I know that I shouldn't be starting a new story but I have to get it up before I move and this is the only time I will have a computer at my disposal so I hope that you like it and I will be adding more then one chapter so don't worry. Luv Sin!!!
Honestly I don't know what made me walk this way. I think that I knew deep down that someone needed someone. It didn't take me until many years later to realize that I was the one that had been needed. I was in the hospital overnight once again because I broke my fall with my head again and Vince wanted me to stay to make sure I didn't have any brain damage. I would later thank him for making me go there. But that isn't the point right now. I was bored in the hospital so I decided that I was going to for a smoke. Instead of going the way I have gone four times already I went the other way not knowing why.
I soon found myself lost and near the ICU waiting room. This was one place I never wanted to see again. So I turned to leave when I heard a woman in the waiting room. "She is your mom too! And she is dying Jack. You can't even hop a plane to come see her before she dies. Eight years Jack, I took care of mom for eight years without a visit from you or Jamie. I quit my job, college and I stopped dating because she would have done it for us. Hell she did it for us! And you two are too fucking busy to hold her hand and tell her you love her before she dies. I hope that you remember this because I will never forgive you two for this!"
I leaned against the wall as I heard her cell phone shut and her start to cry. That broke my heart, she did all of it and her family couldn't even come to say goodbye. "What am I going to do now?"
I couldn't take anymore so I went to walk away but my legs had other ideas and walked to the open door of the waiting room. What I saw broke my heart even more. A redhead with purple and blue highlights was sitting on the floor rocking back and forth as painful, sorrow filled sobs racked her body. Before I knew what I was doing I was beside her on my knees and she was in my arms. "It's all going to be ok."
She looked at me and I saw the most beautiful blue almost purple eyes filled with pain, lost and hopelessness tears. "Thank you, but it isn't going to be ok, she is my world and I can't take her pain away."
A door opened and someone came out into the room. "Miss Weeks it's time."
When she pulled away from me I felt the loss of her in my arms. I helped her up and she looked at me. "Thank you Mister Hardy, I really needed that."
"No problem I'll wait out here for you." I said to her and she smiled a sad smile at me.
I do believe that hope and gratefulness flashed in her eyes before she headed towards the door. I then watched as she stopped and looked at me. "I'm Tear."
"Jeff." I said to her before she disappeared and the door shut behind her.
I walked back to room with the nurse praying that she will go without pain. When I walked into the room I locked eyes with her. We both had purple eyes that turned blue and at that moment her eyes were a light purple. She was in pain and there was nothing that I could do to take it away. I knew that she wouldn't last much longer and that she would be dying tonight. "Hey mommy, I talked to Jack and Jamie. They aren't going to be able to make it. They said that they love you very much and to let go."
"I'm sorry I ruined you life Tear. You didn't deserve this." She whispered to me and I held back my sob.
"You didn't ruin my life." I said to her as I walked towards the bed and got on it with her. "I loved every moment that I had with you.
I laid my head on her chest and she wrapped her arms around me. "You are my angel Tear no matter what I will always be with you. I love you baby."
"I love you too mommy." I said before I heard her last breath leave her body. I held onto her even after her arms fell from around me knowing that my world would never be the same again. "Goodbye Mommy."
I felt someone behind me ten minutes later but I didn't move. "Tear sweetie she is gone."
"I know." I said before I moved her red hair out from around her face and gave her one last kiss. "Now you are my angel."
The nurse walked me back to the waiting room and he was there sitting with his hands in his lap not wanting to be there. You could tell by the look in his eyes. He has been through this before. The nurse hugged me before she left me in there with him. I just stood there because I didn't know what to do. "She is gone. Now what do I do?"
I didn't even realize that he had gotten up and come towards me before he drew me into his arms. "We go outside and get some fresh air. Then you start to move on with your life now. Believe me I know that it's hard but you can do it."
When we got outside she pulled out a pack of cigarettes. I led her to the picnic tables and we sat down. I pulled out my cigarettes and she snorted. "Now who would have thought that Jeff Hardy smoked?"
"Not many that is for sure." I told her before I lit her cigarette for her.
After she blew out her smoke she gave me a ghost of a smile before she stared off into space. "I was in college when my mom had her first stroke. I only had four months before I was finished but mom was more important. I was born with Spinal Bifida so I was in and out of the hospital my whole childhood. But she never gave up on me and was always there and behind me in everything that I done. Jack and Jamie tried to talk me into putting her into a nursing home but I wouldn't. I couldn't do that to her. She was so young at age 42 that there was no way I would doom her to that life.
So I quit my job, college and broke up with my long term man. Then I drove 36 hours without sleep all the way home. I did everything for her. She was the reason in my life to live. But now she is gone. Now I have nothing." She said to me and I looked at her in understanding.
"You are used to being needed and don't know what to do with yourself now." I said to her and she looked at me.
"Yes. But I don't want to stay here. I have hated this place my whole life. I just don't know where to go." She said as she blew smoke out.
"Well, I do need a personal assistant and a manager. But you have to be able to work with the cameras on." I said without thinking about it.
She looked at me shocked and I found myself drowning in an ocean of purple. "You would do that for someone that you don't know?"
"Yes I would because I know deep down that this is the reason that I got hurt. To help you through this." I told her.
"Really?" She asked as she raised her eyebrow in question.
"Yeah and you do that better then the Rock." I told her and she actually laughed which brought a smile to my face.
"I can't leave for a week. I have to do everything alone." She and I got my phone out.
"What do you think about four wrestlers staying with you for a week? We have nothing to do for two weeks. Then you can come stay with me." I said to her.
"I don't know you are a sweetheart but that doesn't mean that you couldn't do something bad to me." She said and I saw just how innocent that she was.
"I'll have Mickey and Kelly join us too. They have the time off. You don't need to be alone. So since you can't count on family I'll make sure that you have someone that you can count on." I told her.
"I'll have to get food into the house." She said a few minutes later.
"I can help you there too." I said to her and she looked at me again.
"I can't do it tonight." She said to me and I nodded.
"That is fine I can't leave here tonight anyways. So we'll meet at Denny's for breakfast in the morning." I told her.
"Ihop." She said and I smiled.
"Now that is what I am talking about." I said to her as she handed me a slip of paper.
"Call this number when you get out and I'll meet you there." She said to me and I nodded.
"Are you leaving now?" I asked her and she shook her head.
"No I can't drive right now." She said to me.
"I was getting worried. I didn't want you behind the wheel this shaky." I said to her.
"I don't own a car I own a cycle and being shaky on one of them is deadly." She said and I nodded with a smile.
"What?" She asked me.
"I didn't peg you as a biker chick." I said and she laughed.
"Most of my clothes are leather. But I'm wearing this to hide all my tattoos." She said with a smile.
"Really?" I asked her.
"No I don't have any tattoos. I couldn't afford them. I always wanted a few or more." She said and I smiled.
"Shannon and I could do them for you." I said to her.
"I've been told that a lot by many friends. But just like this they let me down. I'm use to it and it doesn't hurt anymore. They'll come around and make up excuses. I'll just nod not believing a word that they say. But this time that it did hurt. When they come around this time I won't be there to hear their excuses." She said sadly.
"I'm sorry that there are people that would do that to you." I said to her.
"Don't be sorry Jeff that is life. There will always be people that will do that." She said as she patted my hand and I felt her touch all through my body.
"Believe me I wish that I could say that it isn't true but we both know that would be a lie." I said as I took her hand in both of mine. There was something special about this girl and I just don't know what it is yet.
We talked for two more hours before the nurse came out and got him. I couldn't go home to that house so I rented a hotel room for the night. I didn't think that I would be able to sleep but I guess a week without sleep caught up with me because I don't remember anything after my head hit the pillow.
I called my brother after she left and told him everything. "You mean to tell me that no one in her family was there for her?"
"That's right." I said to him.
"You couldn't walk away?" He stated.
"You wouldn't have been able to either. Eight years she took care of her mother. She is amazing Matt. Most would just pop them into a nursing home but she didn't." I told him.
"What did you do Jeff?" He asked me suddenly.
"Nothing. Why do you always think I did something?" I asked him.
"Because you always do Jeff." He said to me.
I hated that he knew me so well. "I didn't do anything."
"We'll see when I come and pick you up tomorrow." He said to me.
"We are meeting her at Ihop when we leave here. Make sure Mark, Glen and Shannon meet us at the one nearest to the hospital. Mickey and Kelly too." I told him.
"See I told you." He said to me.
"Bite me Matt." I growled before I hung up the phone.
