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A/N: Stumbled on this prompt online "Harry/Ginny: Dark!Ginny. Her experience in First Year has changed Ginny forever." and even though it's not really my cup of tea, it sounded really interesting. So, here's what I got! I hope you like it. :D XOXO usiy


Our relationship is strange. We have both been touched by Voldemort, both been penetrated in the deepest, most intimate way. Ginny's a great girl, really, but she's so hurt. She won't trust me. She's paranoid, and locks herself in our room for bloody hours. She's always looking out the window, checking the yard, making sure he's not there. On our wedding day, she kept looking over my shoulder, looking for him.

He raped her. She's never said it, or even acknowledged her experience in her first year, but I know. When I'm making love to her, she's caught up in a fantasy world where things are okay. Where he didn't hurt her. And I don't blame her. Merlin knows, I understand. But, it's hard. I love her, so I stay. I love her, so I try to help. But, yesterday, I saw her kill a rabbit. She crucio'd it to death. She didn't know I was watching.

I think she's going mad. And I think she knows she is. She's not trying to hold on, and that's what scares me. She burns herself, sometimes, or cuts her legs. She has scars from when he captured her, a few months before the Final Battle. I know she's been hurt. I know that her pain will never go away, but she won't let me help her. She can't let him go.

She calls him Tom. She talks in her sleep, and she begs him to go away, to go away Tom I'm strong don't touch me I'll hurt you please please no not again Tom I promise I'll be better Tom forgive me. I don't know how to help her. She flinches if I try to touch her hair, or her face and honestly, it hurts. She doesn't trust me, she's always looking for evidence that I'm a secret Death Eater, or him in polyjuice. She's irrational and jumpy and paranoid and just bleeding mad.

But now, she's standing over me with her wand to my chest and I'm not sure what's happening. She says she's finally caught me, that her Harry is long dead, that I've been touching her ever night sick bastard and that she's going to kill me and she's going to enjoy it and

The pain is unbearable. I'm writhing and trying to do anything but feel. She's ripping me apart why is she doing this I don't understand and it's over. I can't breath, but she's done I think but then it starts up again and I'm shouting and begging her to stop it's me Harry please believe me she long gone and I'm floating away and she crying and everything's fading to black and those little words slip out of her mouth.

Avada Kedavra.


Okay, I know this reads really strangely, and they're a lot of run on sentences, but I wanted it to sound like Harry's mind, like his train of thought. Thanks, and please review!