(the texts they never sent)

Sherlock
Please tell me this isn't real
Right now it feels like I'm in a dream
I can't function
The shock of it all is too much to bear
-JW

Don't worry about me
I can't talk to to you now
It's too risky
Soon, I will explain it all
Just wait for me
-SH

I will never be convinced of it
I'm still living in shock of what happened
It's all so confusing
I just want to know why
If I ever see you again, please explain
-JW

I will
-SH

It's been so long
I'm losing hope
I miss you
-JW

Hold on
-SH

(and the thoughts they never shared)

When I first met him, I was taken aback
His manner was odd, at first
Then he began to change
He seemed more relaxed around me
We became more comfortable around each other
Later I realized how much he changed me
After I had been back from a war
I needed someone like him
No one else could have done that
We became best friends
In the process, changing each other for the better
Even though his attitude was one of indifference
Actions showed me that he cared
He would never directly admit it
I was fine with that
It just worked
Until that dark day
I lost him
That day, a part of me died
-JW

I'm sorry
It was the only solution
As much as I wanted to avoid it, I couldn't
I wanted to be able to talk to you one last time
Do you know how hard it was to make that call?
You realize that I care more about you than I have about anyone else
It hurts me when I hurt you
Stupid, stupid, I fumed at myself for doing that to you
The final problem would be solved
But in the meantime, another would arise
-SH