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The room was lit by a bedside lamp covered with a sheer green scarf that gave a sense of coolness and serenity to the room. That serenity belied the heated activity occurring on the bed.
They were on the bed, one sitting on the side, fully clothed, the other straddling her, fully naked. Gasps, moans, heavy breathing, sounds made during moments of passion, or at this moment of fucking, filled the room.
Her fingers deep inside, thrusting, finding that sweet spot, finding a hard swollen clit, finding wetness, warmth. Firm, toned body grinding, rising, falling against hers. Pussy tightened. She was close. "That's my girl...my beautiful girl. Come for me baby...say my name." Say my name...you used to. Lips travelled to a firm breast, capturing a nipple, sucking hard, nibbling softly. Other breast found and licked, sucked, nibbled. Bringing her closer.
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God it felt so good. It always felt so good. So good, so right. So deep inside her. Warmth spreading, nerves and skin tingling, her body's response to the kissing, licking, sucking, stroking. She said nothing, only letting gasps and moans escape to show what she was feeling. There was safety in not saying anything. She fought against calling out her lovers name now, couldn't do that to her because that would give her hope when there was none. Eyes closed tight, face buried in her neck. She rarely looked her in the eyes anymore because that would mean she would become more lost in her and she could never let that happen. Not now. Not since her lover started looking at her differently. In that way. A way no-one had ever looked at her before but a look which said a thousand words. No it said only five words. I'm. In. Love…
The orgasm hit hard, her body arched and she threw back her head, a loud gasp escaping, then she collapsed forward again back into her lovers embrace.
Holding me so tight, I feel so safe, nothing will ever hurt me while I'm in her embrace. While I'm with her.
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When the aftershocks stopped, she opened her eyes, saw the time on the clock on the bedside table. Damn it. Didn't want to get up, to break that embrace, but she did and started picking her clothes up off the floor. "I have to go." she said.
"Can't you stay? At least for a little while?" Not begging, almost pleading.
"You know I can't." Don't look her in the eyes. Focus on getting dressed. If you look her in the eyes now you won't leave here. Won't Leave Her. Won't Leave Ever.
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She watches her getting dressed. Quick, methodical. No eye contact again. So hurt, confused. Yet nothing is wrong, apparently. Moves to the bedside table, takes out her wedding band from the drawer where she left if earlier and slips it back on. Hurts like hell to watch her do that. Heart torn apart again. She approaches for the customary farewell peck on the cheek. Searching her face. Still won't look at me. What has changed? What have I done? What is wrong? What have I done wrong?
"I'll see you tomorrow." Quick kiss on the cheek. "I'll stay a little longer then." Liar.
Eyes meet. Opportunity. "I'm in love with you." First time said. Not first time thought.
Eyes downcast. "I know." Turn and walk away. Now.
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Shego sat on the bed waiting until she heard the front door to the apartment close, then let her tears flow. She couldn't believe that she had said those words aloud. Had never felt that way about anyone, had never wanted to say them to anyone. Until now. Until her.
I told her I was in love with her and all she said was 'I know'? 'I know.' Then she turned and walked away. I've been such a fool.
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Kim managed to get to her car before her tears started. She heard the words over and over in her head. She was unsure when but had known they were coming, that look had been in Shego's eyes for at least three weeks now. And while they were the most amazing words to hear Shego say to her, hearing them had still caught her by surprise and they had scared her. Scared because she may have to make choices she didn't want to. She knew it was cruel to have only said "I know." in return. Scared, she had turned and walked away.
She played with her wedding band, repeatedly moving it up and down her finger, each time getting closer to taking it off. Just take the damn thing off and go back and be with her. Shego told you she's in love with you! It's what you… No, she couldn't. Taking the ring off wasn't an option. More tears flowed.
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Kim stood outside the door of the apartment bracing herself for the conversation, fight, whatever was going to occur once she went inside. She hadn't heard from Shego since the day before when Shego had told her how she felt. There had been no response to the text messages Kim sent, phone calls were unanswered. She had practiced for most of last night and throughout the day what she would say to Shego, but Kim wasn't confident she was ready for what was about to happen.
She reached into her backpack and took out the spare key Shego had given her. She stopped to look at the silver KP initials on the keychain it was attached to. Shego had carefully melded the once separate letters together and Kim smiled at the deliberate attention to detail and Shego's thoughtfulness. Shego had recently added a second larger key but would not tell Kim what it was for. "You're a clever girl. You'll figure it out." had been her cryptic response. Kim had known immediately what it represented. Again so as not to give Shego hope, Kim had pretended not to know. Had nagged Shego about its purpose, deliberately tried it in several locks in the apartment, those attempts met with eye rolling and head shaking from Shego, but it opened nothing. Kim knew that would be the case, knew it's symbolic, not practical, purpose.
She took a deep breath, exhaled again, put the door key into the lock and entered a dark apartment.
"Shego?" she called out closing the door behind her. "Shego are you here?" There was no response, only the muted sound of traffic passing by outside. She threw her backpack onto the lounge and walked through to the dining room. On the table sat Shego's laptop. It was open and powered on. As she neared it, Kim noticed the sticky note stuck to the middle of the screen. In her neat handwriting Shego had written PLAY ME... for a fool. Kim 's stomach dropped. She removed the sticky note, there was a frozen image on the screen. It was Shego.
Scared of what she was going to hear, Kim pressed the play button. Shego took the longest time to begin to talk, to look directly at the screen. When she did, her voice was shaky, her eyes kept darting to the screen and away again. Kim could see she had been crying.
"I can't do this." Shego stated, looking to the side, shaking her head. She looked directly at the screen again. "Over this past year we've been... Geez I don't know what we've been..."
Stunned, Kim hit the pause button. Had it really been a year?
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