Yuuichi and Mai's story

"Mai! What kind of lunch would you like today?" Sayuri yelled in excitement
"…Beef bowl…" Mai answered back
"Ahaha Mai sure loves beef bowls huh Yuuichi?"

"That's right, she always has right?"

It's been almost the same every day since I moved here, but there is just one thing that's different about the three of us hanging out. I only have a few regrets about how things are that this moment. I always feel as if there's a monster growling for me to grab hold of Mai and crush my lips against hers, in hope that she would accept me.

"Mai, Yuuichi, I've got to get something done so enjoy the lunch, enjoy the lunch and Mai I'll see you after class."

"…Goodbye Sayuri…"

With their worded goodbye, they moved closer and their lips touched. The whole in my heart ached; Mai should be mine, not Sayuri's. It's my entire fault; I let Mai drift away from me. I didn't think much of it at the time, but I've come to realize Mai is the only person I need. She's beautiful, calm, and has a good heart. It's not fair, I made a mistake and because of that Mai is gone. Mai waited for me and I screwed up, I should have been there to let her know I loved her, to tell her she is my reason for coming back to this town, as I watch Sayuri walk down the stairs away from our little blanket, I can feel a stare on the back of my neck.

"Yo Mai." Since this was our usual greeting I knew what was coming.

"Yo Yuuichi."

Then silence filled the air. It wasn't just silence, it was awkward silence, I could tell Mai was looking at me, and I could tell she knew I was thinking of her. I tried not to so much as glance at her, the fried omelet was the only thing I would focus on.

"Yuuichi."

It was building inside me, I knew I should be happy for Mai and Sayuri, but I would never stop loving Mai, I'm wise enough to know that now. I just wish I could've realized that when she was single, I wish I could've realized that she is why I came back to this town. Here we sat were Mai, Sayuri, and I always ate lunch and it was building inside to confess, that kiss, Mai and Sayuri's kiss was so wrong, I hate it. I'll keep quiet, I won't tell her how I really feel.

"Yuuichi."

I can't tell her, my heart wants to but I mustn't, Sayuri is my friend I want her and Mai to be happy. Mai's voice was breaking me though; with every call of my name I come closer to the inevitable confession. I have to fight though. Just then Mai hit me on the forehead as she usually does when I'm doing something that bothers her.

"Yuuichi."

I grabbed her had, her hand was so small, so warm, so full of life. I had to hold on, I could smell something… it was what Mai always smelled like, the smell I could never put a finger on. Her hand began to resist a little, my breathing increased. I couldn't let her go yet, no, just a little longer."

"Mai!" I panted as my breathing accelerated even more now.

"Yuuichi." Mai said as calm as she had been calling me before.
"Mai I love you! I always have, I always will. I don't know what I'm trying to say other than my heart belongs to you. No woman has ever made my heart waver from you. I know your with Sayuri, but please hear me out, your all I ever wanted, you're the reason I came back to this cold town. I always want to be with you, always hold you in my arms. I just want you I just—"

Just then I felt droplets of tears fall from Mai's eyes fall onto my hands which were still tight around hers. Then I couldn't hold it anymore, my tears became uncontrollable. How could I force Mai to consider hurting Sayuri? How could I upset the girl I want to protect so much? I'm the worst, the absolute worst.

"I'm sorry Mai, I'll leave no—"
"Yuuichi, your too late."
"Mai, what are you s-" and she tapped me on the head to silence me, I understood, it was her time to talk.
"Yuuichi, you're late…7 years late." As she said this, there was a shocking sound of anger in her voice and the tears began falling more quickly. "I've loved you for 7 years and… and… you've only taken interest in me when I decided I could love Sayuri…. As a girlfriend… you don't care about me… you see me as a prize..." I was surprised Mai spoke this much but I couldn't think of that now, my eyes were wide with anger to what she just said.
"MAI, that's completely wrong! I can't even believe you can't look at me and see I'm longing for you" I shouted these words and it seemed to startle her, but I didn't care, it was now or never."Ever since I've returned to this town my eyes have been on you and only you, I didn't know if you'd ever forgive me for forgetting you so I've never asked you to forgive me." I wasn't done but it looked like Mai had been trying to get something off of her chest as well, her eyes red and puffy from crying and tears still streaming. I felt like the biggest loser in the world, I hated to see Mai cry, to see her in pain.

"Yuuichi, I… I… I can't look at you anymore. I have to go…"
With that Mai ran full speed down the steps and out of my sight. I decided I have had enough lunch for the day, cleaned up the area, and went down to class. Before walking in I realized I didn't want to go to class, I decided I didn't want to go to class, turned around, and ran out to the snowy fields. Nayuki would be in class and I wouldn't want her to see my face, I know she is still unconditionally in love with me. As I walked into the field I saw a familiar girl standing in the snow, one who was strong, sweet, and caring. She is exactly the one I needed to see, to talk to, to vent my feelings.

"Hey Shiori, no class today?" I asked even though I knew she was skipping class as well. She smiled at me with her kind eyes, and her small figure reminded me of a human sized pixie.

"Yuuichi-kun, good evening. I did have class, but for some reason I felt this is where I needed to be, so just this once…" She held her arms open and embraced me. Even though I knew for a fact I loved Mai, I needed this. I needed to be reassured that no other women could make my heart beat like Mai did. I knew I loved Mai more than anyone, but I needed this embrace from Shiori. I buried my head into Shiori's hair and sobbed, I tried to muffle the sounds in her hair, but my body was shaking with sorrow. After what seemed like 20 minutes I calmed down, and broke away from the embrace. When I stared into Shiori's deep, kind eyes, there was a need for me to say something, anything, but then something unexpected came from my mouth.

"Shiori, I don't know if anyone's ever told you this, but you really beautiful." I blushed as I made that comment, not knowing where that came from. I could see this had also made Shiori blush, but she smiled shortly after.

"Thank… thank you, Yuuichi-kun. To be honest, this Is the 1st time anyone has ever told me I was beautiful, it really means a lot" just then Shiori moved in a little closer, this didn't bother me though, I was very close to Shiori, we've been friends long enough for her to close the large gap at which we usually sat.

"Shiori, I mean it. You're a very beautiful girl, and any guy will be lucky to have you as a boyfriend. Sooner or later you will…" just then Shiori did the most unexpected thing and kissed me. This kiss wasn't one I was hoping to have, and I wanted nothing more than to back up, but Shiori had her arms around my neck. She was definitely stronger than she looked. She continued to kiss me for a few minutes more, before releasing me and panting.

"Yuui… Yuuichi-kun, please…please kiss me back." Shiori brought her lips up to my ear before speaking again. "I've wanted you, for so long. I've watched and waited for you to get over Mai-senpai, but it seems you aren't even slightly over her." Her breathe began to slow again, and her words began to sound like a plea. "Yuuichi, ever since I met you, you've always been caring. You have always acted as an older brother to me, but I want more from you, a lot more, I love you. I mean I love you the way a girl loves a guy, the yearning love. I need you; otherwise I'll be empty on the inside." She whispered into my ear, I could see the side of her face, and she was as red as a tomato. "So please Yuuichi, kiss me, please?"

With her arms wrapped tightly around my neck, she moved in slowly for another round with my lips. This time, as she moved closer and closer I felt a warm flame, and I closed the space between us. Soon I felt like Shiori and I were one person, I focused on nothing but her lips, so soft, so sweet. Now that I think about it, it's the 1st real kiss I've ever shared with a girl, but that was unimportant. Shiori tried to gain access into my mouth, when I realized this I took the lead. I pushed her back gently and invaded her mouth. I explored every corner of it, until I needed a minute to catch my breath. My lips moved down to her neck, which she bared to me without contest, I've heard about this from friends, and I think now was the time where I sucked on her neck. My tongue made a circle around her neck, and I kissed it. Here goes, I sucked on her neck, and then she let out a soft moan, that kind of turned me on, I removed my lips, and saw the dark red circle on Shiori's neck.

"I love you Yuuichi, I love you, I love you" Shiori repeated again and again in soft moans as I moved down her neck.

It's weird how I know I'm in love with Mei, yet I can't stop. Shiori's body was calling to me, telling me it wanted more, and so was Shiori herself. Doing such things in such an area, what were we thinking, but then, I wasn't thinking. Her scent was amazing, I would have to ask her when we finished, what type of perfume she uses. Something felt wrong now, I broke away from Shiori, which was in total disagreement with my body, and just looked at her. Her hair was wild looking, her eyes were longing for more, she had several red marks on her neck, and her clothes were all wrinkled. For a first kiss, this had not been pure at all.

"Shiori, I have to go, I'll call you." And with that I ran off, to where? Who cares? All I knew was that I now realized that when I kissed Shiori, there was a flame, not like the lava I get from even touching Mai's hand, but a warm flame, that when exposed to some air, could grow uncontrollable.

To Be Continued!

=/ be nice and comment, this is a work in progress, if you tell me what I'm doing wrong, I'll be able to fix the 2nd part of the story which will come when I actually have an idea of which way to go (which means I'll need a little advise on where to go), also tell me if I should just end it next chapter, or aim to make this a long battle between Yuuichi's love of Mai and his craving of Shiori. Tyvm =) R & R