Jet Pack Blues
Author's Note: Here it is, my first angst published. I almost cried while writing this. Almost, because crying over your own fic is weird.I have two questions by the end of this story, don't laugh at me ;_; I higly recommend that you listen to Jet Pack Blues by the ever amazing Fall Out Boy.
Normal text-current time
Italic- Flashback and thoughts
Bold- emphasis
Between lines- the lyrics to the song
That is all.
Disclaimer: Anyway, I still don't own KnB. Plus this song is FOB's.
The rain poured relentlessly outside, pounding on the glass of his windshield. His thoughts were in disarray as tears kept trickling down porcelain cheeks, blurring his already blood-shot eyes.
He held back a sob, removing one hand from the steering wheel and covering his trembling lips with his sweaty palms.
'How much of an idiot can I be,?' he stared straight ahead, trying to pay attention to the incredibly foggy road in front of him. Beneath the gnarled trees and an impending storm he was aware about surely was the right place and time to find his piece of mind.
Inhaling shakily, he reached for the long forgotten radio and let the station he had came upon play its music, hoping that it would somehow make the painful throbbing in his head alleviate.
I got those Jet Pack Blues
Just Like Judy
The kind that make June feel like September
I'm the last one that you'll ever remember
And I'm trying to find my piece of mind
Behind these two white high way lines
When the city goes silent
The ringing in my ear gets violent
'You knew it all along you idiot, you knew this would happen,' he heard his conscience say.
He smiled bitterly at that.
'I know'
He brushed away some of his light-blue hair which strayed away and got wet with tears. More tears start to well up in his eyes, as the song seem to struck something from the back of his mind, causing it to resurface.
It was the somewhere between the vernal and estival season. The certain transitional period left a lot of cherry blossom give life to the lonely streets of Tokyo and sun shaded the once blue skies with varying hues of pink and orange, somewhat giving off a feel of comfort and drowsiness. Under the infinite stretch of colors, two personas of red and blue found themselves entranced with the unusually enchanting sunset.
"Tetsuya.." that all too loving gaze strung his heart strings, effectively rendering him unable to speak.
"I know you haven't got the slightest clue about this matter, but I'd have been keeping my eyes on you for quite some time now," the red head continued, taking in the blunette's surprised expression with slight amusement.
Although still donning that mask of indifference, one could definitely tell that Kuroko Tetsuya was all but that. He considered the fact that the captain might have just been carried away by the fleeting moment and was about to say what was on his mind, when he felt something warm envelop him.
"Stay with me..."
He stepped on the gas, fueled by the long forgotten memory. He was laughing to himself as the car accelerated to a speed it should never have, neglecting his own safety. After rolling down the windows, he felt a chill run down his spine as droplets of rain start to drench his already wet clothes. Tears and water fell with different phases but both just kept on falling.
'I knew ... I knew and yet...'
His frenzy got hindered by the red light flashing above him, making him glare even more. He slumped against the steering wheel, putting his head on top of it with a little more force necessary as more thoughts pranced inside his mind.
Don't you remember how we used to split a drink?
It never mattered what it was
I think our heads were just that close
The sweetness never lasts, you know
Lightly widened eyes took in the sight in front of him, never leaving the smirk that was behind the object that mostly took the scene that was there. Forgetting the book that was halfway done in his hand, Kuroko initiated the conversation.
"You sure know how to stop me at my tracks, Akashi-kun," he smiled a miniscule smile, which was as wide as his face could allow. He took the fully bloomed flowers being shoved in his direction by a rather assertive hand.
"Tetsuya, of course I do, we've been going out for four years after all," Akashi said in a matter-of-fact tone, as his gaze softened at the teal head's deep eyes. Never leaving the bewitchingly beautiful eyes of the other, they shared their warmth through their hands, holds tightening in every second that passed.
"I never knew Akashi-kun was a romantic," the blunette said with a very rare light chuckle. This unusual gesture was then repaid with a more rare one. A gentle kiss. A single chaste kiss which seemed to convey everything that's had to be said.
"There are a lot of things you don't know about me Tetsuya," the redhead said as he smirked and held the other in a tight embrace, which caused the other to blush. ",one thing and the only thing you need to know though, is that you're gonna spend the rest of your life forever with me," he continued as he held up a simple yet aggravatingly expensive silver ring.
A single tear of happiness slid down Kuroko's face and Akashi didn't fail in wiping it away as he gently slid the ring unto the other's finger, already aware of his answer.
He tried to calm himself. Hell, he would do anything to get rid of all of these thoughts right now. As another tear made its way pass his cheek and down to his chest, his cellphone flashed red led, notifying its dangerously low life. The two sets of eyes in the wallpaper was flashed in a second then gone the next. He diverted his attention to the stop lights above him, staring at the scintillating color that gave him goosebumps.
When the lights went green, he instantly sped off. More trees seemed to cover the gloomy road and the fog was getting thicker too. Thunder rumbled and then a blinding light came flashed through the night skies, reflecting Kuroko's almost lifeless eyes in his rear-view mirrors, the sides of his mouth twitching a tad bit upward.
She's in a long black coat tonight
Waiting for me in the downpour outside
She's singing "Baby, come home" in a melody of tears
While the rhythm of the rain keeps time
And I remember "Baby, come home"
I remember "Baby, come home"
I remember "Baby, come home"
I remember "Baby, come home"
Another chill crept up his spine as a gust of the cold winter winds went by. The grayish skies started scattering intricately detailed snowflakes of varying beauty. Kuroko held out his hand, catching one. The blunette smiled sadly at this.
He was alone today. Scratch that. He has been alone for quite sometime now.
"This weather is cold, but not as cold as you,"
"My body trembles in this low temperature, but this is nothing compared to how much I trembled when you said those words,"
"My body lost all it's warmth and left me shivering, but I'd rather be here than in that freezing place where you left me,"
"Where are you? I can't remember your touch anymore, do you know that?"
Kuroko choked back tears.
"Did you know how I felt when you canceled our wedding out of the blue? Or When you turned treated me like a stranger afterwards?"
He felt the snow thicken under his feet and walked towards their-his apartment.
"Come home, Akashi-kun,"
His tires screeched as he abruptly turned a corner. He hit his horn with all his might, the deafening sound resounding. He tightly clenched his heart through his drenched shirt, sobbing uncontrollably. Everything be damned, he couldn't contain any of these overflowing emotions anymore.
'Why.."
'WHY?!"
Did you ever love her? Do you know?
Or did you never want to be alone?
And she was singing "Baby, come home"
I remember "Baby, come home"
Saying that he begged was an understatement, he couldn't believe it himself.
He held the sleeves of his shirt tighter, forcing the other to turn around, but the other didn't budge. He went down on his knees and cried the other's name.
"Akashi-kun, please! Tell me!"
"Tell you what, Tetsuya?! How many times do I have to repeat myself?!"
Akashi shrugged of the other's prying hands off of his sleeves and turned around abruptly, his eyes dangerously glinting with an unreadable emotion under the low light of the park they were in.
Kuroko attempted to cover his ears but was harshly stopped by Akashi's hands, he shook uncontrollably.
'No, I don't want to hear it again! It's not true!'
Eye to eye, Akashi slowly spoke.
"I don't love you anymore,"
Kuroko held his hand over his heart, hoping that it would somehow ease the pain he felt there, but to no avail. The memory seemed to crush him further, finally managing to cut that thread of hope, That thread of hope that connected him to the only man he ever loved.
The song ended like that but what came after it ended him.
Akashi Seijuro-sama of the well-known Akashi group has now announced his engagement to the marvelous Furihata Kouki-san of Seirin corporation. May they find happiness and live a long life together.
Of course he was aware of this, but that didn't stop the new wave of tears that surfaced then and there. He just parked his car and inhaled sharply. His shaky breath being muffled by his equally shaking hands.
He wailed.
He sobbed.
He reminisced.
'You know Akashi kun?' of course silence was there to answer him.
'I loved you so much..'
'I loved you so..so much..'
'I loved you so.. excruciatingly much..'
'So much that it hurts..'
'So much that I'd never let go of you..'
'Please, come back home...'
A/N: Well, shit.
Aww..
Please review, should I make Akashi's Point of view?
How do you create thicker lines? TT_TT. Don't laugh please TT_TT...
