It's true, we're all a little insane.

I should know that. I know that I have a vampire boyfriend, that I am in love with, and also am in love with a werewolf. I have to be insane to love two creatures that could kill me with just one movement.


But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

They can't die, only by the cause of mythical creatures. That aren't so mythical. Fear is only an illusion, that most vampires don't have. Some have lost their minds, from the pain, and from drinking human blood. Others resorted to drinking off of animals instead.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

The Volturi love to torture people, and are the rulers of the vampires. They coujld break me like a human breaks a twig. Like I can break a piece of grass. Thats all I am to them, a blade of grass that won't be removed by there lawn mower, and the gardener, (Edward) who doesn't want to break the blade.

One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.

One day, I will forget Charlie and Renees names, and Jacobs. He will find love eventually. He has to imprint on somebody.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.

(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)

That is how I felt when Edward left me. Like my life wasn't worth anything. Like one day, luckily, I'd blow away easily in the wind, like the fragile human I am.

Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

Don't let the grief get to you Jacob. Don't run away from the pain, embrace it. Numbness is better, you will become numb eventually. I did. Only when I opened up my wounds, did the numbness go away. Bringing on waves of pain.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

AN: This was just Bella reflecting on her human life before being changes. This has no order for the rest of the story. I think it was a little dry of emotion, I'll try to make the other ones better I am sorry.