"You want him, right?"
"Not with your cruel help, Shinou. I would do anything for Yuuri, but I'll never again harass him, not like with the dry winds!"
"Why not, you got your long desired kiss thanks to me. You can take it even further if you let me posses your body."
"NO, never! And since when do you ask permission to take over my body?!"
"If you're so determined to do it all on your own… Just accept whatever comes on your way."
With that Shinou left me alone. Not that I cared much, neither did I care about what he said, well that was on that moment. I just spend the rest of the day as usual.
"Come on, Yuuri. Hurry up and get to bed."
"I still don't get it, why do you sleep in my bed?!"
"Wimp, we slept together for months. Why are you suddenly complaining?"
"Because I'm tired and don't want to lie on the ground at the end of the night! And don't call me a wimp!"
"Goodnight, Yuuri." I wished him, when he slid under the covers.
"Yeah…sleep well."
And we both tried to sleep. But I couldn't, the conversation with Shinou haunted my mind. 'Accept whatever comes on your way'… Just what did that means?
I guess I still fell asleep, because I was woken up by a scream.
"…NO…!"
"YUURI! Are you alright?!"
"What? Oh yeah, just go back to sleep." He said after he collapsed back onto his pillows and turned away from me.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, nothing to worry about."
There was something off with the way he reacted, I didn't know what but I knew there was something wrong.
We fell asleep again and when I woke up, I felt some strange, but comfortable pressure on my waist. I slid my hand under the covers to find it out. It was another hand… Yuuri's hand, I knew. Not that I didn't liked it, but Yuuri can be pretty rude too, so I warned him.
"Yuuri?"
"Hmm, what is it?"
"Your hand… It's on my waist, wimp."
"Oh yeah, sorry." He replied and removed it slowly.
I noticed he lay very close, that was weird, together with the fact that he didn't jerk away, or apologize like an idiot and react on the fact I called him a wimp. Well, maybe he finally accepted the fact that we were engaged and that we would once get married and all. That were just dreams, that couldn't be true, could it?
"You really are beautiful, Wolfram." He whispered just behind my ear.
"W-what?" I stuttered, this couldn't be true, Yuuri would NEVER say that, NEVER, not in a hundred years.
"You are beautiful, with you're amazing gold locks. Just stunning." I felt his hand stroke and entangle in my hair.
"Y-you should get ready, Günter will come soon." I turned to him and he nodded while getting out of bed.
"Yeah, you're probably right." He said stripping his pyjama jacket, exposing his tanned chest.
I was watching hypnotized while he was unbuttoning it and when I saw only the slightest bit of skin I got a nosebleed. Damn, why now, WHY! I turned back, burying my face in a pillow, a small gasp left my mouth. I felt he climbed on the bed and he let his hand rest on my shoulder.
"Are you alright, Wolfram?"
"Y-yeah, just get yourself dressed ,I'm fine." I scooted of the bed into the bathroom linked to our room.
"Wolfram?" It was odd, the way he spoke, but I couldn't care less. Now I finally had the attention I always wanted and just why does it feel wrong. I peeked around the corner while he got himself ready.
'Accept whatever comes on your way.' The words just popped back into my head. Shinou… But it couldn't, Yuuri had blocked him out of his mind earlier, he blocked Shinou when he was under control of Shoushu. Yuuri was strong at that moment and he still is, so why would he be possessed by Shinou now? It couldn't be, really. Unless Yuuri was weak now… No, that was definitely not the case, but than what was it?
"Wolf, are you really alright?" He walked over to me a bit to close actually, he lifted his hand and wiped a fell strands of hair out of my face.
"Y-yeah, really." I saw he bent forward, most likely to give me a kiss, but Günter banged on the door.
"HEIKA! Time for your lessons!" He called out, Yuuri stood straight again, looked in my eyes deeply and then emerged from the room.
This sure was strange, the whole atmosphere was strange. This only would happen in my dreams, not reality. The way he reacted, the way he acted and everything else… I made up a plan to try and find it all out.
I dressed like normal and with a bag in my hand I searched the bathroom. I found Yuuri's lenses and the dye for his hair. I also grabbed the little pot with some kind of sticky stuff he does his hair with sometimes. A comb and some different peasants clothes then that I wear usually were in the bag too.
Then I left the room and the castle.
A few miles away, I changed my clothes with the ones in my bag, I dyed my hair and placed the lenses in. I used the comb and the sticky stuff to straighten my hair. My belt with sword was still on my waist and I headed back to the castle.
"Hold it!" A soldier stopped me.
"I have an appointment with Lord Wolfram von Bielefeld." I told the guy.
"Your name?"
"Hugo Valkenberg."
"Michael!" he called to an other soldier, one from my personal guards. "Bring this guy to Lord von Bielefeld!"
"I will," he replied and called out to me. "Please, follow me."
"If Lord von Bielefeld isn't present, then Lord von Voltaire knows about it too."
The soldier nodded and we walked up to my office, of course I wouldn't be there, so the guy lead me to my brother's office, he was absent too, I knew.
"Please wait here." He ordered me when we were back in my office. The man left and I stared out of the window for a few minutes.
I sneaked out, the guards weren't there so it was much easier and I went to Yuuri's office. I knocked and he opened the door.
"Ah, hello! Can I help you?"
"I-" I was interrupted by Yuuri, he had bend forward and kissed me. It was a nice and soft kiss. I was stunned for a moment, completely caught in the moment. Then I realized that I wasn't who I really was, I was Hugo Valkenberg for the moment. That meant… THAT MEANT…
"YUURI, YOU CHEATER! YOU FILTHY FLIRT! NEVER EVER WOULD YOU ACCEPT ME AND NOW YOU'RE KISSING A STRANGER?! LIKE IT IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING?!" I called out pushing him hard. He stumbled and fell backwards, his head hitting his desk hard.
"Where- what- why?" he rambled confused. "Who are you? Wolfram?" he asked, my name was pleading.
"OF COURSE IS IT ME! YOU IDIOT! HOW COULD YOU! I DRESS UP AS SOMEONE ELSE AND YOU IMMIDIATELY KISS ME?!"
"Where am I? Is it already afternoon? What happened to the morning? Where- how?" He really didn't concentrate on my yelling.
I turned and rushed away, I heard him gasping for air, but I thought it was just like his 'I-am-a-moron'-face, just trying to make me soften for him, but it wouldn't work this time, not now I'm this angry!
HOW COULD I EVER BE THAT STUPID?! HOW COULD I EVER ASSUME THAT HE WAS JUST ASKING FOR ATTENTION?! YES, HE IS ALWAYS ASKING FOR ATTENTION! THAT IS YUURI! But I just… I was mad… why didn't I just take a look…
Because later on I heard that Yuuri was found unconscious in his office. THAT WAS MY FAULT! Maybe I shouldn't have yelled, maybe he knew who I really was… I want to kill myself, not that I can… it would be dishonouring, I should face the facts and accept it. Somehow I just can't.
Conrad visited me, telling me that Yuuri woke up, but would get into hysterics whenever my name was mentioned. I wanted to visit him but Conrad said I couldn't, that they didn't what Yuuri to hyperventilate again. But after a few days I still went to the room he was being held in. I stepped into the room and Yuuri noticed it, he pointed to me and tried to crawl backwards against the wall, like he wanted to mend with it. He started to gasp and bringing out sounds that no one could understand. Conrad and Günter turned and the first shot me a angry look, then turned to Yuuri and tried to sooth him. Günter walked over to me and pushed me out of the room.
"I told you not to come, Yuuri can't handle it!" Conrad yelled.
"I don't care, he's my fiancé, I have to right to know how he's doing!" I yelled back.
"Wolfram, you have that right, but think about Heika, he is unstable and in shock. You could see for yourself that he wasn't doing very well. We still don't know what's wrong." Günter whispered sadly, trying to calm me.
Alright, I knew he wasn't doing well. Actually, he was looking very bad. Heavy bags under his eyes, pale skin, dull hair and his eyes looked empty, except for the fear. There's definitely something wrong, alright I already knew something was wrong, but back then he would adore me… 'Just accept whatever comes on your way.' The words popped up in my mind again, but I couldn't figure them out.
I walked away, angry… not at him, but at myself… I didn't even knew the reason.
