JUST SAY YES
Alexis, after so many months of heartache, was still not sure. Now she had to make a choice: Take the plunge... or watch her whole life walk away from her. She wasn't sure what the difference was at that moment,
"I don't know what your thinking. All I know is... I won't hang around for ever. Either you want me here or you don't," Carter didn't sound angry. He just sounded sad and tired.
"I don't know... I just don't know," Alexis mumbled desperately.
She had known Carter for about four or five years. He was annoying, big-headed and weird. However he had always been there for her when she needed him to be and he tried his best to help, even if it was in vain. He also put up with her and her moods, something she was deeply grateful for. Nobody bothered with her. When she was angry everyone just left her to it. Not him. He tried to cheer her up. And he understood what she went through better than most, such as her overly critical parents, because he had been there himself. Carter was just beyond caring at that point. Alexis was not.
Over time it became inevitable he would fall in love with her. Alexis knew it, she could feel it in her gut and it scared her. She wasn't sure if she loved him. At least in that way. When they had shared a kiss... It bought the butterflies in good abundance but also it bought uneasieness. She knew what he would expect and it wasn't a pretty moment when she didn't say she would become his girlfriend. Time healed that particular wound... for both of them. She thought he had got over it. Obviously she was wrong.
"What don't you know?" he asked,
"I'm not sure about anything okay?" she cried, putting her head into her hands, "I don't want things to change,"
"I know..." he said gently, "But sometimes you can't stop changes happening any more than you can stop the sun from rising or setting,"
"Well I should be able to," Alexis muttered and rolled over on her bed to face the wall.
"Not even if the changes were for the better?" he asked,
"Not even then..." she replied,
He sighed again and kissed her gently on the forehead. She closed her eyes at the feel of his lips and she couldn't help a single tear escaping and making it's way slowly down her cheek. She loved him... So why was it so hard to just say yes?
Carter got up and walked over to the window that overlooked the ocean, deep in thought. He wouldn't push her. It was her choice. He had made the mistake of trying to force her to change her mind once before and it nearly destroyed everything. She would admit it in time. He hoped.
Alexis looked over at him, still trying to wrest some answers from the battle in her head. She opened her mouth to say the result of the conflict when Carter jerked and said,
"I'm going home... Bye..." and he went downstairs and outside but not before kissing her softly and sweetly on the lips.
Alexis watched him from her bedroom window, heart aching. Each step away caused her heart to flutter. She wasn't too worried about his threat of leaving forever. He would come back. He always did.
A/N:
Inspired by real emotions i've known people to feel. Not mentioning any names of course.
Quick little oneshot for you :)
PeaceOut x
