-Based on ToraDora, episode 19, taken from when taiga runs out of the apartment, after Ryuuji leaves-

"Ryuuji!"

My voice barely croaks out.

It's cold outside, I'm not wearing anything but this damned dress from the party. My feet, bare, the sidewalk feels like I'm walking on icicles ; pain stabbing through me every time I move.

Even though my feet doesn't hurt.

My heart does.

My head does.

My eyes, are tired of opening to let this salty tears slip down my face, to my neck, finding its way into my clothing. Staining my dress.

"Ryuuji?"

My voice is tired and my mouth wants to stop moving.

But I can't.

I can't.

I can't feel this way.

"No…he's now gone, he's gone…with…Minorin…"

I whisper to myself.

Finding comfort, out of nothing but the future.

'I can't get him back. I'm not supposed to.'

My feet move aggressively, further into the icicles.

My hands, clamped to my eyes.

Stuck.

My eyes feel the pressure of my hands, still letting the simple tears fall.

My breathing becomes uncontrollable, so does my shaking, so does everything.

"RYUUJI!"

I shout into the sky, with sadness, rage, confusion, nervousness.

That name.

That name is important.

He's the one, who has helped me through so much.

He's the man, I hit.

He's the man, I respond to with a bitter voice.

He's the man, I yell at.

He's the man, I uncontrollably love.

My energy is taken away from shouting his name.

I collapse onto the sidewalk, right in front of my apartment.

My feet, I can tell, I can see, I can feel, are red.

My hair is going in different directions.

Tangled.

From the madness.

I hold myself, literally, my hands clenched tight onto my arms.

"Ryuuji…"

I whimper. Whimper? Yes, I miss him.

I miss him? Yes, I love him.

I love him? Yes, but I can't.

I can't? Yes, because he's with Minorin.

Minorin? Yes, the girl he falls for.

He falls for her? Yes, everyday in the halls.

And I have to watch.

"But…he's happy now right? Being with Minorin…that's…all that matters…right?"

I comfort myself out of nothing again.

Nothing but the future.

This emptiness, is filled with tears.

Tears.

Have I ever cried this hard before?

Have I?

But…as long as he's happy.

I don't matter.

Nothing Matters

Except

For His

Happiness.

Thank you for reading.

This is based off of I believe, Episode 19 of ToraDora.

Filled with Taiga's thoughts of course.

Please review, tell me what I can improve on and such.

Again ; thank you.