Ok this is my first fanfic, so any comments, suggestions are welcome. Please read and let me know what you think

I don't own anything Twilight. All of it does to Stephanie Meyer

Ok here goes...

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I hate humans.

I fucking detest school. The smell of this amount of filthy teenagers makes me want to gag. I balance my tray of food on one hand and shove a can of soda into my pocket. I make my way through the overcrowded cafeteria as my eyes scout for the only table I would sit at in this pit hole. I spot the blonde mop of my best friend and throw myself into the chair he had already pushed out for me, so I would sit opposite him. He sipped gently on the straw of some fruity shit as he eyes my lunch.

"Geez Ed, you storing up for the winter or something?" A smirk crossed his face as I shot him an evil look anyone else would have shuddered away from. But Jasper knew I wouldn't lay a finger on him, unless he really deserved that shit.

I looked down at the mountain of food and shrugged. It was only my normal amount, burger, hotdogs, chips and some added coleslaw, got to keep it healthy. Well almost. Jasper hardly ate shit and was a skinny little fucker. I wasn't much better but ate what the hell I wanted.

I swiftly changed the conversation "Where is Pixie?" I asked, whilst picking up the double burger with both hands and taking a bite big enough, you would have thought I hadn't eaten all week, well I had skipped breakfast.

Jasper signed and relaxed back into his chair. "Where is Jess?" He questioned back, eyes raised in a sarcastic manner. I just shrugged. I didn't know and didn't care. I watched his eyes scanned the room as if to look for his girlfriend and return to the previous question, whilst continuously pinching the straw between his lips. "She is showing some new girl around school."

I arched an eyebrow at the news of a new addition to the mass that surrounded us. I hadn't noticed anyone new all day, but I hardly ever took notice of shit around me, especially at school. I only had a few more months to wait, and then this would all be over.

"You see her?" I muffled through my mouthful. Jasper's attention finally came back to me and another smirk filled his face. He knew exactly what I was thinking. I had a reputation around this school that I loved and hated indifferently. A nod was all I got, so I questioned that smug smirk, "What?"

"Nothing." He replied, softly chuckling slightly. "I'm sure she will meet the infamous Edward Cullen soon enough...god help her." His voice was lower for the latter part of his comment, but he knew I still fucking heard him.

"What's that suppose to mean?" A growl escaped unintentionally, but I couldn't hold it back. I gulped down my mouthful and stared across the table. I was use to people gossiping and spreading comments about my antics, but Jasper was the only one I respected.

He shrugged in response. "It's just ... well she is pretty. Alice says she is really nice, smart but still shy and timid. She is innocent Ed, a good one who doesn't deserve to be fucked around." His eyes were full of concern for this girl, and he hadn't even fucking met her yet.

"By me who mean..well I..." But I couldn't finish the sentence. We were both thinking the same thing. My reputation was full of rumours of sleeping around. And so fucking what. The girls around here were all the same. They never said no to the partying. To the drugs. To the sex. And who was I to stop them?

I had been young when I realised how easily I could get my own way. I knew the family secret and used it to my advantage. They could do fuck all till I was eighteen anyways. Once they allowed the partying, the drugs and sexual antics followed. Human behaviour interested them as much as it did me. My family would do anything for me. Since they weren't really my family. I didn't know who the fuck the originals were and personally, didn't care. My mother had put me up for adaptation and I never knew anything about her, and equally she didn't know me. How can you abandon something that has never done anything to you? Never hurt you, who you didn't know, I was an innocent baby for crying out loud. But the only explanation I kept returning to was the idea she had never wanted me. So I wasn't going to waste a moment wanting to know that bitch either. Esme had found me when I was three, and since then I have been a Cullen. I've never asked my real surname, and couldn't give a fuck anyways.

"I just know what you are like with girls..that's all." Jasper's comment pulled me away from my thoughts and my eyes refocused on my best friend. The fruit cartoon now lay empty on the table and he sat forward, his eyes searching my expression "No offence."

I threw some salt covered chips into my mouth to stop the comments that wanted to fall from my mouth. Jasper wasn't so innocent before he had hooked up with Pixie, so he couldn't give me that fucking look that sparked guilt into my chest. I can't remember how old I was the first time I had kissed one of the girls that populated Forks. But it didn't take me long to realise the appeal I had to them. They always did all the work anyways, making it so fucking obvious when they were interested, which they always were. I treated them like shit, but they always let me and even came back for more. But none of them meant anything to me. It was just sex. They were just fucking humans anyways.

See my family weren't exactly human. My adopted parents, Carlisle and Esme were vampires. Not in a Dracula "I want to suck your blood" way. They had adapted to the human world, and didn't feed upon humans. They didn't want to be killers, the monsters that they felt they were. They had another adopted son, Emmett who they had changed whilst he was still young. He couldn't remember anything about his human life. Fucking lucky him. I couldn't wait till my human part was over. But the parentals had been hard with their decision, deciding they wanted to keep me human till I was eighteen. And there was fuck all I could do about it. It wasn't like I could look up vampires in the phonebook and book myself an appointment for transformation. I had tried to tempt Emmett a few times, with the smell of my blood, but he never caved. The closest I ever got was with Rosaline, but had got fucking caught.

So I had to wait. And although the rest of the Cullen's accepted humans. I hated them. Since I had been abandon by one and used by plenty of the female population, why should I give a fuck? I had been raised by vampires and couldn't wait to become one. The mental and physical power and control they had, I couldn't wait till my next birthday, which was sadly still many months away.

The human I could bear to be around was Jasper. He had been my best friend since I could remember, before I found out about the family secret. He treated me like a brother and we were as close as any siblings. He didn't know what would happen in a few months and I didn't know how to handle any of that shit yet.

I finished the burger and gulped down the guilt that been building, along with the processed meat. I always felt fucking guilty when I thought about what I was keeping from Jasper. I just hope he would understand it was for his own good, and safety.

"Just promise she won't become another one of your conquests." My friend huffed as he picked one of my chips and popped it into his mouth. Cheeky little fucker.

"Ok ok!" I held up my hands in protest of innocence and let a small smile curl my lips. "If she is hanging around with Pixie though...I'm bound to run into her." A raised an eyebrow and widen my smile, trying to make a smile appear on the stern face but it never appeared. "But ok..." I huffed and crossed my arms in defence. "I won't do anything Edwardy around her. I'll be good."

"Good." Jasper's shoulders relaxed and he licked the remains of his stolen food from his lips. The conversation swiftly moved on to assignments we both had and the upcoming party Emmett was throwing. I was bound to run into this new distraction and I would have to remember to be on my best behaviour.

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