Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight *sigh* saying that is depressing
WARNING EVENTS IN THIS STORY ARE NOT THE SAME AS IN THE BOOK!!!
Suffer with me through this chapter please this story is not all e-mails I promise.
Your brother left me and now i'm broken.
I get up in the mornings and do what I am supposed to do so I don't scare Charlie, but the pain is unbearable.
Day 1
Alice, it hurts to type your name and I'm cring now.
Your brother isn't the only one who hurt me, and you didn't even say goodbye.
I hope you still have this e-mail and I'm not talking to a random stranger addicted to the computer.
I understand if you don't answer me, but why did you leave me?
Day 2
Alice, it is the third day since i started e-mailing yu and started leaving my nearly piontless life.
there is a giant hole in my chest and it hursts like nothing I've ever expirenced before.
You all did this to me, why?
Alice it has been four days since i started e-mailing you.
I went to the movies with Jessica and it was horrible.
I miss you I want my best friend back.
Are you there?
Alice, I still can't think of you without crying it has been five days and it's only getting worse.
I am not mad at you but why did you leave?
Does HE know about the e-mails(A/N HE=Edward)
Alice, I laughed for the first time in months.
I went to Jacob Blakes house the boy who told me about you guys.
He is just a friend but he helped with the pain for the day but it came back.
Day 6
Alice, it has been seven days.
I miss you and I miss Esme she is like my mother and I love
her she hurt me when ya'll left will you tell her for me?
Alice tonight I figuered somthing out it sounds crazy maybey it is
but when I do somthing reckless or stupid I can hear his voice perfectly.
Day 9
Alice, I still cry when I think about ya'll.
The hullusionations of HIM are fading.
The motorcycles aren't working anymore and I'm falling apart.
Day 10
About two months later
Alice, it has been nearly two mounths.
Jacob left me.
There was a pain in my chest that felt like
i was falling apart, but now there is another.
I keep telling myself that it is not as bad as when all of you left
me but it is bad enough.
Alice it is now the two month mark.
Jacob left and is now part of A gang in La Push led by Sam Uley.
The thing is Jake was afraid fo them before.
Sam says Jacob can't be my friend.
I need some guidence from you will you help me?
Alice, it has been two months and 0ne day.
Jacob snuck into my room early this monring tp apoligize.
I figured somthing out, jacobs a werewolf.
It wasn't much of a shock when I found out what all of you were because I knew htere was somthing different about ya'll,
nut Jacob was just my normal HUMAN friend.
Are all of my friends not so mythical creature?
Mabey Angela is a wich?
Alice it has been two months and two days since I started e-mailing you.
Maybey you won't responed maybey you will.
Maybey I am talking to some random person who proboably by now thinks I'm crazy.
Maybey I am.
Alice Victoria is back she keeos trying to get to me but the pack won't let her.
Alice I know I've asked this before but why did you leave?
Why didn't you say goodbye?
Why haven't you responded?
Alice, I'm lonely and depressed.
Sure I have Jacob and the rest of the pack, but there not hte ones I really want to be with.
Alice I want my family back.
I still cry when I think about you ya know.
Alice, I miss you terribly.
Can you tell Jasper I'm not mad at him at all, that he is still my brother if he wants to be?
Can you tell Emmett I miss my big teddy bear brother that has no common sense,
doesn't understand sarcasam, and always finds away to make me blush?
Can you tell Rosalie htat I mass her that in a way I looked up to her?
She was like a sister to me.
Alice, can you tell him that even though he said he didn't love me anymore that he always has my heart,
and no matter what he thinks he has a soul, and that I hope he finds someone he wants to be with forever?
Alice, my life has officialy fell apart.
I'm freaking out Alice!
I was at Billy Blacks house when he got a phone call.
Victoria got htrough the pack and... Jacob he. he got killed.
When I heard the news I rushed home ( I was crying and you know how fast my car goes) but I was to late.
Victoria had already left my house, but Charlie was, he was killed Alice,Victoria killed him.
What do I do now Alice?
What do I do?
Alice, Renee and Phil were in a car crash.
They didn't make it.
Alice I am completely lost now.
My blood relatives are gone.
My family left me my last friend is gone.
I don't like being alone.
Alice what if Victoia comes back for me what would I do?
Alice can't you all come back and help me?
Alice it has been two months and six days.
Today is Charlie's funneral and tommarow is Jake's, and the next day is Renee and Phil's.
Since I'm officialy an adult I can live by myself and Charlie lieft me the house,
but I don't know of I want to stay here alone with all the memories of the people I lost.
Why can't all of you come back and help me?
I want my best friend back, I want my sisters back, I want my mom and dad back, and I want my brothers back.
Can't ya'll come and wake me from this nightmare?
I still cry when I think of you, I've been crying a lot lately.
Please won't all of you come help me I'm a complete mess with no one left to turn to?
Alice, it has been twom mmonths and seven days.
The reason I'm still living is based on the fact that ya'll are still out there and small hope that ya'll will come help me.
Maybey I should give up.
Should I give up Alice, Mabey all of you won't come?
I will wait a month at the most but I don't know how much more I can take of this.
Alice, it has been two months and eight days, and I'm still waiting to see if all of you come hut i don't htink i can wait a whole month.
It would be easy.
Take a knife to my wrist, take a whole bottle of pills, or even tightly tie a bag over my head.
Just like that all of this wouls be over.
Every night i have to fight to go to sleep.
the only thing that keeps me from doing one of those things is the thought that ya'll might be coming.
Alice, are ya'll coming?
