Don't Want to Lose You Now-Songfic

By: Phantom of the Rocky Labyrinth

Summary: The Backstreet Boy's song Don't Want to Lose You Now. Edward and Bella lay in bed together and contemplate. After New Moon. Edward and Bella POV.

Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Twilight or New Moon (Besides copies of both books); I'm not the AMAZING Stephenie Meyer. So don't sue me. I also don't own the song by The Backstreet Boy's-Don't Want to Lose You Now.

A/N: This is my second attempt at Twilight fanfiction, so please review whether you like it or hate it, I don't mind flames and I LOVE constructive criticism! So review either way! Oh yes, and this is Edward's thoughts and this is Bella's thoughts. Song lyrics are in italics and are labeled accordingly as Edward or Bella.

We lay together on Bella's bed, my arms securely around her waist, both of us just thinking. Once again I wish that I could hear her thoughts, but I wish it in vain. Sometimes it frustrates me, but I should be glad. It was what first drew me to her, (besides her amazing scent), and I one of the things I love about her is that she always keeps me guessing. I try not to, but I am thinking about the time when I left her, and how much it hurt the both of us. It was painful just to think about what it was like to be without her for that long.

I never thought that I would lose my mind
Thought that I could control this

We lay together on my bed, Edward's arms securely around my waist, both of us just thinking. I was trying hard not to think of the time that he left, but I was still shaken up. I don't think Edward notices, though. If he does, he doesn't show it…I still just can't believe that he left me; that he thought it would be better for me to be without him. I could never be better off without him by my side.

Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you

Although I am glad that Bella never moved on after I left because it meant that she still loved me, I suffered every day knowing what I had done to her. I wish I knew how to show her how much I loved her, and that I would never, ever leave her again.


Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And I, I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care

Despite what Edward thinks, I do know the danger to me when I am with him. I know, but I simply don't care. I would literally die to be with him. I know that we can overcome that danger because of how deeply we are in love. Again, despite what he says, I know that he would never hurt me. True love can conquer all. I wish he could see that the way I can.

Don't wanna lose you now
I know we can win this

I don't think that I could bear it if I was ever without Bella again. It was bad enough to be away from her for a few days when I was hunting, or when it was sunny out. If she was ever taken away from me, I don't know what I'd do.


Don't wanna lose you now
No, no, or ever again

I want so badly to believe it when Edward says that he won't ever leave me again, but I am still scared. What if he won't listen to me when I say that it doesn't matter? When will he see that if we love each other, everything will be alright in the end.


I've got this feeling you're not gonna stay
It's burning within me

I am so afraid sometimes that I will lose control, that I will hurt her. I know that if I just changed her that I wouldn't have to worry, but I refuse to take away her humanity, to damn her soul forever. Even so, it seems so stupid to me now that even though it was to protect her, I left her. I could never bear that again. It was pure agony to be away from the one that I love.


The fear of losing
Of slipping away
It just keeps getting closer,
Whatever reason to leave that I've had
My place was always beside you

Sometimes when Edward was gone, I wished that I didn't love him anymore, just so the hurt would go away. Now I know that it would be impossible.


And I wish that I didn't need you so bad
Your face just won't go away

One of my greatest fears is that Bella will realize that she deserves better than me, and leave on her own. I hope that she knows how much I love her, even if I am inferior compared to the beautiful, magnificent creature that is Isabella Marie Swan.

Don't want to lose to loneliness
Girl I know we can win

I never want him to leave me again. I don't think that I could take it. I love him too much to be without him again. I never want to go back to the numb creature I was when he left.

Don't want to lose to emptiness
Never again

I tightened my hold on her as much as I would dare, burying my face in her neck and hair as she sighed and snuggled closer to me. I would enjoy every minute I had with her, even if I didn't have much time left. I just hoped what she told me was true.

I sighed and snuggled closer to him as I felt his arms tighten around me. I would enjoy every minute I had with him, even if I didn't have much time left. I just hoped that what he told me was true.

Don't want to lose you now.