Disclaimer: I never have owned anything, so I won't now.
Inspired by this amazing and beautiful girl; if you haven't read her free verse poem – which is the reason I wrote this, go read it now. 'Ugly' – it's seriously the best thing I have ever read.
Love you Katie.
~ Hollywood Dream ~
She puts her head in her hands;
Staring at herself in that mirror reflection.
Tears p o u r from her big, brown eyes,
As she thinks to herself, 'when will it all end?'
Her complexion – pale.
Her eyes – lifeless
Her smile – n-o-n-e-x-i-s-t-a-n-t.
Sonny? Nobodyknowswhereshewent
She can't be herself, not anymore;
The mirror tells lies and says she's U-G-L-Y
Bones. Bones. Give me bones.
(You're not good enough, you'll never be good enough)
Shiveringshakingscreamingcrying
When will it end? When will this stop?
Dyinglyingfloatingweightless
Does she want it to end? Does she need this to stop?
Her eyes meet those in the reflection;
(Twodifferentpeoplethesedays)
Her head shakes, the t e a r s fall;
She wonders if this is worth it all.
But she can't stop!
(There is no finish line)
There's that onemorepoundtolose
Just like that pound before
(andtheonebeforethat)
Drowning in her imperfections
Sinking in her expectations
She longs to just d-i-s-a-p-p-e-a-r
(fadetonothing)
She wants to scream out to him;
AmIBeautifulYet?
(canyoulovemenow?)
She's s o r r y that she can't be perfect
She'snothingmorethanaskeletonnow
Bones. Bones. Bones.
(onemorepoundtwomorepoundsthreemorepounds)
Almost light enough to f-l-o-a-t away, almost
She feels trapped,
(trappedbyherimperfections)
She's all a-l-o-n-e
she'sgonefaraway
UGLY. FAT. STUPID. WORTHLESS.
Why aren't you pretty enough?
You have never been pretty enough, you never will be.
UGLY. FAT. STUPID. WORTHLESS.
She can k-i-l-l herself without dying.
(justletherdie)
She wants to d-i-s-a-p-p-e-a-r
THEDAYISFADINGASISHE
thevoicesscreaminsideherhead
.you'renotthinenoughyet.
Perfection; what is it?
O-b-s-e-s-s-i-o-n. Devotion. Dedication. Ideology.
She'snothereyethough
and no matter how hard she tries
she's always going to look better in that;
H O L L Y W O O D D R E A M
