Hello! This is my first fanfiction here! A Nalu one. Natsu and Lucy from Fairy Tail.

Hope you enjoy it.

It had gone 3 months now. 3 months since Lucy died.

The dragon slayer barley talked anymore. He would walk into the guild, sit for a few hours on a bench before leaving. He didn't talk while he was there he just sat. His pink hair was even messier than usual and he had bags under his eyes. According to Happy he hadn't slept much and judging by his looks he probably hadn't eaten much either. The guild was worried for him. Of course they were all sad about her tragic death but it was like Natsu died the same day she did.

Happy had never seen Natsu like this. He used to be so positive. Why is he acting like this? Happy thought. We are all sad about Lucy, you're acting selfish. It made Happy want to be mad at Natsu like Gajeel and Gray was. Yelling at him telling him to pull himself together but Natsu only ignored them. He would turn around and walk back home. So why would it make a difference if he would be the one yelling at Natsu? He had tried being comforting towards Natsu but so far Natsu would just give Happy a faint smile and pat him on the back. It made no difference what Happy said, but, Happy wanted to keep trying.

Erza approached Natsu. She put her hand on his back and started to pat him on the back, hard. It hurt, of course it did. It was Erza but Natsu didn't move. It was like he didn't feel it. Erza smiled.

''Want to go on an adventure?'' Erza said smiling brightly ''It could cheer you up.'' She sat down on the bench next to him, putting her sword on the table. Natsu sighed and turned as if to face her but instead turned his face to watch the sword.

''I'm okay. I'll pass.'' He said

''A big reward is-''

''I don't want to go Erza.'' He said a bit louder still not looking at her. Gray came up to the table and sat down in front of them.

''Hey stop acting like a child flame brain.'' Gray said looking irritated. Natsu stood up and started walking away.

''Hey! Where are you going, don't ignore me!'' Gray yelled after him. Natsu continued walking towards the door, ignoring Gray. Master Makarov suddenly stood in front of Natsu, using his powers to stop Natsu from leaving the guild.

''It know it's hard. You lost a best friend and she is not coming home and it hurts. I understand but you can't go on like this Natsu. You can't give up on life, on us, like this. You need to forget about Lucy. We are here for you. We are a guild. A family. We all cared for Lucy. So, let us help you. '' The master said.

''No you don't understand.''

''Huh?'' The guild said confused. They all stared at Natsu. What was he saying? Of course they understood!

''No you don't understand. You don't fucking get it! You have no fucking idea of how I feel!'' They all stood still in shock. Natsu started flaming up. He was furious.

''You're acting like an idiot! She was our team mate! We are all sad!'' Gray shouted. Juvia took hold of Gray's hand. He faced her and she gave him a look of support. He smiled and held her hand tightly.

''She was my best friend!'' Levy shouted at Natsu. Levy felt her cheek getting wet. Was she crying? She was. She hadn't even realized. She dried them off with her sleeve.

''She died in my arms. She scarified herself for, me! I hate myself for it. Every day I wake up and remember how she looked at me before closing her eyes for the last time. I made her go to that dumb mission and it will always be my fault that she died!'' Makarov moved to let Natsu pass and he did. He walked out of the guild. Without looking back he went home.

He unlocked the door and slammed it open. He closed it and fell to the ground. How pathetic he thought he was. What has happened to me? I just want her back. I want her sent near me. I want her close. I need her. Lucy. You can't leave like this. He cursed. Behind him the door opened. He didn't move. It was probably Happy. He didn't care anyways. Then he heard a familiar voice. It was soft and gentle.

''N-Natsu?''