Lost In Your Own Life
Summary: What if at the end of Chasing the Dream Macy didn't forgive them instead said something that would change how they see the world and how they think the world sees them? What if Macy really could sing and she just didn't know how to let it out?
Authors Note: Hey guys this is my first Jonas fanfic I hope you guys like it.
Who Are You Really?
"I don't know I just thought they were so cool and awesome. I thought they really liked me. I just can't believe they did that to me." Macy said crying to her computer.
"Macy I know you really love the Jonas Brothers but just hear me out ok. You said you are their super number one fan and you know everything there is to know about the Jonas Brothers right? Well maybe-"
"I do, I mean I really do, or at least I thought I did." Macy said interrupting the girl who she was having a video message with.
"Macy I know you do and let me finish. Just hear me out ok?" She said waiting for Macy to shake her head.
"Ok." Macy responded nodding her head for her to continue.
"Ok so you know everything there is to know about the Jonas Brothers but do you know anything about the Lucas brothers? I mean maybe Jonas is nice while the Lucas' aren't nice for all you know they could be jerks. Maybe you should get to know the Lucas' and not Jonas." She stated simply hopeing to stop her friend's tears she really did hate seeing her friend crying. Knowing she couldn't help her I mean she was on the other side of the world.
"Maybe. But how can I look at them knowing what they did. I mean it really hurt and they said it in front of a music producer for heck's sake. I mean what do I do? I'm just so confused right now." Macy said depressed.
"Well here is an idea. Don't forgive them I mean don't be totally evil or anything but don't forgive them either. Like I said get to know the Lucas's instead of the Jonas you only see." She stated very simply like it was the easiest thing in the world.
"How do I get to know them if I'm supposed to not forgive them? That makes no since what so ever." Macy said confusedly.
"Oh well that's easy just watch them from afar. See how they interact with the kids form school. That way you know who they really are." She said simply.
"Ok say I do that. How do I know when to forgive them?" Macy asked.
"Umm let me think… Oh I know don't forgive them until they beg for your forgiveness. They need to learn tough love. And this is the best way... for all of you." The girl said finally.
"Wait what do you mean for all of us?" Macy asked angrily.
"Well all you seem to talk about is them. And to be honest you haven't really talked to them. I mean you faint or scream or like most of the time you end up hurting them. And I know you don't like doing any of that so maybe this will help you." The girl said quietly. She really didn't want to make her mad but hey it needed to be said.
"Well… I guess you are right. I mean I do want to talk to them and not freak out. Well I can always try I mean it can't hurt. But the music thing still really hurts. So I just don't know anymore." Macy said dejectedly.
"Mace listen to me you have an amazing voice it's just when you get in front of a crowd it changes. It's called stage fright. Which is weird considering you play like a zillion sports in front of lots of people? But anyway I heard you in the shower remember and I told you Wow you have an amazing voice. And when you sang again it was horrible but you hated singing in front of people but I got you to eventually sing in front of me. And it rocked. Now you sing in a choir albeit it's in the next town but you do because you don't care about what they think of you. And they tell you all the time you are amazing. Ok so I can totally see how this not a good topic for you anymore so lets change it. What would you like to talk about now?" The girl asked trying to help her best friend.
"Aww you are so sweet. Ok topic change fine when are you coming to visit? I miss my cousin/best friend." Macy said giving her best puppy dog face.
"I'm the sweet one I don't think so. I don't know I really like it here, but for a visit hopefully soon I really do miss you. These weekly video messages just don't cut it. Ohhh maybe you could come here for a visit I know you would love it. And mom and dad totally miss you. It would be so cool if you could." The girl said excitedly jumping up and down.
"OMG calm down. You are so funny. But that would be awesome me coming down there to see you. I would love to go to Africa. It would be so amazing to see all the animals and the people and to see their culture up close. I so have to ask mom and dad and see what they see." Macy said happily.
"Ok well since we don't have much longer to talk. Tell me everything else that is going on. I think the one thing I miss about school is friends and some gossip not much but some. But I do like home schooling way better." She stated dreamily.
"Ok sometimes I forget how weird you really are. Hahahaha." She started laughing seeing the look on her cousin's face. "I'm sorry I had to say it. Anyway umm nothing really new except for this stupid poetry homework I have to do for my creative writing class which by the way has all the Jon- I mean Lucas's in it." She caught herself before she said Jonas. "And Stella so they all get to see how horrible my poetry and my writing skills are. Ohh but Mike the guy I told you about is in it. And I know this is really forthcoming but I think I'm going to ask him out. What do you think?"
"OMG. I think you should totally do it go for it girl. And I'm so proud of you for saying Lucas instead of Jonas, I knew there was hope for you after all instead of a hopeless case. Hahahaha." She started howling with laughter with the look Macy was giving her. "I'm sorry I couldn't help it. I mean you said it to me so I had to do something. But anyway I'm sure it's not horrible but if you want to. You can read it to me and I will tell you what I think. I mean I don't lie, I don't like it. It makes me feel horrible. But go ahead and read it to me. Please?" She begged with a look even the meanest person couldn't say no to.
"Ok fine but I want your honest opinion.
"Don't have to be a wonderer alone
Don't have to be a dog without a bone
Just come to my house, I'll be home
How did you end up lost at sea?
You don't have a boat or live near the beach
But if you're in need of rescuing
Well I will hear you
I want you to know
You're never alone
You'll always have a place to go
It's on the brighter side
I'll color your night
I'll lead you to light
Put hope inside for you to find
You don't have to be lost
Lost in your own life
Lost in your own life"
"Ok so what did you think? Tell me like it is." Macy said bracing for the worst.
"That was wow I mean wow. That was so good I love it. You did so well on it. You will defiantly get an A on that. Ok well I have to go my times up tell Auntie Ann and Uncle John I said hi." The girl said sadly.
"Ok I will and tell Mama Dawn and papa Rick that I said hi too. These two hour talks are just not long enough." Macy said sadly too.
"Ohh I defiantly agree ok well I really do have to go listen have sweet dreams oh and Macy" Macy looked up at her name. "Don't let anyone change you. You are perfect the way you are. And know that your family and I defiantly love you." The girl said fondly.
"I will thanks. And I love you too. Oh and Zoe (that's a long e I just couldn't figure out how to put the two dots over the top for correct pronunciation) try not to get stung by a scorpion again." Macy said fondly knowing Zoe would get the underlining message.
"I promise, take care of yourself too. Same time next week. Bye girl." She said laughing before signing off.
Saharachick has signed off. Macy's computer read.
"That girl is crazy but I wouldn't have her any other way." Macy said to herself before signing off herself.
She looked around her room seeing JONAS posters covering her wall. She took a deep breath and started taking down most of their posters down leaving only a few on her walls and putting up posters of movies and fairies she had gotten over the years. She put the posters she took down and put them in the back of her walk in closet. She grabbed her blue and green swirl bed sheets and took her JONAS ones off and put those on. She put the dirty ones in the basket deciding she would figure out what to do with those tomorrow. She looked at the clock and noticed it read 12:00 am. 'Crap I really do need to get to bed. I can't believe it took me two hours to do that. Oh well it had to be done I guess.' She turned off her lights, set her clock for 7:00 am and climbed into her JONAS less bed and went to sleep. For the first time not dreaming in lord knows how long about JONAS instead she dreamed of Mike Zoe and the animals in the Sahara.
Next Moring with Kevin, Joe, Nick, and Stella at school.
"Good luck." Nick said
"I can do this guys." Kevin said sadly.
"No good luck because she has a lacrosse stick."Nick said laughing. Stella gave a sympatric look and Nick and Joe walked off. Kevin took a deep breath and walked over to Macy's locker and noticed how depressed she really was.
"Macy I really am sorry about yesterday. I just didn't want to hurt your feelings and I see I only made this worst. So-" He stopped when Macy held her hand up to him to silence him.
She took a deep breath 'Ok step one let him see me really upset. Check. Step two tell him off without being evil.'
"Kevin I get I do. I mean my cousin and I talked about it last night. So I get it. I'm JONAS's super number one fan, I know all there is to know about the Jonas Brothers but I really don't know anything about the Lucas brothers. So I guess all I need to know is that the Lucas brothers are kind of jerks while JONAS is really nice." She looked up to see him wince at that. 'Step two. Check. Step Three walk away with the final word. "So if I'm wrong Kevin then you really need to figure out something." She leaned up to his ear 'don't freak out Macy, I repeat do not freak.' She thought to herself. Whispered something to him. Closed her locker and walked away. 'Step three. Check. Go me.' She thought while walking away.
Kevin walked over to where his brothers and Stella were.
"Well how did it go?"Stella asked.
"Yeah there were no screams and she didn't faint and you're not hurt so that's good right?"Joe asked.
"I don't think so. Look at how bad Kevin looks what happened?" Nick asked worriedly.
"I think we lost our number one fan." He looked up when he heard their gasps. "I know right but then she said something that's really got me thinking. She said she may know everything there is to know about JONAS but she knows nothing about the Lucas brothers but she knows all she needs to know. That while JONAS is awesome the Lucas's are jerks." Everyone winced and gasped at that. They were about ready to interrupt when he put his hand up to say he wasn't finished. "She said one more thing to me that really got me thinking… She said who are you really? Who are the Lucas's? And then she just walked away." Kevin said the last part sadly and really thinking about that.
"Who are we really? I never thought being called a Lucas would be an insult." Nick whispered.
"Is that what everyone thinks about us?" Joe asked sadly.
"I don't know guys. I really don't." Stella stated dejectedly. With that they all walked away to their own class thinking about what Macy said. Never noticing said girl was watching from around the corner. 'Step four: see if I made an impact. Check if their faces and conversation is any indication.' With that the warning bell rang. 'Crap I have to get to class.' Macy walked off to her math class. 'Geometry. Ugh evil class.'
Well what do you guys think? Reviews and flames are welcome. Oh and the poem is actually a song and it's not mine. And I couldn't remember the entire conversation they had so hope its close enough. Chapter two will be up soon.
