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Chapter One - The First Crush



1/28

Dear Diary,

I can't believe it! I am such a horrible person! I Hikari "angel of light" (yea rite) like my friend Mimi's boyfriend Koushiro. Ohh just thinking about him sends shivers up my spine. Why of all people did I have to fall in love with him? I know I shouldn't be thinking of things like this but I find myself hoping they break up so I can ask him out. I am a horrible friend. I have decided to stop thinking about him and if they do break up I will not ask him out. Although- if he asks me out I won't say no, it's not my fault if he likes me. So anyway Taichi was trying to find out who I like so he could beat him up. If he ever sees this he'll know. Ugh. I hope he doesn't see this.

1/30

Dear Diary,

Mimi broke up with Koushiro. It turns out that she has liked my brother, Tai, all along. =D!!! YAY! I asked her if she minded that I liked him. Koushiro of course, not my brother. Our family doesn't believe in incest. She said she doesn't care because she figures that Tai and she will be together forever. HAH! Fat chance but she can dream if she wants. Tai hasn't had a girlfriend last over two weeks! But just as long as she isn't in love with Koushiro I'm happy! But one little problem- does Koushiro like me? O no! I have not thought far into my plan. He always used to flirt with me, but it was always in a 'she's a cute little kid' kinda way. POOPY!!!

2/1

Dear Diary,

Valentines Day is approaching! Only two more weeks until the school dance! I hope Koushi asks me! He was over yesterday and he and Taichi were arguing about something, but I couldn't hear what they were arguing about. DAMN THEM! Koushiro seemed to be avoiding me after him and Tai argued. He left early. At lunch Yamato sat with me. We were having fun and talking about who knows what but we were having a lot of fun. It was the brotherly kind of fun. Yamato is really hot. Hmmm.. Wonder why I never realized that before. Whatever. I like Koushiro!!!!!





2/10

I'm so sad! Koushiro hasn't asked me to the dance yet. I thought for sure that he would have asked me by now. I guess that he doesn't like me. There's still some time before the dance but he hasn't even talked to me. Is there something wrong with me? Do I smell? O I dunno what to do. Yamato saw that I was upset so he asked me what was wrong. I told him the story about my crush on Koushiro that has lasted about 3 years. Heh heh. didn't mention that before did I? Well now you know diary. It's not like you're gonna tell anyone. It's not like this will be posted on fanfiction.net for anyone who wants to read it! (A/N Sorry couldn't help it.. Just ignore that last sentence) He told me not to worry. He said maybe Koushiro wasn't the right guy for me anyway. I guess that's its possible that he's right but my three year crush couldn't have been for nothing could it? Who is the right guy for me anyway, that is, if it isn't Koushiro? Have I even met him yet? Will I ever meet him? Oh man all these questions have been racking my brain for two hours. It's 1 a.m. now. Time for me to go to sleep.

2/13

Dear Diary,

I think I'm gonna die! Koushiro asked Sora to the dance! WHY?! Why did he have to ask her. That so not fair. I have liked him for much longer than she has and she knows it. She's just going out with him because she is trying to make Taichi jealous. She doesn't even like Koushiro more than a friend. Well now me and Yamato are the only ones who aren't going with someone. Mimi and Tai are going with each other. Sora and Koushiro are going together. Jyou is at medical school. Takeru is going with a new girl in the school. I won't even get to hang out that much with Yama cuz his band is playing at the dance. Why me? I'm gonna look like a loner. My other friends are going to be making out with their boyfriends all night. Sora and Koushiro won't be making out because they just got together, but I don't want to be around them. It will hurt too much. Hopefully Mimi and Tai won't hook up while I'm trying to talk to them. Damn it, damn it, damn it! I love dances usually but this one is going to suck ass! On the bright side! I have this kick ass outfit I'm going to wear to the dance. My school clothes for Valentines Day are a little morbid though. Valentines Day isn't exactly my favorite holiday. Nothing but bad luck on V-day for me. Koushiro has crushed my heart into a million little pieces on this Valentines Day, and Valentines Day hasn't even started yet. I don't even want to think about what tomorrow will be like. Well tomorrow is the dance. I have to get my beauty sleep so I at least look decent tomorrow. Well I'll write after I get home from the dance tomorrow. Oh yea. I think I'm starting to fall in love with Matt now. I'll write tomorrow.



OK well that's the first chapter. Sorry it's not so great. Please give me some suggestions. If you like it I'll post the next chapter sooner. If you don't I'll post it anyway cuz I like it. =P Ummm btw this is my first fic.. My fics will get better with time and suggestions. PEACE!