Courage of the doomed

Disclaimer: I own nothing related to Tolkien unless it is the copy of his book that I bought at the store

...And here I am, lying in the fields of battle.
My face, one among millions.
My soon to be dead body covered by others.
Not worth a second glance.
The others will be remembered.
Great names, great deaths.
So why is it, that I, who am soon to be just as dead, will receive no recognition?
I am only a single grain of sand among many.
In between the rocks and the tides, I am fading.
Will I make a difference in life?
Perhaps, I made a difference in death?
In my sacrifice, so that others may live?
But no one will read my name.
I will be grouped among the rest of the 'nameless heroes'.
Even as the light fades from my eyes, I do not understand.
We were all men of worth. Why did I have to die?
I wanted to live.
Alas, my wish is not granted.
Help me Mother! I am alone and dying in the fields of battle.
Did I do the right thing?
I know this is my last breath.
I shall face it like a soldier
Like a warrior.
Like a true hero.
"Courage, is not a lack of fear, it is the ability to overcome it."
Where did I hear that?
As a child, hiding under the covers in fear of things that go 'bump' in the night?
I am no longer a child.
Yet I am still frightened.
I can feel my body shutting down.
It is unnerving
What will happen to me when I die?
Will I cease to exist?
It does not matter, really.
It will happen whether I wish it or not.
I have, truly, no choice in the matter.
I hope, that I will not be forgotten.
I shall live on forever in the hearts of my family.
But what if they die as well?
Oh Valar, I want to live!
But, I cannot.
I shall go forth like a brave new song into the light.
Let go of my fear.
It is but a chain, holding me back.
In the words of Mithrandir:
"Death, is but another path, one that we all must take."
And now, it is my turn.

A/N this depressing piece of poetry came to me while I was watching the 'Return of the king' on D.V.D It's supposed to be the last thoughts of what one of the soldiers was thinking as he died on Pelennor fields. Tell me what you think.