Alright i know this is a crappy title and I'm not good at summaries. Anyway it's about how Edward left and Jacob doesn't like her now. Bella will meet a dark angel and fall in love with him. But doesn't know if she can accept his way of living.
Bella's POV:
He was gone. I had nothing left. Jake didn't care about me anymore. He was the only one who could help me after Ed-he left. It hurts to still say his name. Charlie has given up on me. I'm drinking a lot sometimes. I go out most nights, and by go out I mean sneak out. Then i head to some club and drink. I'm not bad, I know how much is my limit.
I thought going to his meadow once again would help me. So here i am walking around in the woods. At least i know that the pack won't hurt me. Victoria on the other hand i would welcome. I'd beg for death from her even though it sounds stupid, but not to me. My life has been pretty fucked up ever since he left.
I stumbled into the meadow. His meadow. The last time i was here, Laurent tried to kill me, but the pack got in the way and killed him. It was the same as the last time. All depressed like, no flowers blooming or grass the shade of green.
I fell to my knees crying. He didn't care. No one did. It's all his fucking fault! If he hadn't left me, if he had simply took me with him everything wouldn't have gotten to this point! I miss them. All of them. I never blamed Jasper for the night of my birthday. If i ever saw them again I would forgive everyone, but i don't know if i could forgive him for putting me through this.
I slowly got up, not expecting to see anyone else in the clearing, but i did. It was only for a minute though
The person was dressed in a black cloak, the cloak was covering the persons face with a hood. Why would someone be here? In the middle of the woods? Oh wait here I am doing the same thing.
I got up and started walking out of the woods. I tripped a few times, but no blood. I felt like someone was following me though. It felt creeper. I wanted to scream show yourself! But was too afraid.
I got to my truck and felt like I was still being followed. I turned around, but there was no one there. I sighed and thought, I'm losing it.
I opened my truck door and climbed in. I put the key in the ignition and drove off. My favorite song came on just then. It was called Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace. I started singing to it.
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see
The darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become!
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, This animal)
I can't escape myself
So many times I've lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
I stopped singing when I almost hit a deer. I swerved and came to a abrupt stop. Oh god. I yelled in panic, "Holy shit!"
The deer moved out of my way a few minutes later. Damn deer! It could have killed me! Oh god now I'm stupid! My one chance at dying and I blow it! I mentally slapped myself over and over as I drove back home, this time nothing came close to killing me.
I went inside my house, not noticing Charlie and went to my room. I laid down on the bed. Why can't I just die? I have nothing to live for! I slowly fell asleep dreaming about the day he left.
Hey my first story on here. Please review! :D
