You're beautiful silver hair is now a ugly red color, your pale skin is getting colder and your eyes are losing there life, but yet you still try to hold on a little longer, I can't understand why though, why hold on for me? I know you're dying riku.

Just let go, you'll stop suffering when you do, I'll be fine, really I will be, it'll be different without my best friend that's like a brother to me, but I can move on, I can live happily like you want me to, I'll even tell my crush how I feel, I'll get up every morning and go to school, I'll have straight As, so stop worrying about me and let go, I'll see you again somebody, maybe even tomorrow, so just let all of us go, you're family, you're friends, none of it matters now, all that matters is you, stop putting yourself through this pain, there's no reason for you to hold on anymore okay? I love you, I'll miss you, we all will.

So just go to sleep now, just close your eyes, yeah just like that, this ache in my heart will stop someday, I can put myself back together, No no! Don't cry, your going to somewhere so much better than here, so smile. Yeah just like that!

I watch as you close your eyes and take your final breath before I break down and cry, it hurts riku. My heart feels like its being crushed into a million pieces.

I'm powerless and helpless, I can't stop it I just have to let it keep going and going until one day it starts to heal, but tell me riku, how do you heal from this pain? How can I just turn around from your body and leave it here for the bugs? I can't I really can't, I'm sorry that I lied to you but I'm really not going to be okay!

Who's going to wake me up and help me in school now? Who's going to listen to my problems and make me want to be better? Who's going to be there to congratulate me when I tell my crush how I feel? Who's going to be there to pat my back when I get married? Who's going to babysit my kids and teach them horribly great things? Who's going to give me great advice and make me feel better when I'm sad?

No one riku, your the only one that understood me perfectly, you're the only one that would listen to my problems, you're the only one that stood by me in school and helped, you're the only one that protected me from my bullies, you're the only one that pushed me to be better.

So for you, I will move on, I will save everyone against the darkness, and I will continue living, I'll try to be happy, and one day when it's all over I'll see you again, and on that day, we'll act like none of this ever happened.