(AN: don't own twilight, Stephanie does)

Her face. . .

The way she used to look at the sky when the sun came out, the glow she received as soon as the light hit her skin, warmth it

absorbs, how her hair blew in the wind, knotting itself by the way the wind came, how her eyes were so unique and beautiful, now dead.

Since that faithful night were she was gone before my eyes, I didn't see it coming but it was too late to take action, celebration of a new year , another chance in life now gone in a blink of an eye. She trusted us, loved us, cared for us, in the end we broke all of those unsaid promises. I still remember that celebration so clearly, everything so perfect, good in everyway, a sweet event turned into a bitter, unwanted but remembered memory, forever in my brain in repeat, not one moment to stop.

Flash Back:

Laughter echoed these walls, everyone waiting what would be her reaction as she picked the next present and waited,

"That is from Edward and I" Alice said

Bella looked at me with annoyance in her eyes and said:

"You promised"

"Didn't spent a dime" I assured her

"Give it to me"

Alice handed over the small, flat object to her and she mumbled:

"When are they going to listen to me?"

Everyone laughed again, Emmett's laugh was more pronounced, obviously, who wouldn't hear that booming sound miles away? Bella laughed just for a couple of moments, but the sound was enchanting, magical even. She put her slim finger under the wrapping paper and in that moment we heard he skin tearing apart and the blood flowing through the cut, she put her finger in her face to examine it. Before any of us could see what was happening, Jasper turned into a crouch and leaped at her, he bit her neck and let the flow of hot, tasting blood down his throat.

I attacked him with everything I had in me, pushed him to the ground of wooden floor leaving a dent, and didn't pay attention to that now the most important thing at hand was Bella. Who was screaming in the living room floor, screaming piercing screams, that sound, filled with agony and terror is forever in my memory. Emmett and Rosalie held Jasper tightly, but not strong enough, he broke free and grabbed my screaming angel and ran to the forest. Everyone was in shock for a couple of seconds then ran after them, you could hear her screams filling the night, I ran faster then I had ever before, guess my love is my inspiration, leading them to a familiar place I searched for her, but you could only hear her heart going silent slowly. Finally reaching our meadow with my family behind me, I could hear they're thought flow into my brain.

-"This isn't happening, this isn't happening"- Emmett chanted in his head repeatedly.

-"Jazzy," Alice thought.

Esme was crying tearless sobs for her son and her daughter, worried of their outcome, Carlisle wasn't any better either and Rosalie was furious.

"THIS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!! OUR PLAN WAS TO CELEBRATE A BIRTHDAY, BIRTHDAY!!!, oh Jasper you are going to get it from me and it wont be peachy cream…" so on but you get the point. When I got closer I saw Jasper kneeled down with Bella in his arms, his back facing us, of course to anyone it seemed beautiful, the scene in the moonlight, lovers whispering their love towards each other, but to my family and I, it was absolutely terrifying. I jumped behind Jasper, pulling his shoulders backwards and throwing him at the trees, now my whole family was holding him.

-"Jazzy come back to me"- Alice whispering in his ear over and over again, she was at the verge of tears now, metaphorically speaking of course, she never took his eyes away from him.

Everyone watching the scene in front of them, while I knelt in front of my Bella, my everything, I took her into my arms and started crying tearless sobs holding her close to me, hoping for her to stay with me in this world, this world that holds so much hopelessness and darkness, she is the only thing that brings me love, hope, beauty and warmth into this cold, heartless being, a monster. This beauty loved her beast for some miracle, a love I didn't deserve but was blessed with. I heard a voice, small, hardly detectable but there

-"Edward"

I looked at her with sorrow and love filled eyes, she stared back at me with those eyes that held so many secrets and emotions, love was the strongest one so far.

-"I love you" She whispered looking at me in the eyes that were closing

-"You're not going anywhere you hear me!!, you're going to stay here with me, you're not going away!, STAY!!" I yelled

-"Bye love" she said while closing her eyes forever to be unopened again

-"NOOOOOOO!!, BELLA WAKE UP,WAKE UP, WAKE UP, WAKE UP!!, sweetheart please-" I begged while crying tearless sobs"-wake up for me please" I begged again,

-"No" I whispered, I looked at her, her eyes weren't bright, her deep eyes were now flat, she laid motionless against my chest, she laid lifeless. Everyone became silent but there thoughts were with grief and sadness, someone, I don't know who came closer to us.

-"Get away from us" I threatened

-"Son, it will be-"

-"Don't say things are going to be fine, because they're not" I stood up and faced them with Bella in my arms, Esme was sobbing so hard that she fell on her knees and yelled, Carlisle was with Esme crying as well, Emmett was in pain that was written al over his face, he had to be supported by Rosalie, who had shock all over her perfect features, Jasper ran away feeling ashamed and weak, Alice stood there for a couple of minutes letting this scene braided into her brain and went looking for Jasper, to comfort him. I walked slowly to my home not wanting to be in a hurry, letting my memories with my angel take over me, it was like watching a movie, not from my eyes or hers but from a different perspective; the first time I sneaked to her room, our first I love you's, when I held her while she slept, when I heard her say my name for the first time and so on. After so many hours later I arrived to my humble abode, took my time going up the stairs, walking the hallway to my room, opened the door and laid her on my couch, I sat down on the floor my back against the couch just looking at her. It might be crazy what im doing but I could careless, I heard my family coming through the door, (he was too distracted to read their thoughts….duh) all of them were walking slowly, all of them tried not to think, to block out their pain. Jasper was worse than all of them put together, he was still out, hiding in shame and guilt, you could feel it miles away, his thoughts were in the same way, to him it was like playing it over and over again, he couldn't stop thinking about it. You could hear his dry sobbing and Alice was there to comfort him, he rejected her said to leave him alone and wallow in pain, but she stayed ,she couldn't leave him because he needed her, needed her like air in his still and useless lungs. Jasper was leaning against the tree bark on the ground, Alice was standing and sat down next to him and he put his head on her lap, she tenderly was moving her small fingers through his hair while he cried. Carlisle was in the living room in the love seat with Esme on his lap, Rosalie was sitting on the sofa with Emmett on the floor in between her legs holding her hand and kissing it every once in a while, after days (at least that's what it felt like) I looked at the clock its only been 5 hours, wow that was short, I went downstairs, I know it isn't like me to leave Bella alive or… forget that but its for my family too, when I came downstairs my family was in the same position, not moving a fraction of an inch. Carlisle like the leader/father figure he was started talking:

-"I know these couple of hours have been rather painful, we must do something about it, Charlie will be wondering why Bella -wince- hasn't returned home"

-"Maybe we could do one of Alice's sleepover things" Rosalie suggested

-"What about in the morning?!, we can't come up and say 'hey Charlie we're sorry but Bella was killed yesterday because our brother sucked her dry!'" Emmett stood up and yelled, rage, pain and other emotions were in his eyes, he chuckled darkly, this wasn't our care free Emmett, this was a very hurt brother who lost his sister, part of him.

-"What about then huh?!"

Rosalie was staring at him in surprise, everyone knew she didn't like Bella but there was something about her that made her go under someone's skin. She stood up and went to stand in front of Emmett , who was very close to Carlisle, yelling at his face, she put her hands on his shoulders, he looked at her, his gaze softened just a bit, he pulled her into a hug and cried on her shoulder, she ran her hand up and down his back. Out of nowhere I tell you, Alice was in front of us but Jasper was still outside, right then Emmett saw her and saw Jasper, he was driven by rage, ran at her and attacked her, she stood there not expecting it and the next thing she felt was a body pining her to the wall.

-"Emmett get off me!!!" she yelled, Emmett was growling like an animal, what she next said was a low blow for him and everyone else,

-"Do you want to lose me too" Emmett got angrier, wrong move Alice and she's supposed to be the psychic. Emmett growled like an animal and threw her to another wall, Alice was scared as hell so she ran and hid somewhere in the house, the rest of us pulled him back, it was hard I have to admit it. He ran to his room, Rosalie ran after him and a couple of minutes later you heard crying and later he started talking

-"Why Rosie, why her?" he wept, she kept quiet but her thoughts betrayed her

"I don't know Em, I don't know"

Alice came out of cognito, she looked so heartbroken and her tiny form started shaking, I went to her and knelt in front of her and wrapped my arms around her, she put her little arms around my neck

-"Edward im so sorry I didn't see this coming, im so sorry ,I should have prevented this" she whispered, I pulled away from her just a bit and looked at her straight in the eyes and said:

-"Alice you have nothing to apologize for, this was my fault I shouldn't have-" I was cut off

-"IT WAS All MY FAULT! STOP BLAMING YOURSELVES, JUST STOP IT!!!!" Jasper yelled at the top of his lungs, he was sitting on the first step of the stairs with pulling out his hair.

-"DON'T SAY IM NOT A KILLER BECAUSE I KNOW I AM!!"

Alice was shocked all she ever thought was "Jazz…", out of the blue again a ring sound was heard, we stood still and checked our phones but it was coming from upstairs , I ran up the stairs jumping from where Jasper was, it was coming from my room, Bella's phone.

Then the annoying sound stopped, I took the phone and looked who it was, Chief Swan why am I not surprised? When I turned everyone minus Emmett and Rosalie were here.

-"Who was it?" Esme asked, everyone was trying not to look at Bella.

-" It was Charlie, Alice could you call him and say you and Bella-shudder- are having a sleepover?"

-"Yes" she quickly took the phone and called the chief and said to him Bella was having a sleepover and had nothing to worry about, lies all lies.

Everything felt so surreal, like some horrible nightmare that no one could escape from. We wept for hours but time doesn't really matter right now, Alice was comforting Jasper in their room, Rosalie was holding Emmett for he would break, Carlisle and Esme where outback on the porch swing holding one another. And there's me ,alone once more but before was like nothing was missing and now everything that made me my persona was gone, empty, hollow and to think that I could have prevented this. I should have stayed away from her, held my distance no matter what but my fascination with this girl, this girl who captured my heart with those delicate, warm, soft hands, this girl's life was gone like a candle and I would question myself and would be in depression for the rest of my existence, but I wouldn't trade all of those precious moments for anything in this world.

I lay now on the floor of my room looking at the ceiling not really looking at it but passed it, but time really flies Bella-wince-laid on my leather couch with her head on the arm, eyes closed, her body was relaxed like she was sleeping but never going to make. I looked at her even in death her beauty is untouched by the events of the day, her brown hair fell around her and some strands fell of the couch, her skin was paler looking like a corpse and I realized that what I said to her in the meadow, my fears of her in this exact position ,my worst fear came true and now this angel, my angel, had went away forever, my thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. Alice came inside, walked towards me, sat down next to me and I didn't even try to know what was going through her head so I listened to her instead.

"Edward" Alice said in a heartbroken tone but I sensed something else, I kept silent still looking at the ceiling but changed my sight towards the wall,

"Edward, I know you're in a difficult position but we have matters to attend and we are meeting in the dining room, you need to be there" Alice said this, stood up and walked away. I laid there for a while thinking about it but as the sun began to rise I had to go downstairs and face this, no other choice but to listen and move, my body moving on its own while my mind was a hectic place. As my feet moved closer to the dining room my eyes saw that everyone else is seated leaving one chair at Carlisle left side empty. I sat down and looked at Carlisle to see him looking back with an agonized stare but composed himself and looked at the others and began to speak.

"I know we had an event that changed us forever but we must look at the time now that we have a responsibility now" no one spoke just looked at him with dead eyes.

"We must stick together," he said it with such conviction that it echoed through the walls bouncing its vibration into our ears

"We must prepare ourselves like the outside world that is going to change and the people around us will need us, and since this happened we need to-"

I felt something in me snap, some sort of bomb that took over and yelled:

"YOU MEAN HER DEATH!!"

"Edward I-" I cut him off yet again

"HOW DARE YOU TREAT THIS LIKE NOTHING?!, SHE MEANT SOMETHING TO ALL OF US AND YOU TREAT IT LIKE SOME OTHER UNIMPORTANT MATTER?!"I yelled once again, feeling the venom in me boil

"Edward please calm down" Esme pleaded

"BELLA MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME! AND I WILL NEVER TALK ABOUT HER LIKE SHE WAS A BUMP ON THE ROAD THAT CAN BE EASILY IGNORED!!"

Everyone stared at me like I was crazy but afraid hinted their eyes, but I didn't care, I want her memory to be special and no one was going to talk about her like she was nothing while im still breathing, well existing but you get the picture. I didn't realize I was standing up and the fact I broke the dining table with a single punch.

"Edward please calm down" Esme pleaded again while putting a hand on my forearm, my chest heaved up and down with unnecessary air, I tried to keep calm but I stayed quiet. Time passed and everyone still kept looking at me but I closed my eyes and pictured Bella's-wince- face with a smile that could brighten a whole room with that blush of hers and I relaxed instantly but a wave of sadness went through me, and I went to my knees and dry sobbed, Esme's arms hugged me and I leaned into her embrace.

"She didn't deserve to die mom, she…she wasn't supposed to die, I was suppose to protect her" I wept into her shoulder

"Shhh…. Let it out, let it out son" was all she said while rocking me back and forth as I sobbed. Everyone was watching this heartbreaking scene.

'He looks so….broken' was everybody's thought and wondered how am I going to survive the worst pain imaginable, losing their soul. It seemed like time stood still and this bubble of agonizing pain was roaming through the air, everyone slowly came to me and hugged me forming a big hug fest but at this time for a tragic moment was necessary. After what seemed like forever everyone composed themselves around me and stayed with me on the floor silently but eventually someone spoke.

"We need to do something about her body," Alice said sadly, all of us looked at her is disbelief, and asked myself how could she think of that now?

"Well people are going to start asking question on where is Bella-wince from me- and we have to make it look like she got into an accident" we looked at her and nodded, we needed to do that and soon.

"We'll make it look like she was driving down the driveway until she slipped on some mud and it got out of control and hit a tree and the impact was so forceful it….killed her" Rose said trying on an idea.

"That could work" Emmett said seriously

"Except her truck is a tank" I said

"She could have taken your car Edward because her gas tank was empty and you persuaded her into taking your car ,and we agreed in meeting at school in my convertible until she drove off and as soon as she was out of the driveway there was a mud puddle and she slipped, the car went out of control and the driver's side hit a tree and so killing her" Rose said in one breath

"That sound believable" Emmett supported

"What about the bite on her neck?" I asked

"A piece of glass did that" she explained

"The blood?"

"Carlisle can get some, he's a doctor so he deal's with blood every now and then, and there must be a blood bank in the hospital" she explained.

"Good now lets get started" Carlisle said professionally

And so the plan was in action, every little detail was covered and all we needed was to make it believable for everyone catch the bait. Esme bathed her in hot water to make her skin more flushed and Alice dressed her and let her hair in her natural waves of brown down her back, didn't put any makeup on just lip-gloss. Bella's-wince- body was moved to my car, dressed in a fresh pair of black skinny jeans and a v-neck, long sleeved indigo sweater with matching ballet flats. All we had to do now was wait.

Time is irrelevant, slow to us unless we have someone to spent it with, but now every second is pure torture and without motivation to live I'm just a shell of what she took with her.

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