As a kid, I was rebellious. I wouldn't listen to what others said, just followed my heart. But as I got older following my heart only led to it getting broken. So I began to play by the rules.
And I do not like the rules.
Rules restrict me from my dreams, from living freely. The thought of playing by the rules any longer makes me sick.
I, Emma Nelson, refuse to play by the rules.
After many failed relationships, from my heart being broken despite my constant guarding, I choose to be free.
So, what do I do now?
Well, I have made it through my first year of college. I have gotten over not 1, but 2 guys in one year.
Kelly and I were good for awhile after he got kicked out of Res, but we kind of got over it, but we're still friends. Then there is Sean.
Sean Cameron stole my heart long ago. Now I finally got it back. Months of emailing and writing letters only showed me that I can't be his back and forth girl. He thinks he can come and go as he pleases in my life. Sorry Charlie, but that doesn't fly with me.
With Manny in California, I figure maybe I can go down there, a nice road trip with me, myself, and I.
I just need to run this idea by my parents first. This may be hard since they have been dying to see me.
So I'm in my car, driving along the highway towards Degrassi. The top to my convertible down, windows down, and music blaring.
Hello summer.
My hair was flying all over the place and my cheap six dollar sunglasses just about kept the sun out of my eyes. I'm excited to be going home. Even if it may be just for a few days, I would make the most of it.
I definitely missed everyone, my mom and dad especially. Mom is my rock, she is my secret keeper, my advice columnist, my best friend, anything I need her to be. We had our weekly calls every Wednesday night where I would pour my heart out to her and get everything off of my mind. She would tell me about Snake, Jack, and Connor also.
Snake, or Dad, called about twice a week. He and I have an understanding with each other. No secrets. So any little thing, including the latest gossip about Degrassi, I was informed of. Manny and I enjoyed his calls, so many stories, like Peter and Mia? A very unexpected couple, but hey I guess it works for them.
My little Jack is growing up so fast, it's hard to believe that he is going to be four in a few months. He talks on the phone sometimes and tells me how much he misses and loves me. It may be the cutest thing in the world.
Then there's Connor. He's the son of one of mom and dad's old friends. Apparently Degrassi has this new "accelerated learning" class and he got into it and lived at my house. He's pretty cool, kind of reminds me of Toby, which isn't a bad thing at all. I consider him family, since he's always hung around at parties and what not.
You could say I miss everyone and everything.
They say that there's no place like home.
As I pull into my driveway and see my parents on the porch with Jack everything that has happened this year just fades away.
This is where I belong.
