AN: OH MY GOD WHY. I was reading through all my stories, like I always do after a while has passed, and when I re-read this one…oh man I couldn't even get all the way through it! IT WAS HORRIBLE. I don't even know why anyone stopped to critique it! I feel shamed for even publishing this, so I'm re-writing this. As horrid as the story was, I'm sticking with the idea. Basically James and Lily getting together for first time. Hope this time is better! Thanks and enjoy! And yes, I kept the POV's, but don't worry, I only switch once.

Lily's POV

I hurried down the second floor corridor, heels clacking and books clutched to my chest.

Please don't be late, please don't be late!

I took my seat in potions just as the bells rang.

Professor Slughorn didn't say a thing at my near tardiness, didn't even bat an eye.

I sighed in relief and opened my book to the assigned page.

About half way through the article on love potions, a note fluttered on my desk, directly next to my quill.

Subtly I unfolded the note under my desk and read over it quickly.

Oh lovely, another note from Potter. Who, surprise surprise, wanted to go on a date with me.

I crinkled up the note and shoved it in my bag, continuing to read the assigned page.

Moments later another Note landed back on my desk.

I really wasn't in the mood for this.

I crunched up the paper again and shoved it into the bottom of my bag, right next to the other.

The rest of class luckily was spent note free, finishing the article and starting on the written assignment.

I had finished when the bells rang for the end of class.

Potions being my last class of the day, I took my time packing up and making my way out of the classroom.

So I walked back to the Gryffindor Common Room.

"Hey Evans!"

Joy.

"What do you want Potter? I've got things to do" I huffed

"Just wanted to know if you got those notes I sent you Evans. They seem to be getting intercepted!" James grinned

"Oh yes, quite a shame. Guess I'll never read them now!" I shot back, keeping my eyes trained in front of me

"Suppose I'll just have to tell you what was in them then!" James said

"Oh I do wonder" I said, rolling my eyes

"It' now or never! Evans? Will you do me the highest honor, of going out with me?"

"Hmm let me think. No I think I'll pass" I said evenly.

"Darn. I'll have to try again tomorrow. Well at least let me walk to you back to the common room. It's on my way" James offered

"Fine" I sighed

One Month Later

I hate feeling confused.

Nothing I could loathe more.

I like being informed, not stuck in the dark.

It's always been like that.

So when I started to feel confused about James Potter.

Well, I didn't like it at all.

It first sign was when I hesitated with the answer.

It was the usual.

Will you go out with me Evans?

And I hesitated.

Never ever in the history of us had I ever hesitated when James Potter asked me out. Ever.

It was frightening.

But eventually I managed a no.

I don't think he thought anything of it.

The second sign was when I started to actually consider his offer.

Why didn't I go out with him?

Then the sense snapped back into me.

Bloody hell! What was I thinking! This is James freaking Potter I'm thinking about here! There was a reason I had been turning him down for two years straight!

The third was the worst.

The feeling I got when I was around him.

Sometimes my heart would beat quicker. Or my stomach would flutter.

God I hated being confused.

And of course there was the forth.

The noticing.

I started to notice how James's hair was ridiculously messy and dreadfully handsome.

I noticed how his glasses would slide to the tip of his nose when he focused.

I especially noticed the smile he saved just for me.

I so hopelessly confused.

I thought about him often, what would happen if I actually took him up on his offers, if there was ever a chance of us being a couple.

I even talked to Alice, told her about my feelings. She encouraged me to talk to him, say yes to his offers, anything really.

So I delivered the verdict to Alice.

I would say yes.

The next time he asked, I would say yes. Just to see what happened.

My heart beat quickened at the thought.

Then, I stopped dead in my tracks.

Oh.

James stood in the corner eyes closed, hands wrapped around a beautiful fourth year.

And they were kissing.

I could feel my heart shatter.

I was too late.

Soundlessly I ran in the other direction, tears stinging in my eyes.

Alice didn't even ask.

I collapsed in her arms and sobbed, her just holding me the entire time, telling me everything would be fine.

When I had finally calmed down enough to tell her what had happened her eyes shone in sympathy.

"Oh Lily" she whispered

"I finally let myself like him Alice. After all this time and he broke my heart" I cried

"It's okay Lily, everything will be fine"

I wiped my eyes.

"You can go to dinner Alice, I won't keep you"

"Lily-"

"Really Alice, I'm fine, just go eat" I encouraged

Alice hesitated for a moment then nodded

"All right. I'll be back soon okay?" she said quietly

"Okay" I whispered

As soon as Alice was out of the room I curled up on my bed and cried some more.

Fifteen minutes later I was dead asleep.

James's POV

Something strange was going on.

I hadn't seen Lily all day.

She hadn't been in any of the classes we had together, and I hadn't seen her at lunch.

So I hurried over to Alice after Potions

"Alice, do you know where Lily is? I haven't seen her around all day" I asked

Alice gave me a hard look

"She's not been feeling her best"

"Is she sick?" I asked

"Not the kind of sick you're thinking" Alice said, and walked away without another word

I stood in the hall, dumbstruck at Alice's harshness.

What in the world was that supposed to mean anyway? Not the sick you're thinking of..

Later in the common room, after checking the infirmary of course, I found Sirius.

"Hey mate, you seen Lily around?"

Sirius shook his head "She's been in her room all day. Word is she's been crying"

"Crying?" now I was worried

"Yeah. You should go talk to Alice" he advised

"I already have! I think she's mad at me" I said rubbing the back of my neck wearily

"Then go find Frank, Alice probably told him"

"Thanks"

"Uh huh"

Frank was deep into his History of Magic homework when I interrupted him.

"Hey Frank?"

"Oh hey James. What's going on?" Frank asked, looking up from his paper.

"I was just wondering have you heard anything about Lily from Alice? I'm kinda worried about her" I confessed

Frank hesitated before answering.

"Yeah, but you can't tell Alice I told you alright?"

"Sure" I agreed

"She's been locked up in their room all day, crying her eyes out. Boy trouble Alice says"

"A boy? But Lily doesn't even have a boyfriend!" I exclaimed

"Yes, I know that. Keep quiet will you? This part you have to keep to yourself especially. I'm only telling you because you're my mate" Frank said "It's about you. Alice said that Lily was going to say yes to going out with you. But I guess she saw you snogging Eliza yesterday and she just kind of…shattered"

My heart dropped.

"She was going to say yes to me?" I asked weakly

Frank nodded "Alice says she's been thinking about it for weeks now, all worried about you and stuff. It had taken ages to work up the courage she said."

"Oh Merlin" I croaked

How had I messed this up? Lily Evans, the girl I was head over heels for, was actually going to go agree to go out with me, was even mildly interested! And I had blown it.

Merlin I was an idiot.

"Don't tell anyone though alright? Alice doesn't want it to get out. I barely got her to tell me" Frank said

I nodded.

"Go set things right mate"

I walked up the stairs to the boys dorms numbly, sitting down onto my bed and putting my head into my hands.

"What's wrong?"

Remus sat at his bed next to mine and looking up from his astronomy book with concern.

"I've ruined everything" I said miserably

"Come now, I'm sure you haven't ruined everything. What happened?" Remus pressed

"Lily. She was actually going to agree to go out with me! And I blew it"

"How did you manage that?" he asked

"She saw me snogging Eliza yesterday. Frank and Sirius said she's been in her room crying all day"

Remus sighed.

"What are you going to do?" he asked softly

"I don't know Remus. Merlin I hate myself" I croaked

"James listen, we all know that Lily means a lot to you, and if she feels the same way then you can't let her slip away"

"I know but-"

"Wait. I wasn't finished. You need to talk to her. Apologize. Eliza doesn't mean anything to you, I know, you know, but she doesn't. I think this is the only chance you're going to get with her. So jump on it"

"You're right. But how do I talk to her? She won't come out of her room!" I exclaimed

"Well…there is something…recently I found a spell in one of the older books in the library. It was for temporarily getting through set curses or charms. That might work"

"All right!"

"But you can't cast it on yourself. Only someone else" he informed me carefully

"Alright, let's do this!"

Remus smiled and pulled out his wand.

He took a deep breath and recited the spell.

"That should do. Good luck Prongs"

"Thanks Remus. I owe you" I said gratefully, grabbing my invisibility cloak on the way out of the door

As I crept up the stairs to the girl's dorm, I heard a soft crying.

Lily, I thought sadly.

I pushed her door open quietly and saw she was curled up against her headboard, an oversized sweater covering her wracking body.

I pulled off my cloak and dropped it on the floor.

"Lily?" I asked quietly

She started and stared at me in horror

"James?" she whispered "How did you get up here"

"It doesn't matter Lily. I just…I had to talk to you"

She was quiet, tears shining on her cheeks. Eyes bloodshot.

"Please Lils! I know I blew it! I know! But please hear me out! I promise you that girl didn't mean anything to me, no girl I've ever been with ever has!" I took a deep breath "You're the only one I've ever loved okay?"

She started to tear up again.

"When I heard…that you might feel the same way…you don't even know how full of hope I was. I've waited for years for you. But it didn't even matter. I could wait even longer" I approached the end of the bed, standing right in front of her "Just please don't hate me Lily. I really don't think I could stand it"

"James I…" Lily trailed off, speechless

"Please? Just one more chance Lils?" I pleaded

Lily's lip quivered for a moment, and then she sprung into my arms.

"Of course I'll give you another chance you prat" she whispered "You always do come back anyways don't you?"

James grinned and wrapped his arms around her in return

"Always"

AN: Sorry I couldn't incorporate the "I Love You" into the story but it would have been a little sudden huh? The original is set as the second chapter, just in case any of you poor souls feel the urge to read it (I don't recommend it) and just for the sake of seeing the difference and hopefully improvement in the story! I appreciate every review and favorite! Thanks for reading!