AUTHORS NOTE:

Okay so this is my first fanfic so be nice please. It will start in the present time but then the first couple of chapters will be a flashback, possibly the whole story will be a flashback. I don't know, I guess we'll see. Anyway let me know what you think and if I should continue.

Summary:

Derek proposed and Meredith ran. Will he go after her or will he let he go forever?

Meredith couldn't remember the last time she had been in that room. In that house. Or even in that city. But she was back. She was back in Seattle and she was here to stay. Meghan was pulling on her pant leg and whinning that she was hungry, but Meredith was mesmerized.

On second thought she did remember the last time that she was in that room. She was getting ready for a thirty hour shift at the hospital and Derek was sitting in the bed. He had divorced Addison just two months ago and they were dating now. It was going pretty good.

"Hey Mer?"

"Yeah, Dr. Shepherd?" She replied with smirk on her face.

"Did you ever think about your wedding when you were a kid?" He asked. He had a hint of nervous in his voice, Meredith realized now, thinking back to that day.

"Umm, not really. I guess I was just really focused on trying to make my mom proud. I didn't really have any boyfriends so I didn't really think about it. Why are you asking?"

"Well,…" He started walking over to the door of the bathroom where Meredith was fixing her hair. He got to the door and knelt on one knee by her feet. "I wanted to ask you something. I love you Mer. In a huge, let you pick the movie, eat the last piece of cheesecake, buy you a puppy if you want one, let you do the brain surgery way. And I could not live my life with out you. So now I'm going to ask you the one question that I have wanted to ask you since I met you. Meredith, Will you marry me?" He looked so hopeful.

Meredith was shocked. She hadn't expected this for a looong time. She wanted to get settled and take things slow. She wasn't ready for marriage. When she heard that question she freaked. "Ummmmmm, I am going to be late and Bailey is going to kill me." She said while running out the door, down the stairs and to her car. She got in and drove off. She looked back at the driveway and saw Derek standing there with a shocked look on his face. She felt horrible but she was not ready for this. She picked up her phone and called Izzie's cell, praying that she would pick up.

"Hey Mer!" Izzie answered.

"Izzie! I need you to get Derek out of the house for a couple of hours this afternoon."

"Why do you need him out of the house?"

"Can you just do this for me Iz? Make a really big grocery list, put as many things as you can on it and give it to him around two o'clock. Make sure the list is long enough to keep him at the store for at least an hour. Also, don't let him leave the house until then. Okay?"

Izzie could hear the urgency in Meredith's voice so she agreed and hung up to go and find Derek and something to keep him busy.

Meredith arrived at the hospital and headed straight to the chief's office. "Dr. Webber, I need a transfer. I need to get out of this state and hopefully out of this part of the country. I would never ask you for something like this unless it was really important to me. So, please do this for me and don't ask any questions. Please Dr. Webber, Please."

Dr. Webber gave her a very odd look and saw the panic on her face. "Okay Meredith. Do you have any opinion on where you go?"

"Not really, just somewhere that Derek can't find me and preferably with a good nursing home that I can move my mom to?"

"Okay Meredith, go check in with Bailey and then come back here. I think I have an idea and I bet I can get you out of here by tonight. Go find Bailey and tell her that you are leaving then clear out you locker. Come straight back here. I wouldn't recommend talking to anyone else unless you want this all over the hospital though."

"Thank you Dr. Webber. I will be right back. Thank you again."

Meredith rushed out of the room to find Dr. Bailey, while Dr. Webber picked up the phone and started dialing a number. Meredith found Bailey and told her the story. Bailey was dissapointed that she was leaving but didn't ask any questions when Mer said that she had to get away from Derek.

AN:

Thankyou for reading. Now, please review and let me know if I should keep on going. It will be MerDer eventually.