It's true, we're all a little insane.
I should know that. I know that I have a vampire boyfriend, that I am in love with, and also am in love with a werewolf. I have to be insane to love two creatures that could kill me with just one movement.
Fear is only in our
minds,
But it's
so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but
it's taking over all the time.
They can't die,
only by the cause of mythical creatures. That aren't so mythical.
Fear is only an illusion, that most vampires don't have. Some have
lost their minds, from the pain, and from drinking human blood.
Others resorted to drinking off of animals instead. You
poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know
you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.
The Volturi love
to torture people, and are the rulers of the vampires. They coujld
break me like a human breaks a twig. Like I can break a piece of
grass. Thats all I am to them, a blade of grass that won't be removed
by there lawn mower, and the gardener, (Edward) who doesn't want to
break the blade. One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And
one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.
One day, I will
forget Charlie and Renees names, and Jacobs. He will find love
eventually. He has to imprint on somebody. Fear is
only in our minds, You poor sweet
innocent thing. (I dream in
darkness
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in
our minds but it's taking over all the time.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to
hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my
life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of
nothingness,
Blow me away.)
That is how I
felt when Edward left me. Like my life wasn't worth anything. Like
one day, luckily, I'd blow away easily in the wind, like the fragile
human I am. Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still
too weak to survive your mistakes?
Don't let the
grief get to you Jacob. Don't run away from the pain, embrace it.
Numbness is better, you will become numb eventually. I did. Only when
I opened up my wounds, did the numbness go away. Bringing on waves of
pain. You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and
testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet
sacrifice.
AN: This was just Bella reflecting on her human life before being changes. This has no order for the rest of the story. I think it was a little dry of emotion, I'll try to make the other ones better I am sorry.
