Warnings: Implied --well -- not exactly slash, but males being in love with other males.
Credits: Thanks to Kourin, for beta-ing it, and Shouka, for fall asleep long enough for me to write it, and whoever left the Webster's Thesaurus in the bathroom at school, because it's helped much, and Emilic, just for being supportive and a great friend, if a long-distance one.
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A Wolf in Need
You were the one who always cared for me
Without you, I would've been an exile
I would've had no one
The first six months were horrible for me
And you saw that, didn't you?
You took me from the fringes
picked me up
dusted me off
You brought me into
a circle of friends
a knot of companions
Because of you, I never had to be lonely
I've always loved you for it
But you had eyes only for James
Ironic, wasn't it?
We were in the same situation, and you never knew
But James didn't take you from the fringes
You were never there to begin with
Someone like you couldn't be
You always had this presence
suave
handsome
charming
Always knew exactly what to say
Then, after Azkaban
that changed
And I could see that you were frightened
alone
cold
and I wanted to help
and I loved you more than ever
But we both had jobs to do
We needed to be in the Order
protect Harry
You adored Harry
He was so much like James
But he wasn't James, Sirius
You couldn't fall back to our school years
And James
never loved you anyway
The one who loved you
was me
And I wanted to tell you
But you said, It can wait
And then you ran off
to protect Harry
James' son
And soon it was too late
and I couldn't tell you
and it hurt
And now I'm the only one of us left
And I only want one thing
I want you to be happy
Are you happy now, Sirius?
I loved you
I still love you
So I'll finish your work
and I'll protect Harry
Because you did so much for me
And now I want to return the favor
Even though you are no longer here
I just want you to know I love you
I just want you to be happy
I just want to say goodbye
