It was never suppose to go this far. It was suppose to stop after one time and one time only. He never thought he'd be back here in the same position getting pressed into the mattress as the man above him shoved himself into his body over and over again. He never thought that after that one night of slow love making, as he liked to think of it, that he would be getting yet another chance to be in the arms of the one he had grown to love over the years.
Jou moaned as positions switched and Kaiba sat up so he was straddling the others lap. Jou whimpered as his weight made the penetration that much deeper. He didn't care if Kaiba didn't love him back and that he may never have the same feelings, but Jou had been pining to long and suffered many lonely nights of crying that he just didn't care anymore. He was just glad that for one night, just one night he could pretend that Kaiba loved him as his body was worshiped and used. He could pretend that they were lovers and that his feelings were requainted by the man who had no heart except for his brother.
Jou knew better though, knew that he should cut this arrangement off, that he should stop fantasizing about a life he wished he had but didn't. Because every time he left that mansion, every time he was left alone in a big empty bed with instructions to be gone before breakfast tomorrow his heart broke a little more and he cried until he fell asleep. But he still held onto hope that one time, Kaiba would say 'I love you stay with me.' Jou knew it was impossible but he remembered their first time when all this started and Kaiba had held him so close after they were done, had been so gentle whispering sweet assurances as he entered into Jou for the first time. How they fell asleep curled around each other, the next morning when they did it again before Kaiba left and came back with breakfast.
Jou had found out a week or so later that Kaiba had only done those things when he learned that Jou was a virgin, and Jou's best moment in his whole life, other than his sister being born, was shattered because Kaiba wanted to put his claim on him and not because he had feelings for the other boy. Yet he still went to the mansion, went when he was called so his body could be used by a man who just didn't want to fuck a random person on the street.
Jou fell back on the bed as Kaiba was finished with him. As usual Kaiba caught his breath for all of ten seconds before getting up and putting on a robe that was hanging by the bed for his convenience. Jou watched him slip it on as he always did letting himself get one last look before Kaiba turned and ordered him out before eight.
"Mutt-"
"Yeah, yeah Kaiba I know, I'll be out before eight o' clock as always don't worry." He muttered closing his eyes; he just wished Kaiba would get out quicker so he could cry in peace already.
"Actually I need you out tonight mutt, I'm having a company party and I can't have you sleeping up here where someone might find you. I got a reputation to maintain and that doesn't include you sleeping in one of my beds. Kaiba replied tersely straightening his robe. He turned finally and saw the look of shock and longing in the boys eyes before it was replaced by anger.
"Of course the Great Kaiba Seto wouldn't want a mangy mutt ruining anything with his presence after all." Jou growled sitting up.
"Well I'm glad you've finally learned your place." Kaiba smirked and turned to leave, "Be out within the hour I need this room cleaned." And then he was gone.
Jou had to hand it to himself from not losing it until after Kaiba left, his lip trembled and a sob broke past his lips before he brought his knees up and buried his head in them to cry.
He wished he could take back the past couple of months and stop himself from making any of this happen.
