A/N: Hey all! Just a quick warning: this story is rated M for rape, language and later on sexual stuffs so please read with caution. If rape/recovery from rape bothers you please don't read. You have been warned.
I do not own Fairy Tail or it's characters. Hiro Mashima does. If I could have a full on relationship three way with Natsu and Gajeel I would in a heartbeat, just saying. They are both amazing. With that said, this is mainly a Gajevy fic but there will be a little NaLu as well.
Reviews are always appreciated! Thanks for reading!
It hurt. A pain I had never felt before. What is happening? My senses feel dulled and fuzzy. Something warm was close to me, no, it was on top of me.
I open my eyes slowly and see a dark shadow looming over me. I try to move away but my hands are bound underneath me.
"Mmm looks like you are finally awake to enjoy the action. Sorry sweety but I couldn't wait for the drugs to wear off to have some fun." The shadow growls as he leans in and kisses my neck. What is he doing? No...no this isn't happening.
I try to scream but my mouth is wrapped up with a dirty cloth. A dirty smell hits my nose and I almost vomit. I struggle but to no prevail. He is...my brain couldn't even think the word.
"It feels even better now that you are awake to enjoy it." The sick bastard purrs in my ear as he continues his thrusting.
Tears streamed down my face, the salty water stinging in places. Then the pain in the rest of my body decided to make itself known. I hurt everywhere. Calm down Levy. Maybe...maybe if I just let it happen he will finish faster and then it'll be over. Yeah...I breath slowly and my eyes squeeze shut. It'll be over soon. Think about...what? I search for something happy but come up empty.
A ruckus brings me back to reality for a second. Shouting?
"We are under attack! Everyone to arms!" My attacker stops his movement and looks over his shoulder.
"What the fuck...just when I was getting close." He grumbles and pulls away, standing and zipping up his pants. I wince and close my legs unable to stop them from trembling.
"Hurry up you fuckheads! There's only two of them. Take them down!" A man roars in the distance. Her attacker runs off as the shouts grow louder.
I shake off my nausea and look around for a way to escape. That's when I see...
"Lucy!" I murmur through the mouth gag. She was tied up to my right still unconscious. Shit. What do I do? Think Levy. Worry about the other stuff later. Right now you need to escape safely with Lucy!
I roll on my side and get a face full of dirt as I try to maneuver out of the rope binding my hands together. It was too tight. Shit! The shouting outside turns to frantic retreating calls and several men run past the makeshift tents opening. Two people beat the entire camp? Maybe it was a small camp? I turn back to Lucy and try to inch closer to her. If I could just wake her up...
Wait, is that footsteps approaching? I freeze as two men approach. I stare wide-eyed at them too afraid to move.
"Salamander, looks like these shitheads had prisoners." One said as the other approached Lucy and shook her. She moaned and opened her eyes slowly. Good, she was okay. I sigh in relief.
The one named Salamander stiffens and stands up, his nose in the air. "Gajeel, you smell that?" He almost growls out. The other, Gajeel, lets out a snarl that has me trembling harder despite myself.
"Yeah..." He turns his eyes to me and I shrink back as I see his crimson eyes. They looked like orbs of blood. Was he a demon?
Lucy looks at them and then at me. "Come on blondie let me get those ropes off you." Lucys' binds are cut and she runs over to me crying. It felt so good to feel her close to me, especially after what happened. She takes off my mouth gag and I suck in several large breathes of fresh air.
"Please unbind my friend Levy. Please!" She looks at the one called Salamander pleadingly. He nods and starts towards us. Oh no.
"No!" My voice feels raspy. I shake my head and move away from all of them. Red hot adrenaline shoots through me. "Don't come near me. Don't touch me!" I yell. What was this sensation? I was scared of them. It was so absolute and so tangible. I had never been a recluse when it came to touching, especially among friends but now...
"Levy...they are okay. They aren't the bad guys. At least...I don't think they are." Lucy finishes softly and looks at the two guys who had been silent.
The one named Gajeel scoffs and steps forward into the fading light. His face had several piercings and was framed by a mane of pitch black hair that stuck out in every direction possible. He was shirtless and wore baggy black pants and combat boots.
Salamander enters and the first thing I notice is his unruly pink hair. He looked openly concerned at both me and Lucy with eyes black as night. He had no shirt and wore baggy white pants that were bound below his knees and plain black sandals.
I cringe under Gajeels menacing red eyes. He regards me with an unreadable look and then looks at Salamander. "We need to get back home before neighboring camps take notice and come to investigate." He turns back to me and walks forward with a purpose.
"No please. Don't come near me..." I say weakly.
Lucy moves to block his way. "Please, let me cut her binds. I don't want us to cause you more trouble." Gajeel complies and hands over his blade. It looked so large in her small hands but I stay still as she turns and saws at the thick rope.
My hands are free at last and I rub my wrists slowly, not meeting anyones gaze. My brain was running a million miles a second but no coherent thought was clear.
"Good lets get going. C'mon, you two can come with us back home! There's food and plenty of beds." The pink haired guy says with a huge smile. It caught us both off guard and I felt more than saw Lucy shiver slightly.
She turns to look at me and I meet her gaze timidly. She knew something was wrong but didn't want to ask in front of these strangers. We didn't know where we were. We had no food or clothes or money. We had little choice but to go with these men.
I nod and she helps me stand. We step towards our saviors and follow them outside to see the camp on fire.
"Wow...you guys did all this?" Lucy exclaims and the pink haired guy grins widely.
"Hell yeah! These bastards didn't stand a chance." He laughs loudly and Gajeel grins at him. That guy was beyond scary. They both were scary but him more than Salamander.
"Oh by the way, I'm Natsu." He grins and holds out his hand.
"I thought it was Salamander? I'm Lucy and this is my best friend Levy." Lucy grins and takes his hand. Man she was being friendly.
I nod at him but kept my distance. "Hi! And this is Gajeel. I guess he could be called my best friend...we usually work together." Gajeel rolls his eyes and then looks at me again. Why did he keep looking at me?
"Let's go dammit. I'm getting hungry." He growls. "Lily! Come!" He roars and the light padding of paws comes out of the darkness as a large black cat bounds into the light. He was magnificent. All black with a large crescent shaped scar over his left eye.
I feel my legs move on their own accord as I approach the large feline. He regards me with interest and allows me to run my hands over face. A loud purring emits from his throat and I feel a small warmth in my chest.
"He's...beautiful." I whisper. I was never allowed to be around animals. My father despised all creatures and mother wouldn't fight him but I had always yearned for a companion; one who wouldn't judge me or yell at me. Someone I could talk to you and love with no fear of rejection.
"Well don't just stand there shorty. Hop on so we can get moving." Gajeel walks up to the cat and hops onto his back.
I look over to Lucy who was astride a big blue cat with Natsu behind her. She was watching me concerned. Okay Levy this will be fine. You need to get through this and then once you are alone you can let it out into a pillow.
I give Gajeel an uneasy look and he moves farther back on Lilys back to give me more room. I get on the big cats back and lean forward for support. Gajeel moves closer but doesn't touch me. Well, that's surprising. A small voice in the back of my head says as we take off.
The trip wasn't long and that was a relief. The pain between my legs was becoming more apparent with each stride of Lilys body. It really happened. It wasn't my first time nor my fifth but it made no difference. I feel...disgusting. I cringe and cling tighter to Lilys back. The landscape was blurred shades of black as the sun finally set and the moon had yet to rise. I needed a shower. I needed to be alone. I needed...
"We are here." Gajeel says gruffly. The cat had stopped and I didn't even realize it. Natsu and Lucy were staring at me.
I get off without a word. I was on the cusp of breaking down and I'd be damned if it was in front of these strangers. "Thank you both so much for saving us." Lucy saves the day. "We don't want to be a bother...but we are really tired." She says sheepishly and steps closer to me for support. I nod in agreement. We still weren't sure how we even ended up in the camp to begin with.
"Of course! I'll show you to your rooms." Natsu led the way and Gajeel followed. I gave one last look to Lily. What an amazing creature.
Natsu led us to shabby looking building that looked like it had several renovations done over the years. It was patched and old but looked cozy. I follow Natsu with Lucy next to me and Gajeel bringing up the rear. I didn't like him behind me. I try to focus on the building itself but it was blurring. Everything was fuzzy.
I barely heard Natsu say my name and point to a door. That must be my room. I was relieved that we weren't sharing. I knew Lucy wanted to talk but I didn't. I couldn't. I bow my head in silent thanks and run into the room shutting the door behind me as silently as I could before flinging myself onto the large bed.
Okay now I can cry. The tears didn't come. I was numb. So numb I couldn't even form tears and vent my feelings. I roll onto my back and stare up at the vaulted ceiling. I couldn't get the feeling of the mans body on me out of my head. Usually the thought excited me but now it only brought bile to my throat.
Bathroom. Where is the bathroom? Shit. I didn't ask. I wasn't sure how long I had laid there but there was no lights under my door. I tip toe over to it and open it slowly. No squeaking or creaking. Complete silence.
A rustle to my right causes me to jump and cover a shriek with my hand. Lily flicks his tail and stares at me silently. Was he guarding my door? I breath out slowly in relief and walk over to the giant cat to scratch his head.
That's when I see him. He was slumped against Lilys belly, asleep. Gajeel. He had put on a black tunic and blended so completely into Lilys fur that I almost missed seeing him entirely. Maybe they didn't trust us to be left alone so they set guards at our doors? Some guard if he can't even stay up a few hours...
I tip toe past him and head down the hall to a door that revealed a modest sized bathroom and shower. There were a couple of neatly folded clothes in a stack next to the sink. Pajamas? That was thoughtful of them. Then I turn and look into the ornately framed mirror.
Disgusting. I looked horrid and not only because of my matted blue hair and dirty skin but the once elegant pale blue dress was shredded and had mud smeared on it. That's right, we had been at a ball thrown by Lucys father. It was her 16th birthday and the whole kingdom of Crocus had been invited.
I finger the fabric and hesitate taking it off. I didn't want to look at myself. I felt...defiled. Damaged. I turn away from the mirror and strip, pushing the dark thoughts from my mind. I just need a hot shower and to get clean. Then I'll feel fine again.
The water spurts from the high shower head and it's like bathing under a luxurious waterfall. I let the hot water sanitize my skin from head to toe and just stood there for what seemed like hours. Then the scrubbing started. I just needed to scrub hard and get HIM off me. I just needed to get the feeling off my skin. I scrubbed harder with the bristle brush until my skin was raw all over my body.
It wasn't enough. Why wasn't it helping? I bite my lip and lean my forehead against the tiled wall. No one will want me now. I'm damaged goods. I fall to my knees as the tears burst out of me. I was crying so hard and I couldn't stop. They just kept coming and I kept sobbing louder and louder. I had never known despair until that moment. I couldn't touch myself with my bare hands. I couldn't look at myself.
"This isn't your fault, Levy. It's that man's fault." I whisper aloud to myself. I said the words but they dissipated in the stream of water. I hunch lower before turning the water off and slowly drying off with one of the available towels.
I dress quietly avoiding the mirror and my reflection. They had provided a soft pair of baggy pants and a matching shirt for pajamas. It was comfortable and covered up my body enough.
Let's get some sleep Levy. You'll feel better in the morning. My mind soothes and I nod to myself as I tip toe back to my room. My body was starting to sting from the raw scrubbing but the pain felt oddly good. It distracted my mind from the pain in another area. I was so distracted with the pain that I walked right into something hard.
Strong hands grab my arms before I fall backwards and then immediately let me go when I yelp in pain. I look up into Gajeels glowing red eyes. Lily is standing behind him, eyes shining yellow in the dark hallway.
"What the hell are you doing up at this hour, Blue?" He growls and I step back automatically at his aggressive tone. Wait, Blue?
"M-my name is Levy. I wanted to take a shower." I stammer and curse myself for sounding as scared as I felt. I was never a strong girl physically but I could hold my own in a fight of tongues. Where was my courage dammit!
"At three in the morning? What a great time for a shower in an unknown place." I couldn't see it but I felt him frowning deeply down at me like he was disappointed. I just keep screwing up. Fuck. What is wrong with me?
"I'm sorry. I won't do it again..." I mumble and bow my head in shame. Ah shame. I only knew what to call it from the self-help books I'd read to help other people. Now here I was feeling the same thing I told other people to overcome. It was easy after all. At least, I thought so. But now, feeling the red hot heat of shame spread over my face and neck I couldn't remember how to alleviate it. All I wanted to do was crawl under a rock and die.
Gajeel grunts and turns to his cat. "Lil, stay with Blue would you? Make sure she doesn't wander off by herself." He turns on his heel and stalks off, his large form quickly swallowed by the shadows.
I tremble in place unsure whether to feel grateful for the company or ashamed at needing to be babysat.
Lily pads over and nudges my thigh with his great head. I rest a hand on his neck and let him lead me back to my room. He jumps on the bed like he owns the place and stares at me intently. I had never slept with an animal before. Though, the thought of sleeping with a person sent my stomach into flip flops.
I climb in next to him and get comfortable. He readjusts to fit my position and lays his head above mine. His body heat engulfs me and I finally drift into a fitful sleep.
Every noise real or imaginary woke me up that night and soon the sun was shining through the bedroom window.
Lily purrs as I stretch out and scratch him behind the ears. Okay, today was a new day. I'm good. Everything is just fine. I look down at my arm stretched up and notice the skin was red. I really scrubbed hard last night didn't I? I think with a frown.
Don't think about it. You are okay, Levy. You are in a new place with new people and you are with your best friend!
I will myself to smile and get out of bed. There was a neat stack of clothes near the door on a desk. Someone must have dropped those off this morning. I'm surprised I didn't wake up to that. I change quickly and admire the orange sundress. It was lovely although a little short. The hem barely reached mid-thigh. I pull it down self consciously but decide to go with it. It was a gift after all. These people didn't have to dress her or give her pajamas or even let her stay here. Growing up in high society didn't make her an ungrateful lady. On the contrary she valued and appreciated people way more than most of the people her age.
Lily pads over to the door and looks at her expectantly. I smile at him and open the door, following him out into the now brightly light hallway and to the dining room.
It was moderately sized and full of people yelling and laughing. Food and drinking was abundant. I should be hungry. I should eat something. I think as I scan the crowd for Lucy. I didn't want to go into the crowd. So many people. Maybe I should just go back to my room...and that's when I spot her at the bar with Natsu. She was smiling and as happy as could be, all eyes on him as he waves his arms around.
I walk along the wall and manage to skip the majority of the people. Lucy spots me and flings herself at me in a bear hug. I hug her tightly and smile as we step back to check out each others clothes. She had a cute black skirt on with a pink corset style top. It really suited her flirty personality. I look behind her to Natsu and see him admiring her from behind. He catches me watching him and turns away with a raging blush exploding on his cheeks. Well that was cute.
Lucy is talking to me and I struggle to tune back in. "So Natsu was saying we are in Magnolia. It's a few days journey from Crocus. Him and Gajeel can take us home anytime we want!" She's saying happily.
"That's very nice of them." I reply softly. "Do they know who kidnapped us?"
Lucy frowns and nods slowly. "Yeah, they were with a gang called Phantom Lord. Their leader Jose is known for stealing precious commodities and ransoming them back. But it's usually artwork or jewelry. Never people."
I frown at this. So why are we the first? We came from rich families but there was far richer in Fiore. Better question is how did they pull it off? Last I remember we were sitting at a table eating and watching hundreds of people dancing. We were up in front by the throne in front of everyone with guards everywhere. Was it an inside job? Did our fathers have traitors working for them?
My thoughts were interrupted as I felt an unknown heat source on my bare shoulders. I turn quickly and take a step back before seeing it was Gajeel. He had that unreadable look on his face again as he stared at me. What was he thinking? I could practically hear the gears whirling in his head. I was pretty good at reading people from their facial cues and body language but this guy gave nothing away. He was a blank slate.
"Gajeel! About time you joined us. I thought you were supposed to be guarding Levy?" Natsu comes up beside me with a smirk.
Gajeel matches his smirk and I notice his canines are longer than the average persons' like a dog. Well that's scary...
I back step to stand by Lucy and watch as the guys trash talk. They seemed to hate each other but didn't Natsu say they were best friends? Odd.
"Fuck off you flameless nut sack. I was scouting the camps nearby for any intel of the girls kidnappers. Seems those Phantom Fuckheads have been grabbing girls from all across the continent." He growls out. Natsu laughs surprising me and Lucy.
"W-what's so funny Natsu?" Lucy asks and he looks at her with a wide grin and glinting black eyes. He had long canines as well. Were they related? What a weird trait for family members to share...
His face abruptly turned dark and made me shrink back behind Lucy. "Because now we get to hunt them down and make them wish they never got the idea of kidnapping helpless women." He was terrifying. They both were. What were we doing here? Calm down Levy! Dammit.
My fearful brown eyes shoot up to Gajeel as he pushes past Natsu and leans down to look at me. I was already up against the bar and couldn't back up any farther. It was too much. Too many people. Unfamiliar place. I hurt all over. My head, my chest, my...Fuck!
I bolt. Lucy yells after me but I don't stop. I didn't know where else to go so I run back to my room and shut the door. The silence engulfs me and I breathe hard. The tears flowed over my pale cheeks with relish as I stare up at the unfamiliar ceiling. Why were we still here? We should've started towards home early in the morning.
A dull thudding was sounding in my ears like a heart beat. Why can't it be quiet? I just want complete silence. Ba-bum...ba-bum...ba-bum...over and over.
I grab my head willing it to stop. Ba-bum...ba-bum...
"Ahhh! Shut up!" I cry and dive head first into the bed, burying my face in the sheets trying to find silence.
'Mmm feels so good now that you are awake.' The bastards sickly sweet voice plays through my head and then goes farther, 'Oh yeah...that's it just a little more.' No no please not inside me. I don't want that inside me! My mind screams as the dream keeps going.
"Levy!" That didn't sound like the bastard. "Levy, snap out of it!" I gasp and bolt up narrowly missing Lucys' face.
"Lucy!" I cry and fling myself at her unable to hold it back any longer. The tears flow and I sob heavily into her neck. She holds me tightly and rubs my back cooing.
"Shhh it's okay Le, I'm here. Just let it out." She whispers. The door opens and I miss the look between her and Gajeel.
Soon, a warm hard mass bumps my leg and I choke out a smile as Lily impatiently nudges me. "C'mere Lil." I murmur and he jumps up and encircles me and Lucy.
"What...what happened Le?" Lucy says as my sobs become less frequent. I pull back and gratefully accept the tissue box that she hands over.
"I...one of the guys...the kidnappers...he..." I couldn't say the word. It was so disgusting and my tongue wouldn't acknowledge it's existence.
"Did he attack you while I was unconscious?" She looks at me intently and I decide that's a good enough interpretation. We were best friends but I know she kept intimate details of her life to herself sometimes. This would be my burden, my foul secret.
"Yeah...it scared me so bad but then Natsu and Gajeel started attacking and he left thankfully." I distract myself by petting Lily.
Lucy nods in understanding. "Those bastards! How dare they do this to us. Once we get back I'll tell Father and then they will have the whole Crocus army on their butts!" Her face is scrunched in anger. Yes, her father was very powerful and could command the entire militia with the drop of his hand. It was a nice thought but didn't comfort me.
I smile and feign happiness at her idea. She was a good friend for caring so much. Though, I'm glad I didn't tell her the truth. She wouldn't know how to deal with it. Maybe she would treat me differently and I didn't want that. I needed her support.
We sit there in comfortable silence for what seemed like hours. Both in our own thoughts. Lily snoozed next to us and I silently thanked Gajeel for lending me his cat. If only he wasn't so fucking scary looking...
"Levy what's wrong?" Lucy scoots closer and puts her hand on my leg.
"I just...I just want to go home." I deflect. The sooner we get home the better. No reason to bring up the red eyed man now.
She sighs and nods. "I know. I already sent a note via raven to Father telling him where we are. I want to wait for a reply." That meant we would be here a few days at least. Maybe even a week. Fuck my life.
I nod slowly and decide to change the subject. I needed to stop dwelling on what happened and just forget about it. Classic aversion technique. The best way to deal with pain is to smoosh it and ignore it. "So...you find out if his hair is naturally pink?" I say slyly with a grin. Lucy blushes crimson and stutters, knowing exactly who I'm referring to.
"O-oh well...no. I asked him last night if he could keep my company so I wasn't scared and he left that big blue cat Happy with me and said he would watch my door." I gawk at her. No one had every refused Lucy. It was a little comical.
"Are you sure he even knew what you were implying? Maybe he's not too bright..." I muse. She shrugs but doesn't look too hurt over it.
"He woke me up with clothes and a huge grin, saying he couldn't wait to show me their home." She smiles and twirls her hair. "He's really sweet."
Unlike his counterpart. I glower wishing Natsu was my guard instead of the stoic Gajeel. Though he did have his moments or more like he let his cat do the nice work.
"Anyway, Natsu wanted to take you and me fishing today. He says Happy loves it and it'd give us a chance to see the environment around here. You should come!"
I start to agree and then stop. Having to keep up the happy face would be exhausting. I need to be alone. The distraction may be nice but I just couldn't keep it up all day. My brain wouldn't let me forget this shit that easily.
"I'm not feeling too well. I'm going to stay in and rest today." I say apologetically. She frowns but nods and gets up.
"Okay well we will be back before dark. You get better and I'll see you at dinner." She hugs me quickly and I try not to cling to her comforting gesture.
She shuts the door quietly and I'm plunged into silence. The thudding in my ears slowly returns as I frantically look around for a distraction. Why did I want to be alone? I don't want to work through this. I just want to forget about it!
I hold my head and whimper quietly. How does one deal with this shit? I didn't know anyone that has been through this...or...at least they didn't tell me.
Lily makes a disgruntled noise and walks towards the door. "I guess you don't want to be around me either, huh kitty." I murmur and pull myself off the bed. I felt like a black cloud was hanging over me and any minute the rain would come. Tears prick my eyes as I open the door for Lily only to see Gajeel standing, arms crossed and looking angry.
"Why the hell are you staying holed up in your room, eh?" He growls and moves forward. I hastily step back out of his way and he barges in looking around and then focusing his red hot gaze back on me.
I shrink under the glare and look down at my feet. "Well? Didn't blondie ask you to go outside?" I shrug.
"I wanted to stay in."
"Oh it looks like you are having a blast in here too!" He frowns and stands right in front of me. So close. I back up.
"Hey are you even listening Blue? Look at me dammit." He reaches out a gloved hand and I jerk back afraid.
"Don't, please. I-I'm sorry. I'll go outside." I stammer still unable to look higher than his waist.
His hand falls to his side and I hear him suck in a huge breath. Was he going to hit me? He seemed angry at me. Was it a bad omen for a guest to stay inside? Did I break one of their customs?
"I aint gonna hurt you, got it?" His voice sounded so different then it did seconds ago. I run my finger nails over my thighs, digging them into the soft flesh to try and keep control. A nervous habit that seems to have reemerged. Father will be thrilled. I was so confused. I was afraid of being so close to a strange man and I didn't want him to be angry. I don't know what to say to him.
I continue looking at his waist, focusing on the worn leather belt that held his baggy pants loosely around his hips.
He sighs and a small tube comes into my line of sight. "For your skin. It looks really bad." He grunts and I finally look up at his face. He's looking everywhere but at me but there was a faint flush to his cheeks. Was he embarrassed? I look down and gingerly take the tube of cream, unsure of what to say. It was a surprising gesture. Not even Lucy had commented on how red my skin looked.
I look up and he's watching me, unsure by my silence. "Thank you, Gajeel." I smile feeling a small ray of sunshine break through my black cloud.
He grins, flashing a long canine but this time it wasn't as scary. "Now you are in my debt and this afternoon I'm taking you outside. So be ready." I gape and as he laughs a strange "Gihi" noise and walks out the door.
Well fuck, what a manipulative bastard. I can't help but smile though as I sit on the bed and begin rubbing the cream over my sensitive arms. What a bastard...
End Note: Well that's the first chapter. Thoughts?
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