why I have to pack up and leave…

It's your call.
Too much has changed,

As much as I'd love to tell you that I've moved on, and the one that got away doesn't control me, I can't. She's still calling the shots, making all the calls, and I just follow them. She's someone in Hollywood now. She's made it big, reached all her dreams. She's changing the world, one person at a time, and she does it flawlessly. I can't stay here anymore, too much has changed, and I'm still the same.

I hate this place
But I don't want to leave it this way

There was a time where this place was my paradise. A day where I could walk outside and know that everything will be great that this day will be mine. Now it's full of regret and broken promises. Skewed relationships run this place now. Everyone is getting married, living life, and I'm still stuck in high school. This is why I need to leave. I need to fix this place, let it go back to what it used to be. A life without me here, will fix all of that.

So let's get it straight

This all probably seems silly, like something you'd see in a movie. A girl who's lost the one thing to keep her living, the girl who left, and a new life, but I promise this movie has no happy ending.

Without a thought I will take
I'll take it all away.

The movie starts slow, and brings heartbreak, and a going away party. The climax begins, and the hurt girl tries to take her life. Tries and fails, which should be a happy ending, but in reality it's a tragedy.

That's the price you pay for having luck in the first place.

All the characters talk about how lucky the girl is, and how now she has a second chance. But the girl thinks differently, and brings herself into a life of drugs and meaningless sex. She tries everything to mask the pain of heartbreak, and she does nothing to find the girl she once had been.

Call it what you want

She's spent the last year of high school an outcast, and was only remembered by the one who left. How she graduated, she couldn't even tell you that. She did though, not like she put it to use. College used to be her dream, now it just remains in the past. Call it what you want, but she has become a shell of a once lively girl.

I've spent too long under your thumb

I'd love to tell you how the story goes from there, but it's still being written. I'd love to tell you it ends with a happy ending with a cliché line or two thrown in, but it's not likely. Considering I'm the star in this little Lifetime flick, happy won't be something you'll be getting. As of now I know I've spent too much time living under the rock of the past and it's time to start moving. The whole world has been spinning, and time has been ticking, and while I've been just standing here, she's out there. I always assumed she'd be the one to come back, that if it was fate, it would happen. But I was wrong. It takes two, and I can't just stand here as lives go on, I have to move, I have to be the one to chase her.

And now the clouds have had their say.

For the next scene, it will be just me and the sky. Because I'm moving, and my first stop is Hollywood. Goodbye LA, hello Spencer Carlin.

Okay, this is just the first part of this chapter. Song for this chapter, and the next half is Take Off Your Colours by You Me at Six. Please review and tell me if it's worth continuing:]