How I feel
Different scents entered in through my nose filling me with the light crave for human blood. It wasn't in my power to take it though. I could not disappoint my family, I could not disappoint Alice. I smiled slightly as I felt her light squeeze pleasure my hands it was soothing knowing she was by my side and always would be.
We were sitting next to each other in the lunch room of Forks High school I wasn't touching the food on my tray. I was just thinking, absorbing all the emotions around me. I had to say, those damn teenage female hormones made me go mad, and the lustful waves rolling off the guys UGH! How inappropriate.
Worst of all, these emotions rub off on me like a mutt to its master…You just could call me EMO. That term made me laugh, they didn't know emotional even if they wanted to.
"Jasper?" asked Alice in a soft worried tone.
"Hmm?" I snapped my head up and looked at my love. "What is it?" I asked her in case she'd seen something.
"You've been quiet, I was just curious as to what you were thinking about." She stated with a bit of concern.
That was my Alice, always concerned about me and of others around her; I don't know what I'd do without her. "Ask Edward" I replied smugly glancing at my brother with a grin. He grinned back at me, Bella smiling next to him.
"He's thinking of how EMO he is compared to everyone else. Perhaps I should give you black hair dye and a razor for Christmas Jasper." He chuckled lightly
"Ha. Ha. And perhaps I should buy you a condom lustful little brother." I heard Emmet break into a roar of laughter next to me, who was laughing as well feeling the embarrassment just bounce off of Edward. I glanced at Bella seeing her face go a deep shade of red. Damn! The shyness took over me, I had to stop laughing…And just when I was having fun too.
Alice smiled and stood up dancing across the cafeteria floor to dump her untouched tray. I swear the Red Cross would have our heads if they saw how many meals we'd waste at school. It was depressing, however necessary.
Alice was about to sit down when her face went abruptly blank. I quickly caught her before she would topple over and attract the gazes of the other mortals. "Alice…Sweetheart, what did you see?" I murmured to her when her expression returned to normal.
She looked at me with a horrified expression. "Maria." She said simply…It suddenly reached my brain when she said that name.
My past was coming back to bite me in the ass…Damn these emotions!
