So I know I am doing way to may stories but this have been in my head since forever and I just need to get it out. It may only be a one-shot but Idk.

Dpov

I will never forget the look in her eyes as I tell her those words. Never forget how the light in her eyes disappeared leaving them hollowed. But much less will I forget my actions only 3 hours later where I committed the ultimate betrayal against her.

Flashback

Screams where surrounding us as people ran for their lives and guardians battled countless of strigoi that kept coming in over the wards. No one had seen it coming, everyone thought the royal curt was safe. But we should have known after the attack on the academy that it was only a matter of time before they would come here too. When you are a guardian, the screams doesn't bother you as they should do. They doesn't make you turn around or lose you focus. You can't afford for them too, it will undoubtly cost you your life. But as I took down yet another strigoi one scream still got to me. It was hers. It wasn't filled with agony, just surprised. I turned around just in time do see her crash into the wall, falling unconscious like a ragdoll to the ground. I threw myself in to stop the strigoi coming for her, ready to make her his next meal. The battle wasn't easy but the blind rage I felt after seeing him throw around with her like that was enough for me to block most hits and lastly take him down. As his body slumped to the ground a high-pitched sound ran trough and suddenly, quicker than they had come they were gone. None of us knew what to expect, the night were still young and they could easily come back but for some reason I had a feeling that they wouldn't, which made me question: what where they after?

I picked her up and held her against my chest before taking off in direction of the infirmary when the head guardian's voice stopped me.

"Belikov!" I spun around eager to get this over as soon as possible so I could get her to the infirmary. He took in her unconscious form and looked at me with deep sympathy, which made my stomach drop.

"I am sorry. You need to get to the wards instantly." I opened my mouth, to question what I should do about Rose when he cut me off.

"And you need to bring her." He nodded towards Rose then took of, leaving me with a sick feeling in my gut. It hadn't been wrong. As soon as I got to the front line I could see this wasn't going to end well. One of the gaurds decided to fill me in even trough the situation where pretty clear. They had the princess, She was standing in a strigoi's grasp crying, looking towards Christian who were also crying. They were willing to agosiate. But what they wanted in return were something neither of us were happy to give up. In return for the princess they wanted Rose. The other gaurdians didn't know her. They were only concerned because they knew she was one hell of a fighter and if she was turned … I didn't even want to think about that. But on the other hand did we really have a choice? The Dragomir princess where the last in her line, we couldn't let them take her.

I recognized the strigoi in front. The leader it seemed. He had been high ranging when I was strigoi and we had been cooperating a lot. What frightened me about that was that he knew about my relationship to Rose and was more than likely to use it against me. I wasn't mistaken. He wanted me to exchange Rose for the princess. I knew I had to do it. Yet my heart screamed at me every steep I took towards them. I owed the princess my life, but could I really give up my love that laid helpless in my arms? I had to. I didn't fail to notice the laughing strigoi videotaping the exchange, clearly amused by the situation. It reminded me of how heartless these creatures were and I realized then, way to late, that Rose had been right about me not being me when I had done those things. If I could feel this disgusted now then I could have never even the slightest bit have been the monster doing those things. But laying Rose on the ground before walking over to claim Lissa from the strigoi holding her I also realized what kind of monster I had just become. I didn't know what her faith would be but I knew it wouldn't be good. Lissa where sobbing hysterically, desperately trying to get out of my arms to get to Rose as they took her away. I returned her to Christian who were almost as big of a wreck. They were soon taken back to their quarters and guardians worked alongside moroi to redo the wards and started planning new protection techniques to prevent another attack. Trough I knew what they were doing was going to save lives I couldn't help but feel that they were too late. Cause it was too late to save my Roza now.