I've been trying to write something to this song ever since Ash (Akiraflame-tumblr) showed me this song when my entire world fell apart around me. It's about time I just let everything go and move forward with mine and my daughters life. We're starting a new chapter that I'm really excited about. I'm learning to be happy again, I'm learning to be a single parent. It's been rough these past few months but I am stronger than I was and I am so goddamn thankful for the lovelies in Bethyl-ghost-chat.
She looked down at her sleeping daughter, tears forming. She took a deep breath, trying to hold back the surge of emotions she felt. She reached down and ran her hand through the little ones hair.
We're better off just friends... The words he just said to her played on repeat in her head. She sat down on the bed and the tears started falling. She felt completely frozen, her heart beating erratically in her chest. She couldn't move, couldn't stop the words from playing on repeat in her head. She felt the bed dip next to her, felt his arms around her shoulders as he pulled her closer.
A part of her wanted to shove him away. Another part of her wanted to curl in closer, hold onto this moment of him holding her tightly one last time. Instead, Beth sat there, frozen in time. She felt her body shake with the force of her sobbing.
"Sh, c'mon, Beth, it's okay. Breathe."
She forced herself to take a ragged breath and then another. Her body shook harder the more she tried to slow her sobs. Daryl pulled her body tighter against his and laid them down on the body, wrapping both arms around her. He ran his fingers through her hair, rubbed her back.
"Talk ta me,"
She shook her head.
"Let it out,"
"How..." She had to stop and wait out the sobs, " How can you give up on our family, our life?"
"It ain't like I won't be 'round."
"What did I do? Why aren't we worth fighting for? What the hell did I do that was so wrong to make ya leave us? Is she not worth us fighting for our family an' our life?" Betrayal bubbled it's way to the surface of her emotions.
He didn't say anything for a long time. "It ain't ya."
"Than why won't you fight? We've always gotten through everything thats been thrown at us before!" She pulled away from him and stood up, her body finally cooperating enough to let her get some distance from him.
"If we stay together we ain't gonna be able ta be friends,"
"That's bullshit an' ya know it," She felt the fight drain back out of her as fast as it hit her. It was over. She walked back to the bed and pulled the blanket back. She slipped under the blanket and curled herself into the tightest ball she could. She covered her face with the blanket and let the tears start falling again.
Her hands shook as she packed his clothing and few belongings into a couple of boxes. She thought back to the years they spent together, and to their life after having their daughter.
The front door opening pulled Beth back from her memories. Rick, their best friend walked in the door. He took a long look at her before he pulled her into a strong hug.
"How do I explain to a toddler that daddy's gone? How do I explain this shit to my daughter? What am I supposed to do when she asks for daddy?"
"You'll tell her what ya need to. You'll be the best that she ever knows,"
"I'll carry his share for us both, no matter how hard it gets, how dark the storm gets. Ill be mommy an' daddy,"
