Oh good God, not another one. Myths aren't supposed to be real, you know. Why do I have to be the only one not to imprint? Now it's just me and Jacob, although he's madly in love anyway. My own brother, my younger brother has left me. Once again I hated the fact that nothing in our lives was private, every moment I lived as this thing, in this form was playing in the minds of my pack. And now I was seeing whoever my brother had just fallen in love with.

I hated having to see this; I was the only one left now who didn't have anyone. The day Sam left me I was devastated. I stayed in the confinement of my four bedroom walls for days. Being alone felt strange and alien as Sam had always been by my side. Even though I longed for company I couldn't bare to face the world. See happiness, it made the pain deepen seeing others happy when I had to suffer like this.

When I became a wolf too it became so much harder. Everyone knows that I'm not over Sam, but I try to not make it hard for him. He shouldn't have to suffer like I did, he didn't ask to be cursed. No one did. No matter how positive I tried to be I couldn't find anything worth while about my new life. Every time I phase all I can see, all I can feel is their love. It is excruciating.

I need to get away. I need to be free. I can't take this any more. Sam Ulley, get out of my head. I pierced my skin against the sharp branches as I slowed my pace and allowed the anger to radiate from me. In order to change back I had to be calm. Letting go of all of the hate, all of the suffering I let my body soothe and soon I was me again. My same, hollow self.