Prologue

Have you ever thought about what you want the most in life? has there been a time in your life where you need to feel what love is and what is it like to have that one person you love the most by your side? Or do you ever think that if you don't find love that you never will and that nobody is out there for you? The truth is there is you just have to look really hard. Love is a thing that you treasure with your life and you never let go of it, even if the most traumatic thing happens. These things are what Amanda Rollins is frightened of, she wants to feel love for the perfect person but she also thinks that the other person might not love her like she does for that person. she has been in too many relationships those relationships didn't last because she still hasn't found the right person, the right person is out there for her she just doesn't know it, she has given up on love and that is what makes her the most scared, she is scared she will be alone for the rest of her life.

Recently Amanda Rollins was living in Atlanta and working for the Atlanta Police Department but after something really bad happened to her on the job she couldn't take it anymore. 7 years of her life she wasted staying in Atlanta working for the guy that had hurt her, she had to get out. She looked on the internet for other precincts that would take her and that she would like. She spent all day looking for other departments in other states. She came across one that looked the most interesting and that was the NYPD (Manhattan Special Victims Unit) located in New York. They were looking for new Detectives. So Amanda went emailed Captain Cragen and asked to meet him for an interview, he agreed to meet with her,. So that night she packed a couple suitcases and then went to sleep cause she had to be up to catch the 8:30am flight to New York. She woke up the next morning and got dressed and she she caught a cab to Atlanta Airport (ATL) and she boarded her flight to New York. She sat on the window side and looked out the window all the way from Atlanta to New York. When the plane at JFK New York Amanda got off the plane and grabbed her luggage that held her laptop files clothes and shoes. She walked through the glass doors that separated New York City from the airport. She waved down a cab the cab stopped in front of Amanda she got out and put Amanda's bags in the trunk and they got in the cab. Amanda sat in the back seat she told the cab driver the address.

Cab driver: I hear an accent are you from Texas darling?

Amanda: no I'm from Georgia

Cab driver: that's a beautiful city I got married there

Amanda: oh really where?

Cab driver: Savannah

Amanda: no way I was born in Savannah

Cab driver: really?

Amanda: yea it was beautiful its changed a lot with more buildings and houses its more beautiful than it was before

Cab driver: I can imagine I'm actually going back there for my 20th anniversary next week

Amanda: congratulations for being married for 20 years

Cab driver: thank you darling

Amanda: you very welcome may I ask where you are from

Cab driver: I was born and raised here in the big apple

Amanda: really this is my first time here in New York my friends have been here many times they have always sent me photos and everytime they went I was working for long hours

Cab driver: oh right what work do you do

Amanda: I'm a detective

Cab driver: are you really?

Amanda: I sure am

Cab driver: your really beautiful to be a cop

Amanda: I was told that a lot ma'am

Cab driver: please call me Josie

Amanda: Josie that's a pretty name I'm Amanda

Cab driver: nice to meet you Amanda (she pulled up outside the NYPD building) this is your stop

Amanda: this buiding is so much bigger than my old one

Cab driver: I think this building is 6 stories

Amanda: wow (she got out of the car and so did the cab driver) this is remarkable

Cab driver: it is one of my old friends work here as a cop

Amanda: oh really

Cab driver: yep Donald Cragen aka Captain Cragen

Amanda: I'm actually meeting Captain Cragen is he nice

Cab driver: he is lovely and nice you will like him (she got Amanda's luggage out of the trunk and closed it) here is your luggage

Amanda: oh thank you how much do I owe you?

Cab driver: police get discounts

Amanda: here (she gave the cab driver $50 dollars and grabbed her luggage) keep it

Cab driver: gee thanks darling um the squad room is o floor 4 have a nice day

Amanda: thank you Josie and you have a nice day too Josie (she smiled and walked up the steps and opened the door. She opened it and she walked to the elevator and pressed the button to go up the doors finally opened Amanda stepped in with her suitcases on each side she pressed the button to the 4th floor she leaned against the wall behind her and waited until the doors opened again finally they did Amanda walked until she walked into the squad room an officer walked to her.

Officer: hello Ma'am how may I help you today

Amanda: hello I am here to see Captain Cragen please

Officer: what was your name ma'am

Amanda: Amanda Rollins

Officer: I will go get him for you take a seat

Amanda: thank you very much

While the officer walked to Captain Cragen's office Amanda sat down and waited finally after a minute Captain Cragen and the officer came out. Amanda stood up and turned the officer.

Amanda: thank you very much officer

Officer: that's alright Ma'am

Amanda turned back to the man that was standing next to her

Amanda: hello I'm Amanda Rollins

Captain Cragen: I'm Donald Cragen nice to meet you

Amanda shook his hand and looked at him and smiled

Captain Cragen: shall we Miss Rollins

Amanda nodded her head and followed Captain Cragen to his office and put her suitcases somewhere he wouldn't trip over them or anybody else she took a seat in front of Captain Cragen he took a pen and paper out so he could write things down once that was done he looked at Amanda.

Captain Cragen: is it okay to ask you a couple questions so I can make a profile for you

Amanda: not at all Captain

Captain Cragen: what is your date of birth

Amanda: 24th of December

Captain: why did you want to work with SVU

Amanda: something happened to me on the job

Captain Cragen: could you tell me about it so I know later on

Amanda: okay well I was working for the APD which you may already know (Captain Cragen nodded his head) I was out at a conference one night and my old Chief asked me to go have a couple drinks with him so I did and he dropped me back to my hotel room and when I went inside he pushed his way in and locked the door, I told him to get out but he told me I was beautiful and that I wanted it so he pushed me on the bed and ripped my clothes off he bit me, slapped me and banged my head against the head board I tried to make him stop but he said "Amanda you know I don't take no for an answer" then he chocked me and I blacked out then he raped me while I was unconscious and I made it seem like everything was okay until the whole department was coming at me with comments and touching me so I knew I had to get out after 7 years so I came here to hopefully have a better chance at life

Captain Cragen: I'm so sorry Detective Rollins I had heard about Charles Patton and his reputation he went to court for another rape but got off because he got bail by his wife

Amanda: yea Vivian Patton she is a real piece of work

Captain Cragen: I've also heard about her

Amanda: she does mean well so

Captain Cragen: did you need a minute?

Amanda: no lets keep going

Captain Cragen: when did you start working in the force

Amanda: when I was 24 I started at the academy like everyone else then after a year when I was 25 I was officially a detective

Captain Cragen: okay have you got issues like gambling drinking drugs

Amanda: I have a gambling debt I have already paid it off

Captain Cragen: I used to drink and I mean drink every time I finished my shift here at SVU I used to go to the bar and drink until I was super drunk I had a couple on the job too and my Captain got me to go to rehab I agreed I have been sober for 20 years now

Amanda: that is really good

Captain Cragen: it is

Amanda: I also have a degree in forensic science and information technology so if you ever need help other than TARU I can help

Captain Cragen: that is really good

Amanda: and I have also been going to Gamblers anonymous for 6 months now

Captain Cragen: keeping up with the dates and everything

Amanda: yes Captain

Captain Cragen: leave it to me I will find you one

Amanda: thank you very much

Captain Cragen: so I have all the information I need when do you want to start?

Amanda: I have the job?

Captain Cragen: yes you have the job we need people like you smart and honest that is the type of person I want in my squad

Amanda: I am so grateful you will not be sorry Captain I will prove to you I will the best Detective I promise you

Captain Cragen: I know you will we have a case that involved a 17 year old girl her name is Rosemary Delaney we need to get her statement but first let me introduce you to your co-workers

Amanda got the job and we found out the reason why she wanted to move to New York. The next Chapter will involve Amanda meeting the new co workers and getting to know a particular one stay tuned for chapter 2.