Just a short series of three one-shots of Dean coming out to Sam, John and Bobby.
This first one is set when Dean is a senior in High School and Sam is a freshman.
I do not own Supernatural, the usual stuff blabla... AND I hope y'all enjoy the story!
1. Coming out to Sam
When Sam came back from school he found Dean lying on the couch in their motel room. He threw his backpack to the floor and joined his brother, sitting down in the armchair next to the couch.
„Hey buddy, how was school today?" Dean asked, not even bothering to look up from the car magazine he was reading.
„It was good, I guess. Dean, can I ask you something?" Sam asked his older brother carefully.
„Sure Sammy, anything." Dean replied. He had no clue what this was about, but he put down his magazine and looked up at his brother.
„Well, I saw you today at school... with that other guy Vince, behind the gym." Sam started.A look of panic spread on Dean's face, this was not what he'd expected. Sam wasn't supposed to find out about anything like this. But Dean had known that this eventually might come up one day and he'd decided the best way to deal with it would be to play it down.
„What you saw was nothing. We were just fooling arround." he explained to his younger brother as coolly as possible. But Sam didn't quite believe him.
„Well it wasn't the first time I saw you together. I've seen you talking to him in the hallway before, and you looked at him the way you usually look at girls you like. So what's going on here?" Sam asked.
Dean sighed and shifted into a sitting position on the couch. „You see, Sammy, this is complicated..." He started, but he wasn't quite sure what to say. He'd hoped that even if Sam found out, he'd never ask this directly. He stared down at his hands for a while before he started speaking again „I really like Vince, but it's complicated." He couldn't think of a better word to describe his situation.
„Yeah, you already said that. So does that mean you're gay now, I thought you liked girls?"
„I do, I like girls, but I guess ...I like guys too." It was heard for Dean to admit this to his little brother. He'd never talked about his sexuality to anyone before and he actually wanted to keep it that way.
„So you're bisexual?"
„I guess, that's what you call it."
Sam was silent for a moment thinking about what his brother had just revealed to him. He didn't think of this as much of a big deal. „Why didn't you tell me before? You never lie to me."
„I didn't actually lie to you, I just didn't tell you the whole truth." Dean tried.
„That's what people who lie always say." Said Sam, disappointment in his voice. Dean was his older brother and he looked up to him. But now he had the feeling like Dean didn't even trust him.
„I'm sorry Sam, I probably shouldn't have kept this a secret from you. It's just that we move into a new city every few month. I go to a new school, meet some nice guy or girl and have a good time, and then we move on to the next city. So at the end of the day it doesn't really matter who I'm with."
„But if it doesn't matter anyways, why do you keep it a secret?"
„Isn't that obvious, Sammy? First of all, we're hunters, we don't bother with feelings or crap. We do our job and save lives, there is no time for romantic and emotional stuff. And secondly, I'm pretty sure dad wouldn't be too happy to hear that one of his little soldiers is actually queer." Dean concluded.
That was in fact the real problem: his father. John would probably kill him if he found out that he liked boys. This wasn't how he was raised. He was raised to be a „real" man, who liked guns, cars, rock'n'roll and women, not to be some queer dude who couldn't make his mind up about wether he preferred dicks or vaginas. No way in hell would it end good if John found out about his sexuality.
„It's okay, I won't tell dad or anyone else. Your secret is safe with me." Sam said. He understood perfectly what it meant not to fit into their father's image of a perfect son, for he hated the hunting life and wanted to go his own way after school. But it wasn't easy to disobey John's future plans for them.
„Thanks Sammy." Dean said with a slight smile. Then he stood up from the couch and made his way over to the fridge. „Dad will probably come back late. Are you hungry?"
So yeah, that was part one. I hope you liked it.
