Title: Sometimes

Rating: T

Warnings: None

Pairing: Kyoya x Tamaki

Description: Sometimes I wonder why he loves me. Sometimes I wonder why I let myself love him back.

Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran Highschool Host Club, nor do I own its characters.

Dedicated to: RephaimStevieRae. If it weren't for the amazing story Because He's Hikaru, I never would have gotten the idea to make all of my sentences start the same way.

A/N: I wrote this over the past week or so during my spare time in class. Hope you enjoy it.

Sometimes I wonder why I first met him.

Sometimes I wonder if my father really wanted to use me to make a business connection.

Sometimes I wonder if my father knew he and I would become friends.

Sometimes I wonder if he knew we'd eventually become more than that.

Sometimes I wonder if the reason he made me befriend Tamaki was to test me.

Sometimes I wonder if I've failed that test.

Sometimes I wonder if my father has figured out I'm gay.

Sometimes I wonder if I disappoint him.

Sometimes I wonder if he's disgusted by me.

Sometimes I wonder if I even care what he thinks.

Sometimes I wonder why Tamaki cares so much.

Sometimes I wonder how it's possible for one person to be so perfect.

Sometimes I wonder what makes his hair so shiny.

Sometimes I wonder how he gets his skin so flawless.

Sometimes I wonder why his eyes look so innocent.

Sometimes I wonder if he's an angel.

Sometimes I wonder if there's any other explanation for him being so amazing.

Sometimes I wonder how he is so loving and kind, even considering all he's been through.

Sometimes I wonder why he loves me.

Sometimes I wonder why I let myself love him back.

Sometimes I wonder what society would think if they knew about us.

Sometimes I wonder what the future will be like.

Sometimes I wonder if I will have to let him go.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to do that.

Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I can't.

Sometimes I wonder why we even try to keep our relationship a secret.

Sometimes I wonder why I'd ask myself such a stupid question.

Sometimes I wonder if questions like that even are stupid.

Sometimes I wonder if going public with our relationship is the right thing to do.

Sometimes I wonder how much easier it would be.

Sometimes I wonder if I should ask Tamaki about it.

Sometimes I wonder if he would be okay with risking everything to be with me.

Sometimes I wonder why I have to ask so many questions.

Sometimes I wonder why I can't just let things happen.

Sometimes I wonder what makes me doubt everything.

Sometimes I wonder why I have to second-guess myself so often.

Sometimes I wonder if it's because of how I was raised.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a freak.

Sometimes I wonder how someone like him could fall in love with someone like me.

Sometimes I wonder if it's all a dream.

Sometimes I wonder if Tamaki is just something my mind created to help me get through life.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to wake up one day and he'll be gone.

Sometimes I wonder how much that will break me.

Sometimes I wonder if I have anything figured out.

Sometimes I wonder if I want to have anything figured out.

Sometimes I wonder how one person can own so much of my heart.

Sometimes I wonder if I have the rights to his heart, as he does mine.

Sometimes I look at him, really look.

And sometimes, I find the answers to my questions in his violet eyes.