The Twilight Diaries
Chapter 1
Dear Diary,
Today is my 18th birthday! It's the 9th of May, and I'm officially ready! Well I've been ready for awhile now, but my family said I had to be 18 in order for the "change". We have been talking for sometime now on how to change me, and who will be the one to do it. I'm just hoping no one backs out, especially Edward. The main question Edward kept asking me was "why?". Well, when a family full of vampires raised me since I was 4 months old, you want to be just like them. In this case become just like them. I have been with the Cullen's for as long as I can remember. Why wouldn't I want to become a vampire? When Carlisle first found me I was only 4 months old. He found me in a basket outside Forks' only hospital. He could of left me there instead of taking me home with him. If he never took me home I would never of known about vampires. Well maybe not considering I'm not "normal". But the fact is I wouldn't know about vampires so I wouldn't want to become one. Well obviously he didn't leave me there because I'm "special". When Carlisle held me all of one time he realized what I could do. He saw that I was one of a kind so he decided to make me apart of his family. As I grew older I learned ways on how I can kind of control what I could do. My how life I felt like I did not belong. I'm just a dumb human that has something wrong with her. My family finds it very interesting. See I'm a mix between Alice and Renesmee. I can see the future, and when I touch you… well I project the vision that I'm seeing into your mind. I mean I do think its cool but I'm still human. I want to be a vampire like my family. Bella is my inspiration because she's never tasted human blood since she's been a vampire. Well diary thanks for listening, I have to go now because Renesmee is calling my name! Now its time to go face my favorite vampires.
Love Always Elizabeth.
I jumped out of my chair as fast as I could grabbing my diary along with me. I ran over to my bed, lifted up the mattress, and shoved my diary underneath it. As soon as I let the bed drop Renesmee came running in with the biggest smile on her face. "Happy Birthday Ella!" she screamed. Renesmee was always the most depressed about me becoming a vampire. She liked the fact that I was one of a kind like she is. Renesmee is the half vampire half human daughter of Bella and Edward. She liked how I was different in my own way just like she was. So I was taken back at the fact of why she was so happy. "Hey Nessie," Nessie is her nickname because her name is such a mouth full. "thank you!" I replied. Nessie came over to me and stopped right in front of me. I looked at her face and realized her facial expression wasn't happy anymore, it was more like worried. The only thought that came into my head was uh-oh. I opened my mouth to ask her what was wrong and her hand immediately shot to my face to cover my mouth. All she said was "shh!". She grabbed me by my hand and took me into my bathroom. Something obviously is wrong. Nessie wouldn't be acting like this unless… Before I could finish my thought she reached her hand to my face and showed me what was wrong. Nessie can project things into your mind that she is thinking, saw, herd, and make you see it too. She showed me what the problem was and I knew it was going to happen. " Carlisle, I'm not ready to let her become one of us!" Edward hissed. "I'm sorry Edward, but we said on her 18th birthday and its her 18th birthday." Carlisle responded. "No! It's my decision and I'm saying no and that's my final answer." Edward yelled. Then my mind went blank. I opened my eyes to see Nessie staring at me, our eyes met for a moment and than she looked away. "Ness why?" was all I was able to choke out. "El, not now. It's time to go downstairs. Just please try and act like I didn't tell you." she whispered. "Give me a few seconds." I hissed. I knew it wasn't right to be mean to Nessie but I was just so angry. I went over to the sink and stared at myself in the mirror. Bella and Alice will be on my side, wont they? I would have been positive about it before but now it feels like everyone is betraying me, besides my best friend. Nessie. When I used to look in the mirror, I used to picture myself with golden brown eyes, against my white pale skin, and my long blonde hair tied into a pony tail so everyone could see how pretty I was. Well that image is gone and is now replaced with my green eyes, against tan wrinkly skin, with gray hair cropped short. I will no longer be young forever. "El, lets go." Nessie urged. I gave myself one last look into the mirror, than I turned to Nessie grabbed her hand and prepared my self to face what was waiting for me downstairs.
As Nessie and I walked downstairs I immediately knew who decorated the house for my birthday. Alice! She always tends to go a little overboard. There was decorations every where that it was impossible to even try and ignore them. The one thing that stood out was the table full of presents. Why were there so many? "Happy Birthday" they all said at once. "Thank you guys! But you really didn't have to!" I exclaimed. "Oh yes we did!" Alice said as she was hugging me. After Alice's hug I was hugged by the rest of my family. "So Ella, would you like to open your presents?" Alice asked. "Well," I started to hesitate "I kind of wanted to discuss my favorite birthday present." I tried not to look into any one of their eyes. "Oh, No!" Edward exclaimed. "Presents first." he said firmly. Edward is kind of like my father. Him and Bella wanted to raise me since they were already raising Nessie, and they wanted another daughter. "No. I'm tired of waiting. We keep putting this off. I know what I want." I said. "To become a monster? That's what you want?" Edward shot back. "To me, you guys are not monsters. But if that's what you feel you are… Than yes, yes it is." I sounded sure. "Well Ell, we didn't want to tell you this until later because we didn't want to ruin your birthday. But I've changed my mind." Edward said apologetically. Finally! The truth comes out! They don't want me around forever. "No Ell, that's not it." Edward replied to the thoughts in my head. "Get out of my head! Leave me alone! And just stay away from me!" I shouted. I stormed out of the room, out the door and into the sunlight. I headed toward the garage to go to my car. I herd footsteps behind me, but I didn't turn around to see who it was because I already knew. I walked into the garage and got into my Honda. I closed my eyes and started to take deep breaths. I couldn't hold it in anymore, so I just let myself go. I herd the passenger door open than close and than I felt Nessie's arms around me. "Its okay Ella, just let it all out. I'm here for you." she soothed.
I woke up sometime later to Charlie's voice. I must of cried myself to sleep. Charlie is Bella's human father, he knows mostly everything, just not in full detail. He comes over everyday around noon. That's when I knew I feel asleep for sometime because when I stormed out of the house it was nearly 9. I looked over at Nessie and found her staring at me. She was probably waiting for me to start crying again, I would have but than I felt it coming. "Ness, a vision!" I quickly said. Than I put my hand onto hers, and we both stared straight forward waiting to see the future.
