Based from TV show, Set after season three ending, Nate doesn't know about Jenny & Chuck, Jenny is finishing up a year in Hudson with her mom, Serena & Dan are kinda dating now that Georgina revealed the truth about her babies daddy, Chuck & Blair are together after his accident.

Made some changes, not drastic ones just some spelling mistakes and awkward sentences.

Don't own anything pertaining to gossip girl just really love the show and the few books I've read.

"Jenny! Eric's on the phone he says you still haven't told him if you're going to visit him this summer and he needs to know so he can decide when he can meet the rest of them on the cruise." Long pause. I can hear her calling me but I'm not sure I really want to answer. I know I need to talk to Eric but the last time we talked about me visiting the summer we got in a pretty big argument and we haven't talked since.

"Jenny! Did you hear anything I just said?" She peaks her head in around the corner and I take off my head phones and put down my needle and thread so at least it appears like she has my attention.

"Yeah mom I heard you it's just I'm not sure what I'm going to tell him yet, " I spin around in my bubble chair actually giving her my full attention now, "He really wants me to come to New York but I told him I'm afraid it's just going to stir up trouble where it's not necessary."

"Honey," My mom comes over and sits beside me on the bed gently rubbing my back. We've actually become pretty close this year seeing I've kind of locked myself up in my room with my sketches and sewing machine with no one to talk to but her and Eric. "I know you did some things you regret once you became Queen B of Constance and moved into the Upper East Side but you're not that person anymore you're Jenny Humphrey from Brooklyn with a great heart and a crazy talent for designing clothes."

"Mom," I shrug with embarrassment, nothing like a pep talk from your mom to make you feel pathetic. I know she's sort of right anyways, I mean I've definitely tried to become the old me this year but a little less naïve and innocent. Although I don't think after doing the nasty with Chuck Bass anybody could be consider innocent. That's the thing I hate the most, I knew Chuck loved Blair and I sure as hell didn't love Chuck so I can't figure out why I let myself sit and get drunk with him knowing what the end result would be. "Mom it's not that I haven't changed its that no one's going to believe I have, I really hurt some people that I supposedly cared about."

"Jenny it'll be ok why don't you just give Eric a call, you two can just hang out together you don't have to tell everyone you're back." She kisses my forehead and leaves the room with an empty glass of milk from my snack later.

"Thanks mom." I turn back to my desk layered with different fabrics and sketches, my drawing abilities have improved this past year, before I just started sewing with no end in sight but now I know what I want before I start. But this is just for me I messed up any chance I had of doing great things in the fashion world when I started hanging out with Agnes at Eleanor's. I was going to just start working again on my latest design but the realization of my mother's words hit me, we could hide from everybody else, everyone who would hate me if they saw me. Eric had told me a couple months back that Gossip Girl had disappeared around the same time I left so it shouldn't be too hard to sneak around a city as huge as New York and I really do miss it.

I pick up my phone and start dialing my best friends/step-brothers number. "Eric?"

"Yeah... Jenny? Are you finally calling me back? Wow I should have told your mom on you ages ago."

"Haha Eric, no my mom actually had a smart idea as to how I can come to New York."

"Ok let's hear it."

"Well we'll just hide, I'll get off the train and head straight to the loft, where you can meet me and I'll just stay away from anybody that might hold a grudge against me. "

"You mean half the city."

"Eric! I swear I'd punch you through the phone right now."

"I'm kidding Jenny."

"I know you are but it's true I hurt a lot of people including my own father and brother along with step mom, sister, and brother. Well and I can't forget Blair and Chuck, and even Nate." I hate the fact that the mistakes I made hurt so many people but I mostly regret hurting Blair, she was an ass to me when I first met her but I became her predecessor which is actually not a bad thing when you meet the real and caring Blair Waldorf inside her hard exterior. But instead of being the good Queen my goal was to be I followed in Blair's footsteps and became just like she was in high school and I should have known there was only enough room for one Queen of the Upper East Side. Although I messed up Blair's and Chuck's relationship when I left Eric has informed me that they're now together after Chuck's unfortunate encounter with French muggers and a lot of counseling which really made me laugh to think about the great Chuck Bass in counseling. But I'm super happy for them at least I didn't completely ruin their relationship and maybe if we run into them she won't kill me like she promised before I left.

"Jenny I know you hurt a lot of people but most of them have gotten over it or they seem to although they might hold a little resentment towards you. But if you want to hide from this life I'll be happy to hide away with you."

"I really think it'll work Eric no one's going to have any idea I'm coming and plus I look kind of different maybe no one would recognize me and I'm sure we'll find something to do cooped up in the loft." I might not look so different that no one would recognize but I've definitely changed my appearance. My hairs still long and messy curly but my make-up has become less dramatic and harsh more of a sun kissed look. As well my clothing style is still pretty edgy but there are girly pieces that make it less trashy, I feel like I was trying to hard in New York now it's just me and I don't really care if anyone likes it.

"Yeah I don't think you could've changed too much. But I'm sure we'll find something to do maybe watch movies and play wii." Why did he have to say that, why did he have to bring up my I guess you could call it kryptonite. I know it sounds ridiculous and kind of absurd but I haven't played one game of wii or watched a movie since the last time me and Nate hung out. I haven't spoken to Nate or asked Eric about him since I left. I guess you could say I've been trying to rid him from my system this past year, my unhealthy crush on him last year was bad I mean he clearly had a girlfriend that he loved and I couldn't get past my feelings. I keep telling myself that if I had truly cared about him I wouldn't have done everything I could think of in order to break up his relationship so he'd be with me. I left New York without saying goodbye to him, I was wrecked and broken not because of the horrible things I had done to everyone (although I soon realized the depth of those actions) but because Nathaniel Archibald had broken my heart. I know it was mostly my fault but I felt like every time he saved me he was leading me on just a little bit more but all of my hope shattered when I slept with Chuck now I know there's no way we can ever be together.

"Are you ok Jenny?"

"Umm yeah that sounds awesome Eric I'll get my mom to book me a train ticket and I'll be there next week. Does that sound ok?"

"Perfect Jenny I'll let mom and Rufus know when I can join them on the cruise then. See you next week."

"You too." I hang up the phone, tell my mom my plans and get ready for bed. I can't believe I'm going back to New York after a year of being away. I'm actually really excited I love the energy of the city but I can't seem to shake the feeling that hiding out in the city that never sleeps is going to work out so well.

Please Review, I'd love to hear your guy's opinion! Should I continue? I also have to Warn after next week I won't be able to give constant updates so don't get too mad. I really love the Nate and Jenny pairing and I hate how on the show they build up this possible sagway to their relationship actually working and then tear them apart by Jenny making stupid decisions. Anyways Enjoy!