You wouldn't understand, you've never had everything you have ever known ripped away from you, you've never had every choice and every decision made for you since you were a child. You wouldn't understand because you never had someone who was meant to care for you, someone who was meant to only touch you with love, destroy your trust in them, scar you forever. My scars will never heal, they are frozen as they are, faded from sight but always there. Emmett heals my scars, he make me better, he makes me feel like me again.
The first thing Emmett did when he woke up from changing was go hunt down the bear that took his life. He wanted revenge and he got it then he moved on. I could never do that, I got my revenge of course. I hunted them down, one by one, like the animals they were. But that wasn't the first thing I did, as soon as I woke up, I ran to the bathroom. Ripping the parts of the clothes that had survived the transformation off my body and scrubbing myself clean of them, of what they did. Once done, I stared at my new body in the mirror, laying a hand on my stomach. The stomach that will never grow with my children, the breasts that will never feed them. Those bastards took that away from me and they will pay, my family knew where I as going, what I was doing but none of them tried to stop me, Esme and Carlisle pitied me, I could see it in their eyes. I did not want their pity, they should pity the men who crossed me, the fate they suffered. Edward just looked on, he didn't judge, just let his eyes pass over me as if I wasn't there. He was the first man who had ever rejected me, who did not want me.
I was no longer soft, fragile human Rosalie, daughter of middle class parents who yearned for me, who saw their daughters beauty as a gift to lift them to new heights in society. I was Rosalie Cullen, beautiful, rich and deadly. I ran my hands over the skin on my arm, feeling the hard muscles beneath. I no longer needed protection, I was held to no man, I didn't need one to look after me. I was finally free.
