Today is the day. No more miss meek submissive sex partner Anastasia. Enough of having Christian make you do whatever he wants while you obey without question. No more letting his excellent, long fingers stir you up and pleasure you until you achieve pure bliss... WAIT! Stop, stop, snap out of it. You are not a meek, good girl. Yup. Come on, listen to your dancing, air boxing inner goddess who is ready to make that arrogant, big-headed dominant unwind in your hands.
It's been a month since Christian showed me his... lifestyle. On that day, we kissed for the first time, he showed me his *cough* toys, and I lost my virginity. Argh, my cheeks and my lower part already are starting to heat up just from thinking of all the things that he did to me and all the new things he's... shown to me. All those times of making me succumb to his delicious body but making me beg for the pleasure while using his sexy sadistic side to make me melt and... no! Stop, that's not going to happen today! I have to get it together before my goddess starts beating me up for wimping out. I even made a battle plan for tonight. Now, to initiate the first step.
Christian booked a dinner reservation at the new, victorian and high end restaurant being the sweet, thoughtful romantic he is. All more the reason to reward him by giving him a show with me being the dominant for once. I am already getting so excited and nervous as I have no idea how it'll turn out, but I will definitely show Christian that I'm different than Elena who sexually abused him and played with his young feelings. I know he has a fear of being touched, but I want to be the one to lift his heavy past off of him. I love Christian so much, I don't know what to do with this desire to heal and touch his heart. I don't just want to receive and be pleasured, I want him to feel my warmth and experience the ecstasy he gave to me. Well, let's just hope that I can convey my thoughts with my own BDSM play.
The first step is our dinner in a hour and a half. I have to initiate the battle by looking seductive, and sexy so I'll get him aroused and make him want to take me as soon as possible. However, I must act coy and normal by not being embarrassed by my outfit and being meek at dinner. Ugh, easier said than done! I went shopping with Kate for this huge plan to go well and she chose the most sexy, outgoing outfit I've ever seen, and it's for me to wear tonight! The dress (if you can call it a dress) is bandage strap skin tight black dress that clings to every curve I have. Its low V neckline is right above my breasts and there are some cut out designs around my waist showing even more skin. The most embarrassing part is that there is no back to the dress! The black shoulder straps just keep going down, covering nothing on my back. They stop at my waist in a V shape and the dress length itself is at mid-thigh. Just thinking of how I'm going to wear this to dinner in public makes me start to blush and get dizzy. Honestly, I think wearing a bikini would be less embarrassing. Well, at least I know Christian will love it, if he doesn't die of jealousy from the stares I'm going to get.
Well, enough explaining. I have preparations to make! To make sure I am 101% successful in seducing Christian, I take a shower using my favorite bath scents. Then I blow dry my long, brunette hair and curl it a little at the end so it cascades over my outfit, outlining my figure. I usually can't do anything with my messy, useless hair so I always put it in a ponytail which Christian claims is perfect but tonight is special and I want to show him that how much meeting him has changed me. I try to make sure that this curly hairstyle (which is one of the only looks that seem presentable on me) everywhere in a sexy kind of way. Argh, I would have never thought of making myself look "sexy" a month ago when I was getting ready to meet the man who would change my life forever. Well, he is the Christian Grey after all. I proceed to spraying on a little perfume on me just like Kate told me to.
"Come on Ana, at least try to be bold for once. Trust me, he'll love this new proactive you" Kate said, convincing me to do the transformation I was currently carrying out.
Argh, curse that smart, reasonable best friend I have. Kate also showed me how to apply make-up which I usually hate (I still do) but I have to admit, it does help bring out my features to make me look less average. The mascara and eyeliner (which are absolutely terrifying! I mean, who would put a pointy stick coated in ink right next to their eyes? Oh, wait, I would since I just did it) helped bring out my light blue eyes, the blush (not that I'll need any as I can just think of what I'll be doing tonight and I'm good to go) helped outline my cheekbone structure and the bombshell red lipstick (borrowed from Kate) brought out my normal lips to be sexy and pretty delicious if I do say so myself. Man, make-up is pretty powerful. It can even transform a average looking person like me to being a pretty, sexy adult woman. I put on my dress quickly as I it was only 15 more minutes until the dinner. I put on stiletto strap on heels which I borrowed from Kate (thank god I have such a fashionable friend!) and examined myself in the mirror. Wow. Even for a shy introvert person like me, I had to say that I looked dressed to kill. I looked like I walked out of one of those vogue magazines with those elegant mature models. I walked around the room and I remembered how hard it was to train me to not die in these heels (Kate gave me classes yesterday until I wasn't like a newborn deer) and I couldn't be more thankful. I went to the lobby of the penthouse and found a limo waiting for me outside the hotel even though the restaurant was just across the block. However, I could not be more thankful for the gentleman side of Christian as I would probably die of embarrassment before I reached the restaurant by walking in public. Christian had some business plans and would meet me at the restaurant which was perfect since I could never get dressed like this with him watching me or being around at the penthouse. As I got in the limo the young driver looked at me and blushed a little.
"Miss Steele, Mr. Grey has ordered me to deliver you to this restaurant and is currently waiting at the second floor" the driver said as he opened the door for me. I stepped out and smiled at him and he blushed again. Wow, the power of make-up is not a force to be reckoned with I guess. I go up to the reception desk and a blonde lady escorts me to the second floor after I confirm the reservation with Christian.
I look around the floor and notice many people are staring in my direction. Hmm, maybe it's someone behind me? I look around me but there's only the escort who is waiting for me to finish my sightseeing. I automatically start to blush and start to get self conscious. Did I put on too much make-up? Is my dress folded at a weird spot? What if I look like a kid who is trying to hard to be sexy? Wait, wait, you are the proud, proactive dominant tonight. Who cares what they think, just show Christian how fun it is to be the submissive. I follow the waiter and I see Christian.
