Title: I love you,But do You love me?
Pairing: Cao Cao x Liu Bei; Guan Ping x Cao Pi; Sima Zhao x Liu Shan ; Zhen Ji x Wang Yi ; Ma Chao x Sima Shi; Zhuge Liang x Yue Ying; Guan Yu x Xiahou Dun; Pang Tong x Ling Tong; One Sided Gan Ning x Liu Bei; Lu Bu x Zhao Yun.
Rating: Teen
Author Note: Its angst as fuck but I love this video game. My main pairing is Cao x Bei and Guan Ping x Cao Pi the most. Sorry for any mistakes in here,I want everybody to open the horizon about parings cause Gan Ning x Ling Tong are way too common if you asked me. And Somehow I like Gan Ning x Liu Bei for some odd reason as with Ma Chao x Sima Shi and Xiahou Ba x Guan Sao. And Also its OOC and AU. With a bit of supernatural.
-Dream-
As the man stare into the most pierce deadly eyes that sent shivers down his spine. He gulp for air trying to understand why do this man need to talk to him alone. The Chinese warlord stare at the other man with a cunning smirk a upon his face.
He step a bit closer as the other step back with a blush on his face. The warlord slowly grip his chin and lean forward as he was about to kiss the other.
As the other man hitch his breath trying not to wither from his strong gaze. Unable to talk just stare at that handsome warlord.
"So Lord Xuande ? Care to eat with me?"
-End of dream-
Liu Bei woke up panting hard and groan as his face was flushed; his long medium black hair was tangle in sweat. He whip his eyes he couldn't understand the dream. He knew it was back during The Han Dynasty,but the warlord's face was blurry but not his eyes. He been having this dream since he work part-time at a high school.
He looked at his clock he gasp it was already six. He quickly gotten out of bed and change his clothes. And put his hair into a nice neat bun; goes downstairs to open shop.
He own a small curry shop in front of his apartment. He actually own it where his family lives. Like both of his blood brother from another mother. Guan Yu and Zhange Fei; Guan Yu own a famous dojo across a street and Zhange Fei was a police officer.
Zhuge Liang and his beautiful wife Yue Ying; they both help him with the money and also help him tend to his shop. Along with Pang Tong who known for being lazy even to eat his own food at time. But he also help out as well and with Guan Yu's dojo. He also has Huang Zhang and Wei Yan who was on guard to keep the apartment and shop safe. He had high school student living here as well but some are family. Ma Dai and his cousin or brother Ma Chao; his nephew Liu Shan (Who's parents abanded him on his front step.), Xing Cài the daughter of his brother Zhange Fei and Guan Ping and his brother Guan Sao the sons of Guan Yu. And Zhao Yun the most kindest boy in the world that Liu Bei save from the street. Jiang Wei the quiet student that's was like a son to Yue Ying and Zhuge Liang they also adopted him.
After an hour of working Liu Bei change his clothes and rush out the door along with his students. Chatting about things at school,Liu Bei would blush when everybody talk about crushes.
Yes? He was now in love the school principal Cao Cao from The Cao Wei Family. When they first met it was hate at first sight.
When Cao Cao demanded to be treated royalty at the curry shop,Liu Bei dislike how he was being treated and told him he needed to leave now.
Cao Cao and Liu Bei had a hard staring contest for a while until Cao Cao left. After that their hate turn into pure friendship and love on Liu Bei part.
"Boss? Are you alright?" asked Zhao Yun. Liu Bei blinked at him and tilt his head,frown at that question.
"I'm fine barely getting any sleep that's all. I probably do a free time in class today." said Liu Bei with a warm smile.
Guan Ping and Xing Cài,Zhao Yun and Ma Dai,Ma Chao,Ziang Wei,Liu Shan was highly worried about kept it to themselves.
Everybody went there separates way. As Liu Bei enter his classroom and start teaching a bit. After twenty minutes later he told them its free time. He sat at his desk and yawn quietly. He digged into his desk and put out his iPod,put his head phone in his ear.
The first song popped up was Loving You by Anna Tsuchiya.
' In the spring of my life I fell in love for the first time
Oh baby, though I had faded many times before'
He sang along the words. Remembering meeting Cao Cao during the end of the spring time. As his eyes travel around the classroom of his students.
' God keep angels out of mischief
This is a quirk of fate
He is the one that I'm waiting for so long time'
His landed outside the window with a sigh. Knowing that Cao Cao was probably down from the heavens to cause mischief on him. He didn't mind since he wanted Cao Cao's attention on him. ONLY HIM.
'Baby, I'm falling love with you
I want you and I want you to need me so hard
My desire makes me crazy'
Liu Bei knows he falling hard for Cao Cao badly. But he wanted the other man to want and wish him like he did with him. He clutch on his forearm as his head was down,biting on his lower lip until it bleed.
'A little black butterfly
How can I be beautiful? If I have a sweet voice like you
Do you think he will love me?
I believe in my passion
Passion is dedication To something you believe... Can't stop, oh, lovin' you'
Liu Bei compare himself and all those beautiful woman and men. Whom lust for Cao Cao,he knows that he wasn't beautiful or rich who could be wearing beautiful clothing like them. He can't afford them since he was poor class citizen.
He was plain and boring he don't understand what Cao Cao and the others see in him. So what he was kind and respect other who need to be respect. He knows he weak and doesn't like to fight who doesn't? Okay expect his student Gan Ning whom he need to talk to later as possible.
'How do you know if the one you love is true? Because he said so?
I am just hungry for love or I just don't want to be alone'
At first he was confused about his feelings for Cao Cao a long time ago. He thought he was hungry for Cao's love or doesn't want to be alone for the rest of his life.
He try dating a couple of time but it didn't work out like he planned. That when he realize he wanted Cao Cao's love but only for him.
'A little girl, lovin' you
How can she be beautiful?
If she has a pure heart like me Do you love her just a while? If you want her to change,
she can change for you, right now
Even though she has gone out of your sight Can't stop, oh, lovin' you'
But his face turn dark and gloomy looking. He didn't want to feel this way anymore. Cause he remember that Cao Cao was married to Lady Wuxuan. A famous superstar and writer. He choked up on his tears.
'I wanted everything and so everything
I didn't want everything and so everything
I just want to be beautiful and beautiful I'm just lovin' you '
He didn't notice his class was gone for lunch. He wipe his tears away and stuff the iPod in his front pocket as he still had the headphone in his ear.
He walked out and start heading to the school garden to eat his lunch. His mind was clouded with much negative and begging to himself what did he deserve to be unloved. Of course he is love by his family but he wanted to be LOVED. He wanted someone to hold him and kiss him when he feeling down or not.
He sigh as he sat at the bench being surround by beautiful flowers. He felt he was a weed but the area made him feel at peace and he slowly ate quietly. Sing along to a new song very alluring and charming. Not paying attention to the person behind him.
'I can fly through my mind When I see them as they shine
Can it be so hard to try
And charm the elusive morning star, the morning star '
He did the movement with his hands like a belly dancer or like a geisha but it was more like a belly dancer.
' Now the time has come and gone
Illusion has past and we're on our own
Know the dream is never far
When trying to catch the morning star '
Liu Bei was dancing in his sexy very charming and alluring like his voice. Then stop to eat the rest of his food. As he felt somebody was watching him,he quickly turn his head around to found nobody there. He shrugged it off and goes back to eating.
~Gan Ning~
He was running away to see where his feet was gonna take him. His face was flushed and he was breathing hard. He couldn't believe what he seen his favorite teacher dancing in his chair and singing very enchanting to him.
He could NOT or would NOT believe this; He felt he intrude something so pure and private. He want to keep it to himself. He ran into Ling Tong and the other.
"Bro clam down? You look like you seen a damn ghost." annoyed Ling Tong.
Gan Ning roll his eyes and gave him a noggie and the others roll their eyes. Sun Quan and Sun Ce was arguing about food. Da Qiao and her sister Xiao Diao was sharing lunches and giggling at them. Zhou Yu was doing his homework along with Lu Xun. Sima Zhao and Liu Shan was quietly talking to each other (Liu Shan was blushing at whatever Sima Zhao said.) Sima Shi and Ma Chao was glaring at each other ready to kill one another for some meat buns. Wang Yuanji and Wang Yi was talking about fashion and money business of the world. Jiang Wei and Zhuge Dan was chatting about math and tatics of chess. Zhung Hui join the convotasion with Zhuge Dan and Jiang Wei. Cao Pi was flirting with a nervous Guan Ping as Guan Sao was glaring at him along with his girlfriend, Bao Sanniang'. Zhao Yun was eating his lunch quietly and listening to Xing Cai talk about training at his uncle dojo. Xiahou Ba was laughing at Sun Ce and Sun Quan bickering before their sister came, Sun Shang Xiang & also Sun Quan's best friend Zhou Tai. Zhange He and Zhen Ji was talking about hair and make up. As he wink at Gan Ning whom roll his eyes at him.
He sat down along with Ling Tong eating and chatting until Cao Cao and his three body guards came right behind him. Xiahou Dun and Dian Wei,Xu Zhu to make sure everything was in top shape.
The whole lunchroom was quiet until somebody crashed through the door hard. It was Liu Bei who was rubbing his nose and pouting hard. As he grin sweetly at the two elderly lunch lady who help him up. Gan Ning was tempted to help but he know Liu Bei may have some pride in him to be feel so helpless.
"Tsk Liu Bei?"
Liu Bei looked at Cao Cao with a blank stare as he arch his eyebrow at him.
"Answer this riddle Liu Bei? What could a dog do if he follow it master? Like a lost puppy?" said Cao Cao in insult calling Liu Bei a dog that follow him around.
Liu Bei eyes was wide never thought Cao Cao would step this low just to degrade him?
He lower his head and clutches his fist and shaking in anger. Cao Cao was amused of Liu Bei's anger that he was holding it in. Gan Ning didn't like Cao Cao talking to his perfect favorite teacher like that. As he was about to defend his teacher he heard Liu Bei chuckle.
Cao Cao rose an eyebrow as being amused.
"Well to answer your riddle? A dog would ripped his master throat out if he dislike being treated unfair." answered Liu Bei as he walked out the lunch room.
"Liu Bei ! Hault!" said Cao Cao as he chase after Liu Bei.
Gan Ning clench his fist hard and glaring at the door like it could melt. Ling Tong notice but he would asked later.
(Liu Bei)
He walked a bit faster tears flowing down his face he couldn't believe Cao Cao. He walked out of the school and went home. He ignored Zhuge Liang and Yue Ying,Wei Yan,Pang Tong questions. He wanted to be left alone. As he slam his room door and locked it. He put on his head phone with the music blasting. Playing 'Dark That Follows by Evans Blue'.
' There's just so many things you never needed to say.
Like I'm your other soul, but you can love them all.
Your tears are meaningless,
they're written on your face.
Just like your empty words, just like the chemical.
Just like the disease that stains your lips tonight.
You are the disease that's in my life.'
Liu Bei cried in his pillow mostly sobbing and his hair was down. He hiccup a bit,he imagine Cao Cao would said that to him.
'If it's no ones fault, There's just no one to blame and nothing to say.
This time it's no ones fault.
So there's nothing to save and no one to hate.
But I want to so bad. Believe me.'
He wanted to blame everybody for Cao Cao to look down upon him. But he was alone in his room sobbing in his pillow. There was nothing to save nor to hate. clenching on the blanket and stopped softly.
' You're so proud of yourself and your disadvantage to me.
It's just something you love to say (and hear that you're uncommon).
The greater the dosage makes me mispronounce it to be.
You're dead inside of me. You're dead inside of me. But when you're alone.
And no one knows. It doesn't seem to matter. You're the same inside of me.'
He felt that Cao Cao was using him to be his puppet that he could break and fixes. Over and Over again. He knew if he fell for Cao Cao he would get broken. He close his eyes and drift off to dream land once more.
-Dream-
Xuande looked down at the other male whom name was Mengde. He was holding sweet small flowers. He small smile down upon at him and bend down and quickly kiss Mengde. Xuande sigh happily.
"Lord Mengde? Why must you bring me flowers? Hmm I'm highly impressed that you could find these flowers during the flowers. You must want something? If you want something just say so?" asked Xuande while a small blush upon his face. Mengde gave him a mocking handsome smirk.
"You read through me Lord Xuande? I wanted to ask that may I use Lord Yunchang?" asked Cao Cao as smooth as he can be. Sending shiver down Xuande's spine but he couldn't let him had his way.
Xuande gave him back his flowers and frown. Mengde didn't like how this going as he stand up from being on one knee.
"I'm sorry Lord Mengde but my brother is very important to me. Anything in this world..." answered Xuande with a sad look on his face hoping he would understand. Mendge glare at him hard and pinned him down to the wall hard.
Xuande gasp at the pain as he trying to get out of Mengde's strong grip. He couldn't look at him in the eye so he turn his face away.
"Tsk Xuande! What can you do with Compassion? Lord Xuande? You do not have what it takes to change the world with that!" yelled Mengde as he tighten his grip around Xuande's wrist. Xuande flinch and glare at him trying not to cry.
"Mengde! People can grow without the changes you purpose! Its is the growth of the people can change the land!" yelled back Xuande. As he kicked Mengde on his stomach that made the other male stumble back a bit. But it wasn't enough as he glare hard at Xuande for that action.
Xuande was not gonna back down this time. Despite he feeling disgusted and being used for Mengde's taste.
"Can't you see it! You would just invite chaos into that! But mines is different and yet alone mines is the way." yelled Mengde. His eyes were cold not warm anymore. Xuande frown at that site of it; he turn his back against him and walked away.
"I'm sorry Lord Mengde." said Xuande quietly with his head down.
-End of Dream-
Liu Bei gasp and jumped out of bed panting hard and heart beating fast. He felt the dream was so real his eyes looked at the clock and eyes widen. He was late for his third job.
He ran to his closet and pulled out fish net stocking and long gloves. He took out fake ripped out royal blue and green t-shirt and plaid of black and grey long short. And some old sneaker with no shoe laces. He slowly painted his nails the same color of shirt and put on some black thick eye-shadow He put on some color hair of green in hair that had hair clips to it. And put his hair into a spiky pony tail. He pulled on his hair fringes a bit. And slowly put in his blue and green contact lenses in his eyes.
After that he quickly gotten dress and looked at time once. He only got fifteen minutes left as he quickly sneak out of the window of his apartment.
He got to the spot after ten minutes under as he squeeze himself through the door after he show the guard his id.
He went to the backstage and hug his band mate. As they smile and smack him the back of his head for being late once again. He apologize and gotten himself ready as the curtain open up.
He grabbed the mic and breathe heavily and smirk to the crowd. He stroke the mic and start scream as he sing the song.
' Let GO!
This time it's different
I'm burning up I'm filling up, see Forever plagued with this fire inside me
Deliver all, to live or die blindly '
He pointed to his wrist and pointed to himself as he used his other hand to fan himself..
'It's empty it's bluffing defining the nothing Interfering with the call of fate is crawling out of you and now
Finding comfort in the smallest spaces have sold out I know I said I hope'
He made a calling someone sign as he pointed to the crown. He close his hands together and pretend to sleep as he lay his head down on them.
'I don't upset the light you defend But this time it's different
Destroy my pain Then capture life again
(This time it's different)
Destroy my shame
Can't live my life this way LET! go,
GO! let go
And capture life again LET! go,
GO! let go Can't live my life this way!'
Liu Bei pulled on his hair roughly and singing. As he reach his hand out to the crowd while on his knees. He almost crawl toward them like a tiger but he almost he as he stand up and grabbed the mic.
' I'm giving up
I'm living but weak
I'm hearing voices from shadows inside me
I never sleep, My eyes are too focused, too hopeless, too broken, too open, to notice
Interfering with the call of fate is crawling out of you, and now
Finding comfort in the smallest spaces have sold out
I know I said I hope I don't upset the light you defend But this time it's different'
He dropped the mic as he done with his song and wave at everybody as they asked for an encore. He sigh and grinned at his band mate and gave the crowd an encore they would never forget.
-Three hours later.-
Liu Bei was tried and hungry as he snuck back into his room. And strip his clothes off and yawn loudly.
As he removed his nail polish and eye-shadow and hid all his stuff back in his secret closet.
'Thanks god for being friday.' thought Liu Bei as he finally falls to sleep in his bed. Since it was his day off.
Author Note: Like it? If so review and :P
